What You Wished For by pfeifferpack

10/26/2012 03:48 am
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D'aww. Well, they could always adopt. XD

09/01/2011 01:41 pm
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I have to say... I really love what you've done with the timeline!  Effulgence and all that!  Very, very sweet!

Peace,

Blue
Thank you!  trying to work Spuffy into some seasons is more challenging than others but I think it can be done.

k

11/07/2009 06:00 pm
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I'm glad you just wrote a new story.  It gave me a chance to look back at the old ones and discover I'd missed reading this one!  What a gem it is.  I'm so glad I found it!  Good writing and nice sense of humor, noble Spike, and lots of action. How nice to see Jenny Calendar in your story.  It was wonderful to be reminded of the 1st season and how open and innocent Buffy was before Angelus embittered her.  And thanks to your writing, she gets to stay that way!  Super plot, great characterizations, and  a fabulous epilogue showing how everyone's lives turned out. 
 Thank you so much!  The funny offshoot for me in writing this one was realizing just how contrived Bangel was.  Angel and Buffy's "romance" came from nowhere in S1.  One week she was looking for a human boyfriend (and hurting Angel with her lack of interest) and next professing love for Angel?  S2 Bangel picked up on that but gave us Angelus almost immediately.  It really opened my eyes to the lack of substance in that pairing.

I liked having Buffy get a chance with the better vampire (at least for her) without all the hardening of her heart that came after Angel/Angelus and the others that compounded the issue.  With her heart free she would have seen his value and taken that chance.  

Thank you for reading and commenting!

k

06/29/2008 10:31 pm
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Wonderfull!  Just wonderful.
Thank you.  So happy you are enjoying it.   Kathleen

04/05/2008 11:43 am
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Read your story again, as much a pleasure as the first time - Excellent Piece
Thank you so much...I'm proud it was worth a second read.   Kathleen

alým
03/09/2008 12:36 pm
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This was amazing!I'm still smiling like mad!:D Such a lovely ending for this extraordinary fiction,loved it!:D Thank you so much for writing it!
So very happy to have written a story you enjoyed.  I loved writing it.  Thank you again for the lovely reviews.

K

12/16/2007 03:13 am
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Oh I loved it.
Very happy you enjoyed the story. k

nmcil
12/09/2007 05:01 am
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Completely enjoyed your story and I like your solution for their relationship and Buffy's youth - first class all the way for our favorite vamp and our slayer -
Thank you so much. Yes, I think patience is something Spike would cultivate for Buffy if he felt it in her interests. Glad you enjoyed the story and my treatment of the situation. k

Stefanie
10/17/2007 08:29 pm
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Now THAT's the way I wanted Season 1 to end! Loved it!
Thanks! It was a challenge to put Spike into season1 and make it work, glad it did. You know in researching the episodes I was struck at how out of the blue Buffy and Angel were as a love match....Spike worked much better even then! Thank you again.

Kathleen

Deb
07/19/2007 04:04 am
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Great AU story. Like how you tied it all together. Fun to read.
Thank you so much. Glad I didn't leave anything dangling. k

VICTORIA
03/30/2007 09:20 am
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This was a truly enjoyable fic. Thanks so much for writing it.
Thank you for reading and reviewing. K

Avalon
02/17/2007 02:25 am
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Beautiful
Thank you for reading and for the kind review. k

Emily
07/19/2006 05:44 am
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Sweet story, sweet ending! Really great emotion put into it, very nice:D

05/17/2006 08:02 am
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beautiful story all around, love...amazing...i thoroughly enjoyed it :)
Thanks hon. So glad you enjoyed it. K

04/28/2006 02:40 pm
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fantastic story! all my favourite couples have their happily ever after.
I do angst but MUST give happy endings! Life withholds them too often in RL. Thank you!!! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 05:04 am
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Very beautiful story, and it ended very nicely. I liked your epilogue into the future for them. To see what was the same and what was different, was nice. They seem to have all had much happier lives. Glad for that.
Thanks. I think they were all badly effected by the fall out from Angelus and would have been much happier if that hadn't happened. Even though Buffy had the worst of it, Giles and the scoobies were changed too. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 05:04 am
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Thank you so much and thanks for the lovely feedback. I love happy endings even with my darkest stories. K

02/15/2006 08:53 pm
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What a beautiful and downright logical to end all ending!
Thank you very much! I like the logical!!! K

dihcar
02/14/2006 10:11 am
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very nice fluffy ending for valentine's day.
Good job

seeya
Thanks! Couldn't let Spike be unhappy on THIS day could I?

K

02/14/2006 04:03 am
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WAFF! Thanks.
You're welcome! Thanks for the great feedback.

K

02/14/2006 03:23 am
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That was a truly beautiful ending! If only that could have been the way it really happened, but then again, w/out all the angst and issues, would we all really haved viewed in week after week? I loved the story and can't wait to see what you come up w/next!
Thanks so much....another good reason is all the fine fanfic that take things different places *G*.

Writing completion of Gathering Loose Ends and starting a new story very soon.

Kathleen

kim
02/14/2006 01:09 am
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Awwwwww, sweet ending.
Thank you, glad it didn't disappoint. K

02/13/2006 11:23 pm
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Beautiful! This was such a fun and original story. I loved it!
Thank you, so glad you enjoyed it. K

02/13/2006 09:43 pm
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wonderful ending, just loved it! great story all the way through!
Thank you so much. I wanted a look at how it all worked out for this changed group. Glad it was accepted. Thanks again. Kathleen

02/13/2006 09:31 pm
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Excellant conclusion sweetie! What a woderful story!
OH thank you! Now I can catch up on reading some (ahem) other wonderful stories....Hum.....

Kathleen

02/13/2006 09:19 pm
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Beautiful, I loved it. More fic soon??? :P
Thank you! So glad you loved it. Yes, more fic soon. I want to do the last couple of chapters of Gathering Loose Ends then I have a S2 story in mind. I just can not NOT write...addicted here.

