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DUST by KnifeEdge I made this account so that I could say that I read this story years ago, and I remember holding it close to my heart. I reread this story -- particularly this chapter, with Buffy traumatized and taking comfort -- around once a year now. It is so meaningful to me, and I am so glad that it is still somewhere that I can find it and read it. I cannot tell you how much it meant to me, in a way that I can't quantify or explain, to read this story; your writing is beautiful, your characterization vivid, and I think more than anything you capture the immense and torturous power people can have over one another. Even if you never write another word of this story, to me it is still a nearly perfect thing. I held onto it when I was struggling, when I felt trapped and unlovable, and it gave me a sense that things could be better, that they would be, even if misery felt interminable. I hope you are well, and thank you again. Desdenova 03/10/2017 09:07 pm Chapter 32 I know this story is old, and will very probably be left unfinished, but it's one of the best Spuffy fanfics I've ever read, so I feel compelled to drop a comment. Captivating, incredibly well written and totally in caracter, unlike many other fics where Buffy and Spike are thrown in each other's arms as quickly as possible. You've done a great job. Kitty 07/28/2015 12:45 am Chapter 32 Figures; I find you some two years after you've stopped being active on any of the forums I find your fanfics on. Was re-reading some stuff by Pika-la-Cynique and found you through some convoluted google-fu. Read your epics, then found this. I confess to indifference towards BtVS, and the Angel tv series, found I can't look away from the visceral portrayals you did of what would have to be one of the best 'opposites attract' story-potentials I have had the pleasure of reading, both in this and the more fairytale laden West of the Moon, East of the Sun. Dammit the sheer richness of the emotions churning and boiling between these two makes your work an absolute pleasure to read, whether they are hatefucking in Dust or discovering each other in WotM,EotS, and I find myself despairing of seeing your work ever again, let alone seeing the conclusion to Dust. You have had me alternately crying from laughter, cursing the blindness of your pairing, and railing at foolish, immature notions of 'This is Black and Evil, This is White and Good, and Never the Twain shall Meet' I have gone from your Labyrinth fics to BtVS Sbuffy, and I eagerly await seeing you update once more. Saw the long hiatuses you've had and now I hope to see you coming back with more. I realise this may be fairly pointless and you may never see it, but I'd love read more from you. Joan 06/27/2014 10:39 pm Chapter 32 Can I just say that I am dying to read more of this! You promised that this story hasnt been abandoned so there\'s still hope left in the world! I have been utterly hooked reading this stories till the wee hours of the night and not regretting it one bit. Because I cannot get enough of your work and Spuffy in general i\'m going to go rest West of the Moon now, but DUST resonates with me and has a very special place in my heart. I\'m going to read it again when I have time, too. And i reallly want to read the next chapter. Anyway i\'ll keep it short because its 4.08 am and my eyes are blurry and i\'m on my iPhone and my fingers hurt, but also because i cannot describe in words how beautiful, precious, unique and inspirational your fanfic DUST has been and it will forever be one of my all time faves. Be well! :-). iheartspikeabees 05/10/2014 09:08 am Chapter 32 I just finished reading this and I really really hope you will continue it (I noticed on your lj that the last mention of it was over a year ago and that doesn't bode very well...) at least it ended without some huge cliffhanger, but I want to read the rest :) momnesia@yahoo.com 11/07/2013 12:54 am Chapter 32
Extremely good story! PLEASE SAY YOU WILL FINISH IT SOMETIME! I have read some very good fan fiction, and even more BAD fan fiction. THIS IS DEFINITELY OF THE GOOD!!!! jacqui 03/31/2013 06:02 pm Chapter 32 Ive read several of your stories & they are fantastic. Your characters are so spot on with the origional show, if these were actually books i would buy them. I hope you add to this story soon. Love it! Robinrene 11/24/2012 12:57 pm Chapter 32 I fell in love with this story awhile back, but I haven't seen any updates. Are there anymore chapters than chapter 32? Maybe on another website? Please update... I want to know how these two save the town from their endless slumber. I want to know if Buffy will tell Spike how she really feels. My emai is rr.montg@yahoo.com Just write "Dust Fanfic" in the subject so I know it's you. Thank you for the beautiful story. Just wanted to let you know how much I truly enjoy reading all of your stories. This one is fantastic and I can not wait to read more! On a side note, I happened to read a post that you put up on your LJ and wanted to tell you that I think it is just horrible that someone had the nerve to say that! tyfghjuiygutfgvhb 07/09/2012 06:14 am Chapter 32 LOVE. SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS STORY. I ALMOST CAN"T READ IT CAUSE ITS SO BRILLIANT. GO NOW AND WRITE A BOOK FOR ME TO READ. Missycam 06/11/2012 07:41 pm Chapter 32 I just finished to read your fic and.... wow it's bloody awesome!! I never read anything like this and I find this interesting and the steamy scenes... hummm yummy! :-P Thank you for posting a fic like that! Can't wait for the next chap! ;-) Nice riff on the Angel question. One of the many things that Joss never resolved but hangs out there like a big old hangnail. sue 04/18/2012 04:44 pm Chapter 32 Fantastic chapter. The whole taking us and Buffy back to that pivotal moment with the Master - and the moment in the dark when she now realises, with no fanfare but with the awful weight of realisation: that Angel could have saved her. Attempted it, at least. Just as Spike did, these years later, with no sense at that time of what had transpired years earlier. Their mixed-up relationship, Slayer and soulless vampire, only girl and boy awake with girl and boy very awake parts ......... worth waiting for, this. Thank you! Bridget 04/18/2012 02:56 am Chapter 32 TextI I was so happy to see an update. I really like how you have written Buffy and Spike and the CPR scene was very emotional to me. I could see Buffy's face and almost feel her reaction when Spike breathed into her mouth. I also liked their physical and emotional attachment on the walk back to the house and in the shower. I love this story and look forward to more chapters. Yingxs 04/18/2012 01:20 am Chapter 32 Hi,wow never thought there would be an update again. Thank you :-D alya 04/17/2012 11:31 pm Chapter 32 Loved that. Spitfire 04/17/2012 05:11 pm Chapter 32
Great to see another update - gorgeous chapter ending; nice to see them falling asleep in one another's arms. Poor Buffy, pulled one way by her slayer training and another way by her instincts. You made a comment over on your livejournal about Buffy being harder to write than Spike. I agree that she is, but you bring her (both of them actually) to life so well. Can't wait for next chapter. amaya 04/17/2012 12:36 pm Chapter 32 Please don't keep us waiting that long the next time. I like this story and I want to read more. Try to update it as soon as you can. PLEASE. alya 01/15/2012 10:30 pm Chapter 31 This is outstandingly good and beautifully written. You should really apologise for the cliffhanger because I'm desperate for the next chap!xx tiggerr0 01/06/2012 07:47 pm Chapter 31 So glad to see Dust updated. I actually haven't read any fic in the last couple months and been very discontent with that fact. You are one of my top 3 writers - I love how you write both Buffy and Spike. So true to them Can't wait for the next update. Crossing my fingers life gives you time to update a little faster...that cliff hanger is killing me! Hah! You are so not planning to apologize for the cliff-hanger! But I'm thrilled to see more of this fic. Love watching them struggle toward... something. Wonderful mingling of canon events/dialogue into this wildly AU story. No, you don’t,” he said. He laid one hand over where his heart had once beat. “But thanks for sayin’ it.” This, for instance. :) I'm torn between gnashing my teeth for the next chapter, and exerting some of my (pretty much non-existant) self control and waiting for it to be complete so I can enjoy it at one long sitting. BuffyMeetsSpike 12/30/2011 05:24 am Chapter 31 First thought: YES! Dust is back! Yesyesyesyesyes! Second thought: Cliffhanger! Aaaagh! Thanks for the update! “No, you don’t,” he said. He laid one hand over where his heart had once beat. “But thanks for sayin’ it.” PERFECT! Great chapter and you're a very cruel evil author for leaving us at this masty cliffhanger. :) Sammywol 12/29/2011 04:48 pm Chapter 31 hooray! More of this story! woo hoo! Promise of more to come! I\'m not very good with wips and had resolved not to read this until it was finished but then there was the long pause and I couldn\'t resist -ask me again why I identify with Spike. Thankyou! Ps. I reread East of the Moon... As my Xmas gift to myself. Still one of the most brilliant pieces of fabric I have ever met. Be proud! Pam S 12/29/2011 02:17 pm Chapter 31
Thank you for the update.. Judy 12/30/2011 08:43 am Chapter 30 love the cliffhanger! as long as you promise to update soon! :p i can't wait... Amaya 12/29/2011 03:20 pm Chapter 30 I like the story and I will be waiting for the update. alya 11/05/2011 04:39 am Chapter 30 I am so hooked! I have read the whole lot this evening, it is now 3.35am and I am going to be completely knackered tomorrow. Well worth it though.xx Amaya 10/18/2011 11:27 pm Chapter 30 Hello. Please update soon. I am waiting for more because I like this story very much. Don't forget us. kittenofdoom 09/15/2011 07:48 am Chapter 30 Awesome, awesome, awesome! I started reading and couldn't stop, brilliant characterisation, brilliant plot, not predictable in the least, which is hard to come across after all these years, what with the constant recycling of ideas but this, it's just pure awesome. Most long fics, you'd be sitting wondering what the hell is going on, they've found no clues yet but you, well, you just got the stuff haven't ya? I don't think I've been this engrossed in a fic for a while (my husband is not best impressed lol) and I can't wait to see the outcome. You're writing these two so well together, I think I could probably read this forever!!! Aklea 09/12/2011 12:11 pm Chapter 30 Gah Buffy! Please get off this moral high horse merry go round and just enjoy Spike luvin at its best please, if only for my sake. Loving the fic, cant wait for more katamaphone 09/12/2011 06:12 am Chapter 30 "Pin the Slayer on the Spike"?? You made me laugh right out loud!!::)) So very happy to see an update on one of my favourite stories! Loved it!...............Feel bad for Spike though..........looks like Buffy's not going to be pinning anything, onto Spike in the near future. Poor thing::)) Oh man - lusty buffy got totally thwarted there. :( Great chapter. Not too late for Spike to kill Riley while Buffy isn't looking. Sara 09/12/2011 12:34 am Chapter 30 I did a happy dance when I saw that there was a Dust update! Thank you so much for sticking with this story. BuffyMeetsSpike 09/11/2011 08:52 pm Chapter 30 Yay! Dust is back! I've been having withdrawal. I like the way this is going. I guess I'll be patient while I wait for the next installment... x 09/11/2011 02:32 pm Chapter 30 Thank you.. Oh, no fair, you rev us up and leave us high and dry! What a tease! Blue http://www.tthfanfic.org/authors.php?no=12717&list=profile scaryscouse 09/11/2011 12:14 pm Chapter 30 wonderful, I've been checking everyday for your update and well worth the wait. I am glad that you are commited to finishing the story but it may be a while-I so hope so as I don't want it to finish. Love the phrase "pin the Slayer on the Spike", made me laugh out loud Akela 09/06/2011 05:01 am Chapter 29 OOhh ahh and so the stumble upon the iniative! cant wait for more, i loved the dream sequence with tara. please update asap! this is one of my faves. Carole S. 09/02/2011 06:36 pm Chapter 29
I hope you're going to continue this story. i'm enjoying it very much. it feels like you've got the two Emma 08/25/2011 03:13 pm Chapter 29 Please don´t stop writing! Best fic I´ve read since someone posted West of the Moon, East of the Sun ^__^ Love from Sweden