Thanks again.
Kathleen

02/13/2006 09:02 pm
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Gorgeous ending to a great fic! Thanks for writing it.
Thank you! Made them all happy because I can *G*....after all Valentines Day is this week. Thanks for all the great feedback and support. Kathleen

SpaceLord
02/13/2006 08:58 pm
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Lovely story, I had a great time reading it I must say.
Thank you! Kathleen

alým
03/09/2008 12:12 pm
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I liked the "effulgent" part! Lovely detail it was:)
I'm also glad that Spike was the one to rescue her instead of Xander.I never understood just why Angel couldn't do it in the actual episode though,I mean,you might not be using your lungs to keep yourself alive,but I highly doubt that that means you can't use them for anything else! I bet,deep down,he was hoping for her to stay dead. Maroon...
I think Angel just thought that a prophecy HAD to happen like it was written and didn't want to "rock the boat".  Maybe he didn't know how to do CPR either since he wasn't in the habit of saving humans (he really only started working for the good guys after he met Buffy...only a couple of other times and very reluctantly before that).  It was bull though about not having breath!  Gee you have to have breath to TALK! LOL.  Spike makes his own fate and no prophecy will make him stop for a moment.  Thank you.   k

12/16/2007 03:03 am
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Oh he went and killed the annoited one.
Too much fun on the show to leave out here *G*. k

05/17/2006 07:59 am
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how awesome!!! i love this story...love how even for angel it worked out well in the end...on to the epilogue :)

04/28/2006 02:35 pm
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** "What cheerleader?" Angel seemed to perk up at the thought of a consolation prize. **

Love that line. loved the chapter too.
Thank you. Yup, Anegl had the quick interest in Cordy after the move to LA didn't he?? K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 05:01 am
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Awesome way to deal with Prophecy Girl. He still got to say that wonderful line about ritual and fun. I always thought Angel was stupid about the no breathing thing too. Dufus. Spike couldn't have smoked without being able to suck in and exhale as well.
Thanks! I never could come up with any explanation for Angel's choice (unless he didn't want to mess up a prophecy or something). K

02/12/2006 10:30 pm
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caught up on anumber of wonderful chapters. enjoy spike's effort to plan and the energy to fix the bolloxed plan.
THank you. Yup, Spike thinks on his feet. There's a reason he survived Angelus, Darla and a century with Dru! K

dihcar
02/12/2006 01:35 pm
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very good chapter, i like how spike explained how he could do cpr. Never did sit well with me about that crap that the poofter said.
As for the master well, i'm glad he's still dusted, never seemed like a impressive fighter to me since he used that pathetic thrall like drusilla did to kill a slayer.

seeya
Personally, I think Angel just did't know how and didn't want Xander to know that *G*. Thanks (ITA about the thrall being a cheat. I always loved Spike for being all about fair fights). Thanks again, K

02/12/2006 10:05 am
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So glad he could do the saving of Buffy. Seems like they're pretty close to a happily ever after. This whole story really was a blast. Such a fun place to put Spike, and you really made it all make sense. A grand acheivement. Thanks for sharing.
I'll have an epilogue but thanks for the feedback along the way, it means a lot to me. Thanks for saying it made sense too. K

02/12/2006 08:39 am
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THanks for reading. K

02/12/2006 08:33 am
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fantastic chapter! I love this rewrite of prophecy girl. Jsut shows how much better Spike does everything better!
But we all know that *G*. Yup, Spike was the perfect match for the girl. Thank you. K

Robyn
02/12/2006 06:27 am
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Great story. I started reading it tonight and could not stop. I love the friendship between Jenny and Spike, and the faith she consistently gives to him. It’s great how you are having Jenny show Giles to look at what's in front of him and not just believe what he reads.
Thank you. The friendship sort of developed on its own and just felt natural. I think Jenny would have added so much had she lived. Thank you again. K

02/12/2006 06:23 am
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Absolutely love it! Tell me there is one more chp please.
An epilogue that will be up as soon as my technical difficulties are fixed ...sigh.... Thanks K

kim
02/12/2006 02:54 am
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Very cool!
Thank you K

02/12/2006 02:00 am
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Great update! I love how Spike was the one to give CPR to Buffy and that Xander realized that Spike and Buffy were going to be together and that it may not bae all that bad of a thing. please update soon!
ASAP the epilogue will be up. Having some technical difficulties. Thanks, I just think Spike would never have let Xander save her *G*....Xander does know when to give up too. Thanks again, K

02/12/2006 01:50 am
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LMAO, damn good part. Please tell me there is more.
There's an epilogue that has been kicking my computers a$$ all day....my Beta's machine refuses to talk to mine for this one chapter for some reason. We finally gave up after 4 tries, I retyped and sent it and I hope to have it posted sometime today....grr argh....Thanks for the reviews! K

02/12/2006 12:00 am
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got caught up on two chapters - nice resolutions and mixing of your story and canon.
THank you! Love weaving with canon. K

02/11/2006 11:59 pm
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I love that spike was the one to save her - simmply fabalicious!
Thanks! Spike would not have stood by and let XANDER save her (unlike SOME vampires...ahem). K

02/11/2006 10:25 pm
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GO SPIKE!! I'm so glad he was smart enough to do CPR for her. Angel was such dunce. More story please.
I don't think anyone will ever be able to explain why Angel said what he did about not being able to do the CPR, or why he "couldn't"....Spike has more sense! Last bit coming up probably tonight.

Thanks. K

alým
03/09/2008 11:08 am
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I liked it:)
Thank you .   k

12/16/2007 02:27 am
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Oh I love the way he was sort of able to calm her down. Wonder if she will face the master alone.
Spike will always have her back. Angel (on the show) just figured the prophecy said she'd die so he went to his apartment to await the bad news....Spike would turn over hell itself to prevent her death no matter WHO or WHAT said she was to die. Big difference. k

05/17/2006 07:56 am
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she so could have used spike in her corner back in season one!! loving this story so very much! :)

04/28/2006 01:31 pm
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spike is super sweet. i have always wanted him but Joss decided to offer him to the likes of Dru and Harm and forgot to give those girls a brain. and ofcourse he never told us how it went with Buffy. Maybe we should put Joss in a story and have him murdered by Angel
Tee hee....Spike would be surprised at the number of women (and quite a few men) who would line up to treat him right if he were in the real world *G*!!