Wow! I just joined BSV and the main reason is to be able to tell you how much I love, love, love your story. I also enjoyed East of the Moon and followed that on another website. This story is entirely infuriating. I love it. Yingxs 08/12/2011 03:50 pm Chapter 29 I ´m glad the story continues,worried about Buffys attitude towards Spike,a little disappointed that there is still no clue about the spell and know they discover the Initiative...A big thank you, for the update As always-cant´t wait to read the next chapter Amaya 08/12/2011 12:48 pm Chapter 29 I like the story. Please update as soon as you can. Emma 08/12/2011 09:24 am Chapter 29 It just gets better! Spitfire 08/12/2011 06:18 am Chapter 29
Ah-ha, maybe they'll get some answers now? Or just more questions? Getting interesting! Should have tried harder - hee. She should have! Well, that's a helluva thing!!! Why am I not surprised that Riley & co are involved. I love it when you surprise me. The sex was entertaining too! Blue DeepBlueJoy http://www.tthfanfic.org/authors.php?no=12717&list=profile Devani 08/11/2011 05:24 am Chapter 28 Dear KnifeEdge, I should have given you a review sooner. I have been a silent, but ardent fan since "West of the Sun, East of the Moon". I devoured the whole novel of a story, and was absolutely riveted. You are a probing and eloquent writer with an very special way of making a story suspenseful and seductive. I really appreciate the way you honor the characters by letting them develop with honesty. Buffy and Spike have never been so layered and real. This current story has got me checking in every day or so just to see if you have updated. If you ever publish out there in the world beyond fanfic, I hope I have the good fortune to stumble upon your work. Thanks, Devani I am throughly addicted to this story! I love the fact that it doesn't rush right into Buffy and Spike having a relationship. It is so true to character. You are a fantastic writer! I can't wait for more! MySedai 08/03/2011 08:30 am Chapter 28 I came here from the SunnyD awards to check out the competition, and man, is it stiff (that's what she said; I couldn't resist when I looked back and saw what I'd written there)! This is a wonderful fic, although I'm a little bleary-eyed from reading it in two marathon sessions. Thank you for sharing it! J 07/31/2011 08:20 am Chapter 28 ahhh love the ending! i like how u describe the plates shattering but not the beginning.... it's intriguing and leave some mystery behind. love ur writing, can't wait for ur next chapter. Oh. My. Just don't let her run off to garlicville with her denial when morning light comes this time... Blue Beverly 07/30/2011 02:48 am Chapter 28
One word: MORE! The only thing I hate about this story is that I really, really want to avoid work in order to constantly check for updates.... So glad you posted here! LJ is still only letting me see bits and pieces of my flist, so I've obviously missed this update. The last line is perfect. Yingxs 07/29/2011 10:13 pm Chapter 28 Wow,that was hot,I cant imagine how they will ever solve the mystery spell,with all that sexuall tension constantly between them.They might even need another spell to keep them focused on the matter! Thank you,for the update. Yingxs 07/28/2011 08:53 am Chapter 27 I was afraid this would happen-Buffy being all denial girl,but then again its how she was in the show . During your story it seemed like Buffy is somewhat softer emotionally, then the Buffy in the series. But I liked it never the less.Thank you again, for keeping the characters alive and kicking :-D em_wishes 07/22/2011 06:45 pm Chapter 27 Fantastic stuff - the level of detail you bring to 'frozen sunnydale' is wonderful, the character development is fantastic and the love scenes *fans face*.... yeah they're pretty good too ;-)) BuffyMeetsSpike 07/21/2011 10:20 pm Chapter 27 I am becoming seriously addicted to this story. I love the way it just keeps going, but without feeling forced or stretched out for no reason. The characterizations are excellent and the phrasing just sticks in your head. Excellent work. Emma 07/21/2011 10:09 pm Chapter 27 Beautiful! No one writes like you do. Hana 07/21/2011 04:50 pm Chapter 27
Just PERFECT! It really couldn't go any other way for our couple, and I'm so glad you stuck to character. I'm thoroughly enjoying this whole story, and now it's gotten all juicy too...Yay for more soon! shefelldown 07/21/2011 12:39 pm Chapter 27 Well, that went as expected. Poor Spike, and poor, poor Buffy. Conflicting emotions for everyone. Great chapter. Amaya 07/21/2011 09:14 am Chapter 27 I like this story very much. Please update soon. Terra 07/28/2014 10:30 pm Chapter 26 God, that was an incredibly hot scene! The tension built up and released so perfectly. This is all so brilliantly in character and did I mention hot? Cause I'm kinda stuck on the hawtness. Jac T 01/02/2013 01:31 am Chapter 26 Awesome! em_wishes 07/20/2011 10:08 pm Chapter 26 Such a powerful chapter - you conveyed all that pent-up emotion so brilliantly. Definitely worth the wait :-) Havran 07/15/2011 02:22 am Chapter 26 brilliant. can't wait for more. Spitfire 07/14/2011 08:07 pm Chapter 26
Hot stuff! Hope Buffy comes out of her depression now. Question is, does the next chapter begin with Buffy punching Spike in the nose and making a swift exit?... can't wait to find out! Amaya 07/14/2011 02:40 pm Chapter 26 Please update as soon as you can. I like the story and I would like to read more. Ava 07/14/2011 08:11 am Chapter 26 I'm just going to say it you are Incredible!! BuffyMeetsSpike 07/14/2011 03:29 am Chapter 26 That was totally worth the wait. Can't wait to see where they go from here. Yingxs 07/13/2011 10:46 pm Chapter 26 Thank you for the update,loved it For a moment there I was hoping Faith would wake up and give Spike a tumble. :) Havran 07/08/2011 01:53 pm Chapter 25 Yay for new chapter! :) Yingxs 07/08/2011 01:15 pm Chapter 25 The things you write about friends,that when they go they rip themselfes out of you..leaving a hole in the world..that is true,you found the exact words for the feeling. I was really into that chapter got drowned in it. Thank you for your time and effort to keep writing shefelldown 07/08/2011 09:10 am Chapter 25 Wow! Awesome chapter. Everything about it just flowed so well. Good chapter. Loved the lying liarhead. The suspense is killing me! I hope it lasts... Love this story! tiggerr0 07/05/2011 05:33 pm Chapter 24 Such an awesome story. I absolutey love your stories. You