Maybe a better punishment for Joss would be to have him forced into an affair with Marti Noxon and have it like S6 was for Spike??? K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:53 am
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Very touching end of the chapter. She's in Spike's arms again. I wonder how they are going to get around it.
By loving each other and trusting. K

02/12/2006 09:51 am
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"Needs a partner, not a rescuer." That just about sums it all up. Love Spike making her deal. So nice to see how he is in season one. First time any story I've read ever tried to put him in that far. It's kind of the ignored season in this Spuffy world, and I have to say it's worked out so, so well. I really love it. Thanks for sharing this really awesome idea.
Thank you for the kind reviews and reading along. K

02/11/2006 11:56 pm
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fab chapter sweetie me love it!
So glad...thanks K

06/29/2008 09:46 pm
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I was wondering if Angel would make an appearance since he was all with the stake outs.
Oh yes, he was there in canon so he has to be there in the story.  K

alým
03/09/2008 02:51 am
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Yey,Spike,off your piece of Grandsire!:D:D 
Loved the dinner:P
Thank you.  :D   K

12/16/2007 01:52 am
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Oh I hope she gives him his ring back
It's all an act of trust. k

05/17/2006 07:51 am
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oh no! he needs the ring back, quick!! angel needs dusting badly!! :)

04/28/2006 01:16 pm
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glad things seem to be working out between Buffy and Spike. Angel's such a jerk and should be dusted
I rarely dust Angel since the Powers DO have a use for him but he IS a jerk!! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:45 am
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oooooo fight with Angel and Spike. Kick his arse Spike!

Glad to see that Buffy and Spike at least got everything all talked out. That's progress
Progress is the whole center of the story. An untainted Buffy COULD love Spike easily IMHO. K

02/15/2006 07:57 pm
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"Joyce, lovely name." I'm glad some people think so...heh-heh. I've never liked it as a first name since it dates me and generally use my middle name except in this fandom.

On the critical note, good to see Buffy warming up to Spike and paying attention to her heart. Hope Angel doesn't muddy the waters further
I figure any name with Joy in it has to be a good one! I looked it up BTW and it is a very old name and often used.

Angel will ever try to add the mud *G*. Thanks again, k

02/12/2006 09:37 am
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Love Spike wooing Joyce, and Buffy listening, that goes a long way towards the better. And Angel, hes being an amazing ass in this one. Hope he gets his dues this time.
Joyce always did like Spike even if she may have been leary of a vampire boyfriend for Buffy. Thanks K

02/07/2006 01:07 am
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I'm glad Buffy managed to listen to Spike. Will there be Angelus torture or staking? He was a creep before he was turned and the turning did not improve him. More story please.
No staking....more like learning how very little Angel DOES know Spike and his ego taking a beating along with his body! The pesky Powers still have plans for the cursed one in LA...sigh. I agree about Liam and Angelus BTW and always felt Angel had too light a grip on that demon to really make a lot of difference. Thanks, More soon. K

kim
02/06/2006 11:19 pm
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Yes! Give Angel a good ass-kicking.
Your wish is my command and Spike's pleasure. K

Max
02/06/2006 09:50 pm
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Gee, I wonder who will win - the coward that preys on the weak and defenseless while avoiding those who can fight back and who's also spent the last century in the gutters eating rats and wallowing in filth or the warrior who seeks out stronger opponents and challenging fights and has taken up the hobby of killing other demons.

KICK HIS SORRY ASS SPIKE!!!

Did I mention I really don't like that pathetic excuse for a "champion"
Nice character study (and accurate too *G*). Angel will be in for a surprise and his ego will take a beating too. Thanks. K

02/06/2006 09:07 pm
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Oh yeah still oving this one damn can we get a light Angel dusting soon??? :P
Glad you're loving it! Would you settle for a heavy Angel bashing??? Those pesky Powers still want him doing their will in LA (miserable Powers!). LOL THanks...K

02/06/2006 07:48 pm
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I am glad that Buffy gave him a chance to tell some of his story, she sure gave Angel enough chances, even after he turned into Angelus! I really like how Jenny and Giles are on the same page now and that Jenny pointed out to him that Angel(us) is more of a threat to Buffy then Spike would ever be! I can't wait for the next update!
Thank you! Writing that update now.

Yes, Buffy at this time period would be more open to giving the benefit of the doubt to Spike and anyone knowing of Angelus' history would have to realize he's a bigger threat!

K

dihcar
02/06/2006 07:45 pm
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good chapter, i think you misunderstood me with my last review; i didn't mean to imply him killing giles and angel , just to defeat them in combat. More specifacly angel, since that would be an awesome fight. As for giles i also didn't mean killing him just putting him in his place, since almost in every chapter he's threatning to dust spike. Like in "prophecy girl" were he was considering of trying to go and dust the master. I mean come on, the loser watcher thinks he can take on master vampires? Get real giles.


seeya
No, no...I understood (and even agree that Spike is quite formidible!!). The timing for a face off wasn't in Spike's best interests is all. Spike is quite smart in spite of what Angel is always saying after all *G*.

Giles knows about the chip (thanks to Spike's honesty) but not that it doesn't work with the Gem on. Just like on the show, he gets pretty "gutsy" threatening the chipped vampire! ITA about the match up not even being close with a Watcher and Master Vampire. Poor Giles usually just gets knocked unconscious at the best or tied up and tortured at the worst. It's the Ripper in him, I think.

Thanks again (no offense was taken either!)

K

ZoeGrace
02/06/2006 07:08 pm
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hahahah @ the tiny bit of "ripper-like" naughtiness.

@ LMAO @ angel and Spike fighting. Spike has quite a few years and apocalypses worth of experience on Angel. heh.
Naughty Giles...something we saw far too little of on the show LOL.

Yup, Angel isn't dealing with the fledgling he used to bully!

THanks....K

02/06/2006 04:54 pm
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Evil cliffie! More as soon as you can please. I really want to see what happens next.
Yes, I AM evil LOL. Writing next part now then off to Beta...more soon.....Thanks, K

02/06/2006 04:54 pm
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angel always has to ruin a good evening... great chap!!
Well now, Spike might see wacking his grandsire about as a wonderful way to end the evening...nothing like a spot of violence and all. LOL. Thanks....K

02/06/2006 04:49 pm
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excellant update... thank goodness Buffy is listening... sigh is it to much to hope that Angel will be dust... it is my eternal hope *giggles*
Thank you. Well, The Powers still have some work for him in LA so the dusting will have to be passed on (but bruising the ego and body....no problem!) LOL K

Nichole
02/06/2006 04:39 pm
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i'm glad Spike was able to tell Bufy everything..Giles knows the truth and so does Jenny so she can verify what he told her...the fact he told her everything is the KEY...great story..N
Thank you! Spike was usually quite honest actually, even to his detrement so this is better for him too. This Buffy is more forgiving than the one left behind by Angel/Angelus and that helps. Thanks again.....K

SpaceLord
02/06/2006 03:33 pm
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Angel bashing...sweeet :D
He has it coming...literally! Thanks K

alým
03/09/2008 02:13 am
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Lets hope things would turn out to be good for Mr and Miss "Perfect For Each Other":)
Always *G*.   Thanks k

12/16/2007 01:19 am
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Oh I hope he gets the gem back.
I would never want him to lose it forever as long as he's being good *G*. k

05/17/2006 07:47 am
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oh poor spike....please go easy on him, buffy...and dont let angel get in the way...on to the next chappie :)

04/28/2006 09:53 am
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poor spike, he meant well but how can he survive the Angel-Xander-Giles prejudice?
Angel is a lost cause but Xander and Giles aren't as hard case as they became after Angelus. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:36 am
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Poor Spike. Somehow I have the feeling that Joyce will understand the meanings of his flowers.
Joyce at least understood the feeling behind them. THanks K

02/12/2006 09:21 am
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Love Spike and the whole language of flowers bit. An amazing thing people did once upon a time. Love how he's still going and so glad that Jenny is still in his court.
The William within demanded a shot at things. Thanks K

bluebird
01/31/2006 06:30 am
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Love your story! I wish he had the Gem too! I wonder whats going to happen when Spike most likely will have to fight his way in! Please write more soon! I just have to know what happens next!
Writing now. Update ASAP. Thank you K

kim
01/31/2006 03:28 am
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Poor Spike! Glad he's not giving up, though. Buffy's future needs his protection, whether she likes him or not.

I love the old Victorian meanings for flowers. Imagine what that would have been like when someone brought you a bouquet, and everyone knew what they meant to say. A boy could speak with the flowers what he was too shy to do with words. It's so romantic.
I found a great site online with the flowers and their meaning. For Spike to say what he wanted to would have involved some tree limbs and assorted weird combinations....I think it was great but a real challenge for the giver! Thanks...K

01/31/2006 02:05 am
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excellant update
THank you. K

01/31/2006 02:04 am
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OMG! I love Spike's spirit. Will Buffy let him in or try to keep him out? Did she do something stupid like give the Gem to Angelus? More story please.
Writing now so an update soon. Buffy has the ring. She's still not drawn to Angel in the yum way so that part is safe. Yes, Spike has spirit to spare. Thanks, K

01/31/2006 12:53 am
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Why do I get the feeling that Angel is about to drive Buffy back into Angel's arms
Angel will never wind up with Buffy in one of my stories. I don't often kill him but I usually have him exposed and put in his place *G*....K

01/31/2006 12:24 am
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Great updates! I so want to rip Angel's arms off and beat him w/them! I hope that Buffy comes to her senses soon about him and kicks him to the curb and runs back to Spike! It was really great that Spike decided to stay and I loved the Fairies reaction to his choice, will that be important later in the story? Please update soon, I am dying to know what happens during the dinner!
Writing today so an update ASAP. Thanks. Yes Angel knows when to take an opportunity that's for sure. K

Lou
01/30/2006 11:47 pm
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That was so sweet - the flowers and the hope. I hope she gives him a chance.
This is the Buffy that kept giving Angel chance after chance with less of a reason..I'd say Spike could be lucky. Thanks. K

SpaceLord
01/30/2006 11:09 pm
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Well now things are getting more interesting to say the least. Can't wait to read the next chapter.
Thank you...writing now. K

Max
01/30/2006 09:34 pm
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Spike REALLY needs to do something to perminently tether that gem to him, especially now the Angel knows about it. Advertising something like that was a HUGELY stupid move. The smart thing to do is to create a duplicate, fake ring and wear that while the real one is safe and secure inside his body, bound both physically and magically.
Yes Angel will not want Spike to have the ring that's for sure. Right now Buffy has it safe. His only interest was in protecting Buffy now that she was a vampire even if she changed back to human. Thanks. K

Pulchra Nex
01/30/2006 08:31 pm
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Love this story! and can I just say: "Oh my god that's one good outfit on Spike!" *cheeky grin*
I can just see him in it...yup! Thanks. K

01/30/2006 08:14 pm
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Fantastic chapter! I loved Spike's steadfast commitment to Buffy regardless. Looking forward to reading more!
His heart was always steadfast be it Dru or Buffy. It's the character of the man and soul of the vampire. Thanks, K

01/30/2006 08:09 pm
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Just got caught back up and I must say its amazing and fantastic and magnificent! More soon please.
More to come ASAP...writing even now. Thanks K

dihcar
01/30/2006 07:54 pm
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good chapter, my only complaint is the way you portray spike as a wussy vampire, the dude can take care of angel and giles. He's not a weak puppy fledgling. A master vampire who is one of the most skilled naturel born fighters.
Thank you. I don't see him as wussy ever and I agree with your assessment of a master vampire and their skills. Angel would, being a master vampire himself, be a challenge but indeed Spike was always formidable. In this story his objective is to win the love of Buffy and the regard of her circle of friends. This is better done in ways other than taking out her Watcher (although Angel may be on thin ice before it's all over). He's thinking not just going in with fists and fangs. It's not fear just a decision on what behavior is most likely to gain his goal. Again thanks, K

sirc
01/30/2006 07:38 pm
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great chapter
Thank you. K

alým
03/09/2008 01:51 am
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I feel sorry for Spike.His nightmare was the worst one-well,maybe except for the chasing clowns and appearing naked among his frirnds,yeah?:D
Still, I want 'The Spuffiest' end for this lovely story:)
There will always be Spuffy in my world!  As long as they both are alive in my story there is no other way it can work out.   k

12/16/2007 12:46 am
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Oh I think Angel will be surprised.
Yup. Angel has his own view of everything and it isn't always right. k

Serinah
06/12/2006 04:49 am
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you made buffy stupid in this chptr. why is she mad at spike for lying and not at giles nor jenny?! not logical at all.
I'm sorry that you think it's not logical. Buffy tends to hold Spike to a different standard for honesty even in this story. She's not stupid, just hurt. She gets over it more quickly than her older self would though. Thank you for reading.

k

05/17/2006 07:43 am
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i hate angel...i nearly cried when spike gave her the ring...so beautiful...don't let angel hurt spike!!