are fastly becoming my favorite fanfic author. I love that you always bring Buffy and Spike together in a believable manner. Can't wait til the next chapter. nikki 07/05/2011 08:34 am Chapter 24 Speechless! Your story is definitely one of my top favorite Buffy/Spike fanfictions. Love it! I love this story! The plot and your Buffy and your Spike and everything. I can't wait for the next chapter; I hope it'll be soon. Thanks & Good luck:) Jane 07/04/2011 12:21 pm Chapter 24 Super update, looks like our heroes are starting to bond. Great writing a joy to read. Yingxs 07/04/2011 11:27 am Chapter 24 Spike and Buffy talking like friends ,seeing how he starts to care about her more and more each day is believeable at this point.But I wish they would find some clue about how to reverse the spell,to give them something to looking forward to. Thanks for the update,its always fun reading it. Emma 07/04/2011 10:52 am Chapter 24 Please have mercy on our mortal souls and do not make us wait to long.. . Jac T 01/01/2013 06:39 pm Chapter 23 I liked this one
Nice chapter. I liked poetic Spike sneaking in because he's with B. ejmlam 07/02/2011 05:39 pm Chapter 23 This is one of the most creative fics I've read--really, really liking it. It makes my day when there's an update. Loved the cconversation between Spike and Buffy in this chapter! Can't wait for more! Yingxs 07/02/2011 10:23 am Chapter 23 That was beautiful, thank you, for the update nikki 07/02/2011 06:51 am Chapter 23 Oh, wow! I hope we are slowly getting to the turning point. This is definitely my favorite chapter so far. Although I thought that of the last one too. Excellent story! shefelldown 07/02/2011 12:31 am Chapter 23 Your Spike is so Spike, and your Buffy is so Buffy. Lovely. Jac T 01/01/2013 04:42 pm Chapter 22 Are you still writing? I know this is from 2011 or 10 Janice 07/01/2011 09:03 am Chapter 22 Oh no - last chapter - more please. I just love this story. that was the BEST chapter so far. I absolutely loved it. Thank you for making my day! shefelldown 06/28/2011 11:10 am Chapter 22 Wow. The whole chapter was great, especially Spike's armor---I laughed so much at the silver platter. But the last sentece, it is really, really a very pretty sentence, isn't it? Thanks for sharing. Yingxs 06/28/2011 05:27 am Chapter 22 This chapter was really sweet,thanks for the update J 06/28/2011 04:56 am Chapter 22 Aww love it! Things are starting to change...can't wait for ur next update. Havran 06/27/2011 10:22 pm Chapter 22 I'm loving this story! Keep it coming! Jac T 01/01/2013 03:44 pm Chapter 21 He should try to kiss her Kara 08/07/2012 08:35 am Chapter 21 Pretty, pretty, PRETTY, please post more? I love how you portray any given character, like you don't put them on a pedestal. I really love all of your writings, and I must have reread West of the Moon, East of the Sun, at least three times now, even though it's longer than any Harry Potter book. And Dust is simply amazing. Getting in digs at Twilight AND Angel in the same fic? Brilliant. I think you're an amazing author and, truthfully, that Joss would agree. was no struggling or screaming, no sweet scent of terror. It was nearly enough to put him off his food entirely. HAH HAH! Yingxs 06/27/2011 10:55 am Chapter 21 Hi,I am glad it´s not over jet. If they get any more desperate they might try to kiss each other,without being under a spell,just to be save they didn´t miss an option ;-) Thanks for the update! shefelldown 06/24/2011 12:07 pm Chapter 21 I feel like Buffy will come out on top of her depression. She always comes through, but it's sad to see her fire gone. I feel badly for Spike too, he's so ill equipped for this. Loved the chapter. : ) Yingxs 06/24/2011 12:00 pm Chapter 21 Hi, thank you for keep writing :-) I am anxious to know how it will end and at the same time,worried that it must be ending. I just love how conflicted Spike is in this chapter(and every other, to be honest). I especially love how, if I wanted to, I could take his not feeding on anyone as a sign of change, of him starting to become just good enough for Buffy, but...I could also take it as him just being pragmatic. Yay for things being subtle enough for the reader to torture themselves over what it might actually mean! Jac T 01/01/2013 06:04 am Chapter 20 Poor spike haha Too thin, too fat, too young, too bald, too stringy, too pink .. laughing myself silly over Spike not being able to find a suitable victim. I see he's already waffling on being the big bad.
Sipke's field trip was so well done - funny, poignant... BuffyMeetsSpike 06/20/2011 10:36 pm Chapter 20 Thanks for the update. I am really enjoying this long, slow burn! em_wishes 06/20/2011 10:24 pm Chapter 20 You have the best line in comedy chapter endings :o) But poor, disillusioned-at-Christmas Buffy...
Buffy is just killing me in this one. She gives all of herself for what she does, everyday she gives, and everyday she's expected to give more...more and better and faster. There's no rest for the wicked, and none for her because of it. I know she won't get what she wants, because the show must go on and all that rot, but I'm almost wishing that she does. Let the story end, and let her get some peace. *sigh* Jac T 01/01/2013 05:24 am Chapter 19 Great chapter. Her little prayer at the end about broke my heart. She is a sweet girl underneath it all, it's nice to be reminded of that. I like how you show us all their layers and motivations, reminding us that they're both very complex creatures and there are plenty of good reasons for them to feel and act the way they do. This story has become quite a brilliant character study, it's really a very creative premise & you're carrying it off beautifully. Brushing away a tear. em_wishes 06/19/2011 09:37 am Chapter 19 I've just started reading this story (characteristically late to the party!) and wanted to tell you how much I've enjoyed it so far. Great plot and characterisations and a wonderful balance of angst, humour and UST. I am sometimes disappointed by stories that gloss over Spike's flaws and focus on Buffy-beating so I am really enjoying reading a more sympathetic characterisation of Buffy and seeing Spike in transition. :o) Yingxs 06/17/2011 06:28 pm Chapter 19 Again, I cant wait for the next chapter.This one was really sweet. thanks :-) shefelldown 06/17/2011 12:54 pm Chapter 19 I feel so very, very sad for Buffy.
I SO love Spike the Pinball Wizard!! jac tuk 01/01/2013 02:54 am Chapter 18 I really love your fics, already read the first one. And i love this one too. timeofchange 04/30/2012 03:18 pm Chapter 18 I am loving this story. It's orginal, extremely well written, and the characterizations are fantastic. Re: Buffy. Love, love, love her. And love asshole Spike. The slow, one step-forward, a milion horrified steps back friendship growing between them rings so true. Beverly 07/29/2011 12:11 pm Chapter 18
I love this story. I haven't read one this different for a while. It's scary, but not. Knife - don't pay attention to these nay sayers. I love Buffy - why in the world would she be in love with a serial killer. Readers don't always appreciate that conflict is what makes a great story, not having the lovers fall all over each other from the first moment. I haven't even read the chapter yet, so this review is a review for your author note. You have my unreserved support for taking your time. I also write and I too am also tired of having people who don't write and can't write (usually, but not always, writers have more sense and more respect) tell me how to write stories. I personally respect the complexity of what you've been developing between them. It more resembles a real life relationship between two people who know they shouldn't be together. No matter how strong the impulse to just say 'fuck it' and come together, there are so many reasons they shouldn't. Apart from the vampire/slayer dynamic, which is enough all by itself, there's the hurt she's been through with Angel... She's already fallen in love with one vampire... the one with the Grade A Souled, stamped on his forehead, yet she sleeps with him once and the whole world almost goes to hell. That would make me cautious. Spike is also bloody annoying. On the series, his annoyingness was played for laughs, but in real life, I'd want to stake him too. I was almost sorry that you made that big fight where Buffy lost it be about her menses, because at the time, I thought he'd provoked her enough that a saint would have lost it. Can you imagine the world they are in and he's pulling the headgames? People have killed for less. Then Spike himself... yes, he's attracted, but he's also well aware that he's met his match, and if he plays his cards wrong she can and will kill him. That's a strong incentive to behave. Spike may be impulsive and a big of a pig, but he's far from stupid. You don't live over a century without learning restraint. If he pushed himself onto her, even without violence, there's a risk she might wake up next morning horrified, and voila! Pile 'o dust! And the circumstances they're in... Yes, a part of what they are going through can lead to immense loneliness, leading to them ending up in bed together... however... they both hate and fear each other and the feelings the other provokes. It's not a recipe for 'let's get nekkid'. Not easy, carefree nekkid, anyway. Maybe after six months, but at this point, they're still thinking they will get out. If it begins to feel as if they can't... Things might change... Anyway, I get the feeling you have you know exactly what you're doing. More power to you! Blue DeepBlueJoy http://www.tthfanfic.org/authors.php?no=12717&list=profile Janice 07/01/2011 08:03 am Chapter 18 I love this story. I love the charachter portrayal - it is just so spot on to me. You have written the fustration the two characters feel with their situation, the difficulty they have with their feelings when they catch themselves seeing something in the other that they were not expecting. It is 'bloody brilliant'! Leslie 06/16/2011 04:14 pm Chapter 18 Loving this fic. I'm just excited to have something to read that is well written and not have the characters getting together right away but letting them grow in this stange situation. They both are changing and it's just so nice! I was tired of all the porn stories with unrealistic characterizations. You are setting the bar for authors. All spuffy writers should read your stories to better themselves in Writing the dynamic of this great couple.
Well, *shrug* Buffy IS a bitch...but then, Spike is incredibly annoying....and sweet, in an evil sort of way. :) shefelldown 06/13/2011 11:45 pm Chapter 18 Wonderful as always. I'm sorry people are giving you crap about Buffy. I'm sure they can go find some subpar fic where Buffy acts like Harmony; that would probably satisfy them. "Oh Blondy Bear!" Lol. I love your writing, and the way the story is unfolding. Thanks for sharing. lilpuff 06/13/2011 11:28 pm Chapter 18
You keep on writing them just like they are. It is always the drama that gets them to the Sarah 06/13/2011 10:14 pm Chapter 18
Reading this story is like unwrapping a really special Christmas present, layer by delightful layer. I hope there are many more layers before we get to the resolution of the sleeping spell and the Spuffy goodness. Holly Watson 06/13/2011 09:45 pm Chapter 18 Great story and I love your Buffy portrayal. I think it is critical that the character's stay true to well, character adn you have done that brilliantly. I can't wait for more. Please please don't let any of the negative comments put you off. I rarely review but your preface to this chapter made me want to do so. Thanks! Liza 06/13/2011 09:05 pm Chapter 18 Text I'm enjoying the psychological realism of this fic. If I want escapist fluff I'll go there happily, but this is good. You're stringing out the tension and the plot is a slow, steady burn. Stick to your guns. Write the characters you feel are true for YOUR story. Man, this is just GREAT, I love how you've kept them exactly to series canon, both hating and liking each other at the same time. Fighting both their natures and their attraction for each other. In our adoration of Spike and Spuffy we often forget that they are natural enemies, that Spike has killed 2 of her sisters, that Buffy has already faced the very worst consequences for loving a vampire. Their feelings for each other would be considered unnatural and wrong by both of them at this time. I applaud you for taking the risk (I can only imagine the greif you're getting) to write something that doesn't make Spike the hero and Buffy the rescued Princess that swoons and falls immediately into his arms. Extremely well written and beautifully executed. Well done! This is excellent. I had to read it again. :) excellent argument. "Not bad, Summers," he said. "But you should probably stick with hurting things. You're better at it." Oh... that's just harsh... truth is the ultimate weapon. You can't hide from it no matter how hard you try. Blue Ba 06/16/2011 04:18 pm Chapter 17 I wish you would post at the spuffy realm too you would prob get more ppl checking out the fic