04/28/2006 09:43 am
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what's Angel's problem? why doesn't he get lost?
Angel thinks Buffy is his prize in the cracker jack box of his destiny! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:29 am
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Stupid stupid Angel
Exactly! K

02/12/2006 09:08 am
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Love how you brought this story into that one, a marvelous if not painful bump in the road. Really hope she gives Spike another chance. She really seems to understand her heart, now she just has to act...
This Buffy is able to trust and forgive.....she hasn't been left time after time or dealt with Angelus. Thanks, K

Bluebird
01/31/2006 06:08 am
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Love this story! Can't wait to see what happens next! Please write more soon! Thanks!
Writing away as we speak. Thanks,K

01/30/2006 08:11 pm
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*sighs* I do not like Angel in this one. *heads to the next chappie* I love that Spike was so selfless though!!!
I just can't see Spike not giving Buffy all the protection he possibly can even at his own risk.

Do you LIKE Angel in many *G* Thanks.
K

sirc
01/30/2006 07:23 pm
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great chapter
Thank you! K

alým
03/09/2008 01:26 am
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Throw it all on Spike,yeah,Watcher of Wanking Contest...
And what's with Buffy's reaction? "Shocked and horrified"?
Will things go in Spike's way for the slightest change? If so,I'd like to read it as soon as I can:)
This Buffy isn't as damaged as the one who only fell for Spike after Angel/Angelus, Parker and Riley had left their marks on her.  She'll give him the benefit of the doubt she used to give Angel on the show.  Thanks.  k

12/15/2007 11:18 pm
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oh no that is not good, Buffy just found out Spike was a Vampire and I don't know what will happen.
Not good for a while but be patient...she's more "forgiving" this go around. k

05/17/2006 07:36 am
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oh no...this cant be good, come on spike, show up and be a man and face up to the truth with her so you two can move on :)

04/28/2006 09:30 am
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oh i just knew Buffy would find it out from someone else and it would be horrible.
She's not the damaged gal of later years though....she still forgives easily. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:22 am
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Oh crap ... that is not good. Evil ending here. {runs to the next chapter}
I have to be evil from time to time! Thanks K

02/12/2006 08:52 am
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Oh crap again! Stupid them for thinking Spike would do something like that, especially amidst all this crazyness. Boy, I hope Buffy can forgive him... damn... bring on the drama!
Kneww jerk reaction...blame the vampire with the very thing you feared they'd do even if it makes no sense! Thanks k

bluebrid
01/30/2006 03:57 am
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Wow! What a way to find out! Can't wait to see what happens next! Please write more soon!
Thank you...yup poor Spike just can't seem to catch a break for too long. More later today. K

01/30/2006 02:19 am
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Man, Giles just can't seem to keep his mouth shut. I mean come on, they are in the middle of NIGHTMARE city.... Hope they can hfigure all of this out before it is really too late.
That's Giles....blame the vamp! Thanks. K

Kat
01/30/2006 12:45 am
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oh god. poor buffy poor spike. oh dear.
Thank you...you just knew there had to be some bumps along the way! K

01/29/2006 08:36 pm
Chapter 14         
Eeeep! How did Giles jump from Buffy dreaming about being a vampire to "Spike did it"? They better wake up the kid soon.
Giles was always one to leap to ascribing the worst possible action to Spike. He speaks his fears. Thanks. K

Lou
01/29/2006 08:34 pm
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Of course it has to be Spike's fault!! Jeez!
I'm sure Glies would blame Spike for WWII if he were ever asked! Thanks. K

01/29/2006 07:24 pm
Chapter 14         
ooooh evil cliff hanger! Great way to let the secret slip! Need more! :lash: Uh, please?
Thanks! More early tomorrow. K

01/29/2006 05:35 pm
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What a horrible way to found out. Geesh Giles did it ever occur to you that she couldn't have been turned that fast. I thought you were a Watcher! Stupid Watcher! Grrrr - great update sweetie
Thanks! Yup all logic goes out the window for Giles when it comes to Spike not meaning Buffy any harm doesn't it? K

01/29/2006 05:15 pm
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Way to go Giles! Poor Spike, he is going to have a lot of explaining to do and I hope that Buffy will at least try and hear him out! Please update soon!
Thank you....yup, leave it to GIles to bugger things up! Buffy doesn't like being lied to and this is a really bad time for her so soon after her dad's visit. More to come soon. K

alým
03/09/2008 01:00 am
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My hatred for Angel grew a lot more;which didn't change the total even a little bit.Just imagine how much the Spuffy shippers want to shove a stake through his bean-like,dead heart.Poor Dru...:( I liked her more than I ever liked Angel.Too bad she's gone and her Daddy is still around.
By the way,loved the chap:)
Yes I always felt sorry for Dru.  She was a truly good person who wanted to be as ood as she could be and Angelus drove her mad and then turned her!!!  She had no chance.  I always thought she was one vampire that could never be held responsible for anything she did because she was made to be crazy before the demon even moved in!  She loved her Spike as much as she could considering what Angelus made her become.  I felt it sad there was no way to "save" her or help her.  Now she has peace at least.

k

12/15/2007 04:30 am
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Oh loved the fight, I feel sorry for Spike since Angel killed his sire.
Yes. I actually have great sympathy for Dru. She was one of the saddest characters on the show. A genuine good person made insane and then turned into a monster unable to really deal with her unlife very well....sad. k

05/16/2006 02:59 pm
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yes, buffy, you just missed him! and he needs staking badly! hurry, you might just catch him and reduce him to a useless pile of dust! BTW, great chapter :)

04/28/2006 09:18 am
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aggghhh... i hate Angel. who does he think he is?
He must think he's god considering how even on the show he was always making decisions for everyone else without even consulting them!!! Angel knows best! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:15 am
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Oh boy ... Buffy had better be told real soon or Angel is going to blow it. Come on Spike. Don't let her find out from Angel.
Never a good way to find out things...Mr. half truth and outright lies Angel! THanks K

02/15/2006 06:18 pm
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Found a glitch. Earlier you mentioned the submarine meeting time re Spike and Angel and in this chappie that flew out the window. Otherwise, I'm loving it!
Thank you....I went back and looked and this was probably not as clear as it should have been. I meant the submarine incident with the "once" in this paragraph. I'll think on how I may want to reword it though as I can see that it might not be too clear. Thanks again, K

>>>>"Thanks to you--let’s not leave out that part. I’ve seen you once since Darla turned you out and that was almost a century ago. Where do you get off claimin’ to know my deepest and darkest?"