shefelldown 06/13/2011 10:55 pm Chapter 17 Oh my Buffy. Wonderful chapter, excellent interaction. Great balance to the flow of conversation and development of their relationship. J 06/12/2011 12:56 am Chapter 17 AHHHH cliff hanger!!! and the T-E-N-S-I-O-N....ohhh love reading ur story! must update soon, thanks! Yingxs 06/10/2011 07:53 pm Chapter 17 Thank you for continuing this story :-D Every chapter never fails to cheer me up,you are so talented! And again, I cant wait for the next one. BuffyMeetsSpike 06/10/2011 01:44 am Chapter 17 Very powerful dialog. I am thoroughly enjoying this story. x 06/09/2011 08:55 pm Chapter 17
Spike with his truths regarding Angel.. to Buffy's no one likes you and you are lower than Angel.. rough there. Terra 07/28/2014 08:18 pm Chapter 16 Love the slow build here, I'm really enjoying this story. Also the Lurkers reference gave me a giggle, I actually have that exact record. I think Spike is going to go back and steal Oz's record collections. :) Nice and creepy twist with the werewolves. jane 06/08/2011 08:41 am Chapter 16 Great update, I can't believe these two haven't killed each other by now. The tension between them is palpable. Looking forward to more. x 06/07/2011 12:14 am Chapter 16
So much for two halves.. making a whole.. Slayer and Vampire.. denial. Loved the Zen Buffy. Beautiful chapter. x 06/06/2011 11:59 pm Chapter 15
The brightest thread.. went upstairs.. and then the ones outside.. no brightest thread.. Should that not be a big hint? Should they not following the brightest thread and see where it goes ? shefelldwon 06/03/2011 04:23 pm Chapter 15 Wow, not expecting that at all. The description was so good, I could see the town and the threads and it was so peaceful and beautiful and strange all at once. And the interaction---I think I was as surprised as Buffy. jane 06/02/2011 11:07 pm Chapter 15 Fabulous update, had a really trippy quality. Loved it. Emma 06/02/2011 09:46 pm Chapter 15 I worship on the altar of KnifeEdge... Hail to you author.. "What's this?" "Unlife insurance."That was worth the price of admission, all by itself! Yingxs 05/31/2011 09:49 pm Chapter 14 I liked every second of it :-) Thank you,can´t wait to read the next one. shefelldown 05/31/2011 06:56 pm Chapter 14 Lovely. "I want to watch The Breakfast Club." OH NO!!! LOL x 05/30/2011 02:57 pm Chapter 14
As much as I love Spike.. he did deserve Buffy's wakeup- the sun is out -call. PMS or not.. Nice touch though.. taking care of the slayer through her tempermental hormonal "monthlies".. protecting his arse.. Spike hit the timer on the microwave. - Buffy should just kill him now. :) moshii 05/29/2011 05:52 pm Chapter 13 Ive been reading the chapters over and over again the last couple of days and im stunned over how great this story really is, there arent so many great fanfiction that has been published lately and this one must be a true pearl amongst them. i love the mystery of the towns mysterious dream state and im still letting the idea of a kiss between the two enemies be the solution of the story but that is maybe because i cannot get enough of ust -period. i have to add that buffy is really in charecter and is down to the very beeing of her, so now im gonna wait patiently for the next chapter and hope that it is added soon and that there is a long set of events to happen. Did i mention that buffy and spike together in this story is the most twisted and crazy daytime soap on tv that has never been made? x 05/28/2011 12:04 am Chapter 13
Five Letter Word for how to get under the Slayer's Skin - S P I K E.. loved the banter and the nod to Something Blue and maybe a little Harsh Light of Day.. and of course all of the Sexual Tension.. Yingxs 05/27/2011 05:11 pm Chapter 13 Thank you so much for writing this story,I enjoy every second of reading it. Hope you will continue :-) bc 05/27/2011 03:18 pm Chapter 13
Rant alert!!!!!!! shefelldown 05/27/2011 09:05 am Chapter 13 You are so very, very evil ending it there! I was ready to kill Spike too; when he spilled the coffee my teeth were grinding. And I'm a slob! Good job building the tension. katamaphone 05/27/2011 12:37 am Chapter 13 You, are, hilarious! I can't wait for the next chapter. Your Buffy and Spike voices are spot on, and your dialogue, is in a word, superb. I defy any of the writers' from the Buffyverse to do better...........you're awesome, and if I keep going, I'm going to run out of adjectives to describe how much I admire your talent and how much I love this story. .......Just know, that when you finish this; I will be saving it on my laptop so I can read it over and over again, it's just that good..............Kathryn emma 05/26/2011 11:45 pm Chapter 13 God I love this story! :) Amaya 05/26/2011 09:30 pm Chapter 13 I like this story very much, so please try to update as soon as you can, because I want to read more. Randy Giles 06/13/2014 09:07 pm Chapter 12 I just wanted to say that this chapter was simply brilliant. Pure brilliance. I have never read a fic that captures this couple as well as you do, and even your writing style is soo realistic... I can see everything in my head perfectly canon. Like it actually happened! The last paragraph made me want to squeal and sent chills down my spine. Very very well done! I always wondered how Spike would have reacted to what happened to Buffy in Helpless, and you nailed it spot on! Everything is so subtle yet so heavy. Nothing is contrived or out of place, characters are as canon as can be in a fanfic, SUPERB. I am absolutely addicted and cant wait to check out your other stuff. P.s this part in the fic also the name of it reminds me of dust to dust a beautiful song by the civil wars that reminds me of spuffy Just loved this chapter. How you delve into Buffy's experience & feelings about the Cruciamentum - which we only get to suppose in the series - but you've made so real here. Then Spike's unwilling sympathy for her, how he finds himself relating to & understanding her far more than he wants to. And his insight to her strength & character. Finally the sweet moment you end it on, this swell of affection & camaraderie all shared in a laugh. The last few lines were so perfect: It was bright and real and free sounding, the laugh of a girl who had finally sussed out the great cosmic joke that had been played on her—and who wasn't bitter about it. Oh, not this girl.
After a minute, Spike joined her. Because when you once again find yourself sympathetic when you had no right to the emotion in the first place, and what's more, when you're sympathizing with your mortal enemy—you might as well admit that the joke is on you, too. Brilliant... They're finally bonding... I like it!
Because when you once again find yourself sympathetic when you had no right to the emotion in the first place, and what's more, when you're sympathizing with your mortal enemy—you might as well admit that the joke is on you, too . Buffy was hiding something. Now she wouldn't be able to pry him away from the place with a crowbar - hee of course not. J 05/27/2011 07:32 am Chapter 12 Love your story!!! btw, a note on the Cantonese comment from Spike...Cantonese is a dialect of Chinese...it's a verbal language. however, the written language is still called "Chinese," basically the difference between Mandarin and Cantonese is how the words are pronounced. The written word is essentially the same, this is why if a Cantonese speaker doesn't understand Mandarin, they can still write a sentence down in Chinese and the Mandarin speaker can read the note & still understand his/her meaning. So Spike can "read Chinese and speak Cantonese, or read Chinese and speak Mandarin." (whichever you like him to do) hope you understand, thanks! Sarah 05/26/2011 10:53 am Chapter 12 I'm loving this story so much that I had to seek out more of your writing and found West of the Moon, East of the Sun, - fantastic! You're probably the best writer I've come across so far for Spuffy fanfic, not only because you stay true to their characters and their voices, but because the quality of your writing is excellent. Very satisfying stuff! Randal 05/24/2011 12:51 pm Chapter 12 I think I've been wanting to read this conversation, this chapter for years but I was only dimly aware of it. I loved "West of the Moon" though it occasionally stuck too closely to the season 5 plot for my tastes. I only found out you were writing a new story a couple days ago when someone linked it on a forum and I saw a familiar author-name. Right from the first chapter I liked this even better than I did your previous work, and it's shaping up to be an all-time favourite. I've read fan-fiction stories for years, many of them about these two characters and yet this one manages to feel so very fresh and original. Spike and Buffy are both hilarious, the story is fascinating, the relationship feels real and true to the spirit of the characters in general and season 4 in particular. It all flows so very naturally from the starting point, nothing is forced or contrived. And then this chapter. Starting with the list, and ending with "Helpless" it's the best so far. Like I said above, I've wondered for years what Spike would make of the cruciamentum, and wondered how he'd react. This chapter just is the perfect reaction for a soulless Spike, just the right mix of schadenfreude, honest bafflement and that little bit of sympathy. And of course that sympathy is expressed through recommending bloodyshed. It neither white-washes nor villifies him. Perhaps even more important, if less directly obvious, is the way it is made believable that Buffy would open up to him. He unwittingly forces her to confront it all, but not in such a way she can really blame him for it. He wasn't there for the event and wasn't in any way related to it, and he never threatened her family in so direct a way, making him a safe and neutral party. The fact there's literally nobody else to talk to and his little gesture with the photos lull her just enough to let me believe she'd tell him. Kudos, and thanks for writing. And good luck with the rest of the story. You're setting the bar really high for yourself. ;-) shefelldown 05/24/2011 09:20 am Chapter 12 This chapter was poetry. Poetry. The timing, the dialogue, the twists, all so gorgeous. Bravo. Seriously, seriously good.
Oh wow - what a perfect place for them to find a connection. I loved Buffy telling Spike about her test. nojiri23 05/23/2011 11:01 pm Chapter 12 You have no idea how much I needed an update on a birthday that seems on the verge of turning crappy. And such a fun update! Now I know things will just get better. Such a great update to a great story!
Love the reexamination the cruciatum. Spike\'s reaction is priceless, as is Buffy\'s reaction to that. Pure poetry! Like the way you've worked in the whole gang - the hotel scene was nicely gruesome too. shefelldown 05/20/2011 09:15 am Chapter 11 Lovely. x 05/20/2011 02:43 am Chapter 11
Hmm... Slayer dreams.. Ethan , Room 314, possibly Adam, the I-Team and the Chip? Oh. cool stuff. 314 - the Initiative? Faith in the coma and Buffy thinking about waking her? LOL at the naked vampire wrestling. They're going to be dragged into something kicking and screaming, arent they? *peers around for next chapter* Anna 06/20/2013 06:57 pm Chapter 10 just one example of my coecnrn in the world is: here in ontario we recycle, or most of us recycle as much as we can, in other provinces, an example is newfoundland, they do not practice the same, they do not recycle, they just throw everything out in the garbage, so my question is how do we make the world a better place for future generations and try to clean up alot of the landfill if every province, or countries dont practice the same, what difference are we making as a whole.Just sayin Beautiful. I love the inevitable confrontation as their frustration and exhaustion boils over. They're really getting to each other & yet they're both missing the truth of why. I like the growing snse of attraction that goes right along with the irritation. It strikes me as perfectly in canon. This could easily be a novel - a Buffy book perhaps. Very well done. LOL at Buffy threatening Spike with a plastic pen - good fight. jane 05/24/2011 11:26 pm Chapter 10 Great update shefelldown 05/19/2011 08:35 am Chapter 10 The plastic pen is such a lovely little detail! I agree with Spike, Buffy is being kind of dumb about the culprit, but she's right as well, at least she's actively thinking up leads. Love this story! x 05/16/2011 06:07 pm Chapter 10
So much for my guess.. of Ethan- a little to vanilla spell for him.. Gone through the possible list of suspects in this chapter. hann23 05/16/2011 06:00 pm Chapter 10 This is an awesome story. You nail there voices everytime. Poor Buffy - Dpike is just awful. :) x 05/13/2011 12:02 am Chapter 9
buffy needs to be a little more aware of Spike.. IMO his fear of dusting is the only thing keeping her alive at this point. She is giving him too many openings. Not a big Buffy person.. like Spike with a little edge. And not whipped. Season 4 fits nicely.. shefelldown 05/12/2011 11:08 pm Chapter 9 The ending moment is so nice. Specifically because it's not overly nice. You're doing a really great job with the balancing act of their relationship. Thanks for sharing. excellent Spikeness - I love bad Spike. :) Jane 05/09/2011 09:55 pm Chapter 8
Only just started reading this fic and i'm finding it addictive. Extremely well written and very funny. x 05/09/2011 06:24 pm Chapter 8
Wondering what the "undo" spell might have undone..? Lots of physical admiration going on between these two. Hahaha! Love your snarky Spike getting right up under her skin: "Slaughter everything in sight, set Main Street on fire, and dance naked on your Watcher's lawn, that all right by you?" Spike raised his eyebrows and batted his eyelashes innocently at her. They irritate each other in just the right way. Well done dialogue, love the back and forth between them and all of Spike's observations. I find it interesting that he doesn't think anything of the fact that she arouses him, just takes it as part of her Slayerness. She's supposed to provoke him, right? You're building the attraction so subtly, we can see it creeping up on both of them. Can't wait for the inevitable explosion when they realize. Excellent :) Except Buffy didn't stake Parker which he so deserves.