02/12/2006 08:40 am
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Holy crap! That was quite the intense interlude. Such a fight, and my god, stupid Angel for staking Dru. So sad she's not around somewhere. Poor Spike, he may have moved on, but that is not easy. Wonder how Buffy will react to the truth.
That just seemed like the only "choice" Angel would see to me. I kept thinking, "What would Angel do?" and it kept coming back to staking her. Spike may have moved on but that didn't mean he didn't care. Thanks K

01/25/2006 02:09 am
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I really love this story. I think it is fun to watch the interaction between Spike and everyone else. jenni is a great character in this, and angel is the ultimate jerk. I CANNOT believe he staked Dru - even if she is evil he should be tortured over a rack will small but sharp instruments which would last for hours before dustage. *sigh* Anyone great ficcy *grin*
Thank you! You know I thought for days about what I thought Angel would do with Dru and it kept coming back to a staking. He was always going for the solution that worked best for him and the last thing he would want is to actually take responsibility to induce her to stop feeding off of people (and I think he could have done it since Dru would do anything for her daddy and he had conditioned her to obey him). Nope, dust Dru, problem fixed. I agree it was not good or nice but then neither is Angel quite often. Thanks again. K

01/24/2006 10:39 pm
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Uh oh, looks like Spike might not be able to wait until Friday's dinner to drop the bomb on Buffy! I hope he really doesn't drag it out much longer b/c she is going to be really pissed if she finds out that everyone else knew and she didn't! Also, if Angel really dusted Dru wouldn't Spike have felt the loss of his sire? Or was Angel just saying that he did it in front of Giles and Jenny to look good? Please update soon!
Thank you...update coming soon. I intended that Dru was dusted there could be many reasons Spike didn't feel it including the fact that he comes from a different time where there was already a distance between them or his distraction with all the things happening in SUnnydale. In canon they never made that big a deal over the sire/childe bond so that works too. Thank you! K

Lou
01/24/2006 05:36 pm
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Can't believe Angel dusted Dru - what nasty piece of work he is.
Angelus was never far from the surface IMHO (look at some of the choices he made on Angel the series!) K

Bluebird
01/24/2006 02:37 pm
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I love this story! Please write more soon!
Thank you...writing as I speak...K

Jenna
01/24/2006 04:27 am
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Great chapter. It's nice to see a pre-angst Buffy in a nice relationship. It sure was satisfying when Spike punched Angel; I never liked Angel's overbearing attitude and you really amped it up for this fic. Can't wait to see how the dinner goes with Buffy, Spike & Joyce. Wonder how Joyce will like Spike in this context and how Buffy will react to Spike's info. Hope Angel doesn't try to screw it up, since he knows Spike's plan.
Thank you! Yes Buffy was a very different girl before all the loss and angst. This girl could love a vampire in return and not fear her friends response. K

Oracleholly
01/24/2006 04:09 am
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Just now getting a chance to read this and catch up with it all so far. Excellent read! Love the relationship between Spike/Buffy and Spike and Jenny. Who knew Jenny Calendar could be such an asset and friend to Spike. Hate Angel. Such an ass. Of course he would take the easy way out... so like him. Complete ass. Grrrr. Looking forward to seeing what dinner with Joyce will bring.
Jenny seemed like she might be more open to giving a vampire a chance (open but watchful) because of her unique background. Yes, Angel would always do what's best ......FOR HIM. Thanks K

SpaceLord
01/24/2006 03:47 am
Chapter 13         
Good chapter, just like Angel to take the easy way out.
But he only does things for the other persons own good!!!! Pfffft Thanks. K

01/24/2006 03:07 am
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OMG! Getting close to the time for Spike to be fessing up with Buffy. Angelus seems to be a lot closer to the surface now. Will Spike or Buffy get to dust him? More story please.
More coming. Angelus was never far from the surface, just look at some of the things Angel did (like allowing Darla and Dru to eat the lawyers and some of the things he chose to do in season 5 on Angel)....K

kat
01/24/2006 03:02 am
Chapter 13         
I cant wait to see Joyce's reaction to spike and Buffy's reaction to Spikes news.
Soon to come. Thanks. K

01/24/2006 02:57 am
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OMG! Well, crikey...bloody hell... bugger! That...that...tosser! Bloody hell! Kathleen, you make me weep! Where's the next bit ... and do you take requests? Nasty mean, savage and vengeful wishes? With torture and stuff... really nasty and painful stuff? Do ya?
Tee hee...Thanks. Yes, he does deserve punishment ITA. I'm trying to keep this story a bit shorter than mine often turn into though so no long torture sessions. K

01/24/2006 02:54 am
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I don't like Angel in this. He's an ass. So glad you updated and cannot wait to read more!! I love the way you have Spike in this. Awesome job!
Thank you! Angel was never the complete good guy that they wanted us to see with his shiney soul....he did lots of questionable things. K

alým
03/08/2008 03:58 pm
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The Biggest,Baddest Master Vamp has fears! That makes him even better.
You put things together greatly,thank u:)
Thank you.  Yes even the big bad has fears.   k

12/15/2007 03:09 am
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OH that was good.
Thank you for your kind comments. k

05/16/2006 02:53 pm
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their nightmares were all very true to character, very well done, and i must say i love the friendship between jenny and spike...i always loved jenny and love what you're doing with her in this story :)

04/28/2006 09:04 am
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spike should tell Buffy the truth and soon, if she found out from Anel or someone else it wont be good.
Spike doesn't have very good luck with lying, true! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 04:07 am
Chapter 12         
Better and better. So many intricacies. I hope that Spike is able to tell Buffy soon. it wouldn't be good for her to find out another way.
Poor Buffy always the last to know. Thanks K

02/12/2006 08:25 am
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That was another brilliant chapter. Jenny as a thoughtful sounding board and Giles promising to withhold judgement. And the bit about "his Buffy universal translator" with Spike. Quite lovely, not to mention the bit about the talent show performance, convincing the world it was experimental theatre so that no one knew how much they sucked. Amazing.
Thank you....Jenny wasn't supposed to be such an important character but it just felt right for this story. K