Pick the Converse, Buffy... su 05/09/2011 04:20 am Chapter 7 Great story! Buenos Aires is in Argentina, though, not in Brazil. You talk like Giles sometimes, you know that ooo those are fighting words! delle 05/09/2011 12:18 am Chapter 7 Truly great story, enjoying this as much as im enjoying "embers" by coalitiongirl atm. Hope you update soon. x 05/08/2011 10:41 pm Chapter 7
I do like this Spike.. his ability to get under the Slayer's skin with his cutting and truth be told words.. Perfect, perfect Buffy - delusions and all. I love how she's so committed to whatever she decides to believe. Nice subtle detailing about how Spike sticks in her mind too; she can't ignore him even when Angel's around. Also enjoyed Spike's observations about Darla & how she'd love Parker. I can just see that. Lots of layers & atmosphere making for a rich, detailed story. Very nice. she allowed herself to rent that delusion? Ik! I forget how young she was in season 4. Blue Twins! LOL x 05/08/2011 12:09 am Chapter 6
He never did answer the "kiss" question.. And I think he did protest too much ? Emma 05/07/2011 09:39 pm Chapter 6 You are a great writer, please keep going :) I check in every day to see if you posted another chapter of this story! / Love from Sweden Oh the delightful banter & snark - one of my favorite things about these two. Your Spike is sharp-tongued & wicked, just like I like him. These lines made me laugh out loud: "A love poem," he deadpanned. "Want to hear? 'How shall I maim thee, let me count the ways—'" “By the way, you should probably know … I sleep naked.” And, smirking at Buffy’s very best gaping fish impression, Spike slipped through the basement door and down into the darkness. Great stuff. I'm thoroughly enjoying this. Rabbit of Caerbannog. ???? Tori 05/07/2011 02:29 am Chapter 5 I am so beyond thrilled that you have started posting this story! I was a fan of your Labyrinth stuff a few years ago, and when I found that you had started writting Spuffy - well, let's just say 'ecstatic' is a tame word for what I felt =D. As always, you come up with the most brilliant plots, and your writing feels pretty much flawless. I never feel like I'm 'reading' when I read your stories - which is odd to say, I know, but everything that you write just seems so real, with every detail so well formulated, that it just flows and I'm drawn into the story without even thinking about the technical bits. Plus, you catch the spirit of the characters from the show, which is a huge thing for me. They tend to get a little twisted with other authors, Buffy in particular, but you seem to just... get them. =D This chapter was fun. It's nice that you've put together a list of clues, haha - some of us slow readers wouldn't really catch the significance of everything. And hey, shirtless Spike - always a bonus. Well, I could ramble on about how awesome I think you are for... forever, but I think I'll stop here. Please keep updating! Your Buffy & Spike are spot-on, voices so in character to that time in the series. I have to say I'm enjoying evil-Spike again. Kinda nice to have Big Bad talking smack & being his punk ass self. These lines stood out for me: "He'd find Drusilla, hand her the Slayer's heart in a pretty Slayer-bone box, wrapped in Slayer-skin and tied with Slayer-guts, and Dru would forgive him and love him again." "Better to be safe than sorry, yeah? He couldn't wait to hear what she had to say on the subject." Great read! A rather frightening world you're creating. It's almost like 'The Last Slayer in the World' (and her vampire!) If Buffy was really mean, she'd take Spike's car and have that back seat hosed out. She should certainly drive it. Hee. BuffyMeetsSpike 05/06/2011 02:45 pm Chapter 4
'the cherry on the sundae of suck'
LOVED the trunk scene. Perfect. good descriptive writing on how both Buffy and Spike are feeling, love the "spike was a very cranky vampire". Great line: "This was a deal with the devil, and she knew it." Excellent read so far. It feels like an episode unfolding. Good pacing & characterizations & the descriptions are so eerie & detailed that I'm sucked right into the world you're creating. One of the better written fics I've seen, publishing quality for sure. Nice job :)
Hey - I'm dying to know what Spike's "collecting" in the car!
this story is really creepy - thinking about the idea of being in my town with everything in it asleep... great continuation - Buffy would want that make-up done! I like the interaction between Buffy and Spike, the snarkiness, the underlying tension.
I think I just fell in love with you a little, having Spike sing Nick Cave... too good. So many great things about this chapter; several stand-out lines including this one: "Then there was option three: wander around town and see if she could figure out what had happened—her way; a way that hopefully involved breaking things." Totally made me laugh. The descriptions were all so detailed, like the 2 demons snuggled in the bar asleep in the middle of their fight, it really made the story come alive for me. The concept is so original & the writing so engrossing, I'm betting I stay up til the wee hours catching up on all the chapters. Great work.
seriously creepy... I like it! Blue http://www.tthfanfic.org/AuthorStories-12717/DeepBlueJoy.htm Whew - this is Big Trouble. Great Chapter. Like the way you have them totally hemmed in, not to mention dumb butt Buffy is going to have to figure it out on her own. Scary! :) WOW - this is just so cool! awesome premise, with characters well done so far and well written. I can't wait for more! :) BuffyMeetsSpike 05/03/2011 08:05 pm Chapter 2 I really like the characterizations! Keep it up!
Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for posting this story here. I started reading it on Elysian Fields, but as I clicked for another chapter all I got was a page telling me they were moving to another server. I damn near teared up, and then I found this site, and now I'm all better! timeofchange 04/30/2012 01:17 am Chapter 1 Fantastic! What a great premise. I can't wait to read more. GREAT start! I'm completely hooked & totally intrigued. Can't wait to read more! This is like the beginning of a really good book. Nice job. Very original and intriguing premise to start out. shefelldown 05/09/2011 09:06 am Chapter 1 The premise for this fic is so interesting! I love it so far. Thanks for sharing. Oh, also the banner is perfect.
he'd probably go around thinking he was one of the good guys and forget to kill people - and maybe she shouldn't remind him :) Emma 05/03/2011 09:51 am Chapter 1 It´s wonderful, what a feeling you bring to the story! Best fic punlished in a long time :) really interesting start, who or what has done this, looking forward to next chapter. Yingxs 05/02/2011 07:01 pm Chapter 1 Thank you, for your story,I hope you will continue :-) Its intresting and I really like to read more of it. | |||
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