Lou
01/22/2006 07:32 am
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It's a treat to read a story set at this point in time. Nice job! Methinks Spike needs to come clean soon.
Yes, truth will always find a way! Thank you. K

Carol
01/21/2006 11:33 am
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This was a great chapter. I'm loving this Spike and I'm loving this story. So nice to see him confide in Jenny.
Thank you! I love all Spikes but so nice to give him a friend along with the hope. K

01/21/2006 08:21 am
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I'm loving this story. Very worried about Spike still lying to Buffy, though. She is so block headed that if she finds out another way (Angelus for example) she could go ballistic on Spike and try to hate him forever. More story please.
Thanks! Do remember that this Buffy isn't quite the unforgiving one that came after the angst of Angel. More to come ...possibly this weekend. THanks again. K

01/21/2006 05:32 am
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I just love this story. More more! i'm so demanding and greedy. But hey, sometimes you do give us more and quickly and i would be so very happy....
Hum...is that a hint? ...:::whistles innocently:::... Thank you. I am working on the last 4 chapters and already wrote the epilogue. It may be the middle of next week to completely finish instead of the end of this week as planned (RL is a demanding mistress at times). So glad you love it (I love writing it). Kathleen

alým
03/08/2008 03:28 pm
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Lovely chapter:)Liked it and want more:)
Thank you.  k

12/15/2007 02:33 am
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OH Jenny staying alive i am all for that.
Jenny demanded a larger part in this story than I had originally planned but I think I like her alive and part of the group. k

05/16/2006 08:28 am
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this is getting more and more interesting all the time....hope spike's right and angelus doesn't get to jenny this time around...awesome story :)

04/26/2006 02:24 pm
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when's Buffy gonna find out?
All in good time. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:59 am
Chapter 11         
Nice twist on the timeline's events from the show. I liked the chat with Spike and Angel. Maybe Dru can even be convinced to the side of good. LIke Spike said, she'd do anything for her daddy.
Poor Dru would have done anything Angelus asked of her I think. Thanks. K

02/12/2006 08:10 am
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"You’ll see, one day some guy will look at you and just say, ‘who IS that girl?’"--Love that little nod to Oz. And love that Spike is all affection for Jenny. Girl deserves some happiness with Giles. Great chapter.
I had to give Oz a nod.....I loved that character to bits. THank you. K

jane
01/19/2006 04:03 pm
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Excellent story really liking it so far.
Thank you...more coming very soon...K

Max
01/17/2006 08:20 am
Chapter 11         
I really like how Spike isn't letting Angel pull his "it wasn't me it was Angelus" crap. I always thought that Angel was never a champion - EVERYTHING he did was self-serving in at least some way - it was always for some sort of reward for him - first Buffy then his Shansu. The only reason Angel pulled himself out of those rat-filled gutters was because he got it in his head that Buffy was some kind of reward for him like you said. He certainly acted like it. I never got the whole Buffy/Angel deal. I mainly have to say EEEEEWWWW!!!! Buffy was only 15 at that time when Angel first saw her and "fell in love" with her!!!! That's ninth grade, freshman year of high school. EW EW EW EW EW!!! God, that is just plain sick in my book - What the hell was Whedon thinking!? It makes me wonder what all Angel must have done to that gyspy girl before he killed her to get them to curse him when they didn't do anything to Darla, Dru, and Spike for wiping out a good portion of their clan. And Angel was supposed to this "champion" to look up to? I REALLY hate Angel.
I started to like Angel on his own show but never, ever "got" him as a love interest for Buffy. Like you said eeewwww, especially the scene with the lollipop (could it be more of a turn on for a pedophile?). Then again Angelus' big thing was taking innocence...hence, dru, the nuns, the gypsy girl and....I think... Buffy. I think the "perfect happiness" Angel felt wasn't just sex or sex with one he loved, but sex with the ulitmate symbol of good...the Slayer...her innocence. Thanks. Kathleen

01/17/2006 04:31 am
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i really like this story. For ONCE spike is managing not to screw anything up. Go spike! It's too much to hope for that he continues down this path...isn't it? lol
Stay tuned and see *G*. Thanks, K

Tamara
01/17/2006 03:33 am
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It always seemed like Angel was only helping for some kind of reward . First Buffy , then the Shanshu. The period between leaving Buffy and the Shanshu was very small especially when you consider that he never really let go of Buffy.
I think you are right. I suspected his taking on the Black Thorn was his way of forcing the big apocolypse so he'd get that reward...I mean why would he think he could sign it away? He had his selfless moments (on his own show) but yes, the reward mattered. K

01/17/2006 02:19 am
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awesome chapter!!! I love the way this is developing!
Thanks sweetie! Trying to keep this one confined to S1 for the community on the LJ but I may have to add it to my "sequels to do" pile I think. I'm enjoying it too much myself. K

01/17/2006 12:50 am
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Excellent!
Thank you! K

akarinacj
01/17/2006 12:20 am
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As always, loved the chapter.:-) But, Buffy not knowing that Spike is a vampire is making me nervious... :-) Update soon, please.
This is a more accepting Buffy remember! This is the one that loved Angel in spite of his bumpies. Thank you. K

alým
03/07/2008 10:42 pm
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Good thing that Spike was at least honest with Giles...Gosh,that piece of watcher can be a real pain in the arse when the things aren't going in his way! Don't like Giles' messing everything up by spilling every bit of information he's got -not to Buffy,or anyone else in that matter.I fear that he might take side with Xander and Angel.Those three just have to get just one thing through their ever the thickest skulls that Buffy is a person on her own! Just how hard can it be to open thein eyes and admit the obvious fact!
As you see,i am so very excited about the rest of this fic,i love it:)
So glad you liked this.  Yes, Giles means well at least at this stage.  Spike IS different from all that Giles believes about vampires but he will have to see for himself in time.  Thank you.  k

12/15/2007 01:59 am
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Oh I loved Spike in the sitting on the weapons chest.
It just seemed a good idea. Thanks. k

05/16/2006 07:58 am
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nice speech to giles...liked their conversation very much...just hope angel doesn't start causing trouble...but who am i kidding? lol

04/26/2006 02:11 pm
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U know what they say 'honesty is the best policy'. but they also say that truth does more damage than lies.
True! Just answer honestly the next time a friend asks "does this make me look fat?"!

K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:50 am
Chapter 10         
I am glad that Spike told Giles. He never was good at lying. he always gave himself away. I hope that Giles really takes the time to listen and learn and give Spike a chance. Good chapter.
Thank you! Yes Giles before he lost Jenny was a different guy. K

02/12/2006 07:56 am
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"But deep down he knew he had never been that lucky."--And that means we may be entering into some conflict. My... I just love that he had a serious heart to heart with both Angel and Giles. Kinda hope Angel does the right thing with Dru. Really loved this chapter.
Thank you....yup a bit of a speedbump on the road to love. K

Tamara
01/16/2006 02:23 pm
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I love what Spike said about Dru. That was always one point that rankled me about Angel. I figure he should either do right by Dru or stake her and put her out of her misery. He hasn't attempted either.
ITA! Angel said Dru was the one thing he did that was the worst of all and yet he never did a thing for her! If he felt guilty he should have attended to his mess. The poor girl was driven mad before being turned so she didn't really even have a "choice" about the turning...if any vamp was innocent of bloodshed it was Dru. Even a staking would have been a mercy. K

ilpopi
01/16/2006 12:35 pm
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Great idea for Spike to come clean to Giles on his own terms before getting caught by accident. Hope he will do the same with Buffy. It might have been a good idea to tell Angel about the curse though. Spike definitely wouldn't like Angelus coming around this time.
ANd another reader that has read my mind.....the next chapter will be back from my Beta and posted some time today....Spike isn't through with the Angel issues quite yet! Thanks K

Carol
01/16/2006 09:43 am
Chapter 10         
This was an exceptional chapter. You got Spike and Giles pegged just right. I am really loving this.
Thank you! k

01/16/2006 07:49 am
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But deep down he knew he had never been that lucky. That line sounds so ominous! I'm not going to have anymore fingernails left. LOL Great chp and I can't wait for more!
Don't panic....this story is not en epic saga where too much angst would have a chance LOL. Another chapter is due from my Beta and likely to post later today. Thanks K

akarinacj
01/16/2006 06:46 am
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Very good and interresting chapter. Update soon please. I have a question though, if Spike has travelled to the past, there should be another Spike in this timeframe. Or not? Just wondering...
Time travel is always tricky and I really don't have an answer. I'm playing it like he sort of replaced the one in S1 by going back. Quantum physics (String theory variety) would say he created an alternate universe in changing timeperiods but I don't know how it would explain it...possibly SPike's essence entering his S1 body (but then the chip wouldn't have returned with him and I wanted it, at least at first...so poetic license LOL). THanks K

Max
01/16/2006 05:51 am
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I really like how Spike's gotten his rocks back. I just got one thing - the chip supposedly works by causing blinding pain, which, by the way, is total crap considering there are no pain receptors in the brain itself like there are in the rest of the body (Biology/Science major here). Anyway, pain is how the body informs the brain that damage has been or is being incurred (which again brain damage isn't felt like that, it's more dizziness and losses of control - actual headaches and migraines are results of things like sensory overload, pressure on the brain or chemical imbalences). Even keeping with the screwed up fiction, since the gem causes Spike to be invincible and immediately and fully heal any and all damage, wouldn't the gem negate the chip's effects just like stakes to the heart don't even phase Spike? Along those lines, Spike could get the chip out and not need to worry about any possible brain damage cause it would be immediately fixed. Don't even get me started on the fact that the microchip would never be cost effective for use and could never house a power source powerful enough to have those effects or large enough to last like it did in the show. Common sense and a broad range of knowlege absolutely suck when I keep running into nonsense like this on TV cause it just get so freaking annoying - these people get paid craploads of cash to write these things and they can't take an hour or so to talk to someone in these fields and come up with something at least plausible or, in this case, at least they could do is say that Spike was cursed or something instead of promoting misinformation that, first glance, seems to be based on fact. Yes, I realize I'm bitching but I've run into WAY too many people, who wrongly believe these kind of things cause it was portrayed as just another everyday fact on TV. Would you like the future brain surgeons and scientists you run into learn the fact right off or learn the fiction first and then have to be corrected and taught the fact, hoping they never get the two mixed up? Scary thought isn't it?
Aha, you've read my mind! Keep in mind that Spike hasn't tried to "hurt a human" since he first got back to 1997! Now he has the Gem and hasn't put it to the test....I should have the next chapter back from my Beta later today and GUESS WHAT? I address that very issue *G* Great minds think alike LOL K

kat
01/16/2006 05:36 am
Chapter 10         
Great chapter. Poor spike doesnt believe in things working out does he.
Even WIlliam hasn't had the best of luck in love....he's still game to try though. Thanks K

01/16/2006 05:33 am
Chapter 10         
fantastic chapter!! I loved the way spike just threw it out there for Giles. I just love this fic!!
THank you, hon. Proactive SPike is a joy and the one in season 4 still had the confidence to chance it. Thanks K

01/16/2006 05:20 am
Chapter 10         
Oh, yay! An update. ^_^ Like how Spike came clean with Giles; hopefully the watcher won't "tow the party line" and learn to think and act a bit for himself. *fingers crossed* It'll be interesting to see what Angel is going to do with Dru, if he'll help her at all or wallow in his own guilt.
Thanks! I do think that Giles at this time period was more flexible than he was after the betrayal of Angel/Angelus. I think Jenny being killed really preyed on him. He felt that he had been too accepting of Angel and not cautious enough. This Giles hasn't reached that place though, he's still like the one that gave Angel the benefit of a doubt. As for Angel........ K

alým
03/07/2008 10:12 pm
Chapter 9         
He'd better not hang around his grandchild and his grandchild's mistress!
And I think Angel is going to be the one to mess up with Spike's plans and reveal the truth behind the Gem.
Damn!
Things will work out fine.  You know Angel will try to mess things up...it's sort of his job *G*.  k

12/15/2007 01:39 am
Chapter 9         
Oh I wonder if she will tell Spike what happened.
She's pretty open at this stage...could be.k

DoWnEr
04/13/2007 03:44 am
Chapter 9         
Why does Spike still have a chip? Sure he'd not going to kill any one but what if Xander or Giles hit him and he can't do anything back?

Why do people claiming to be Spike fans prefer to make him less of a man when they have the opportunity to fix it?

ftfchris@hotmail.com
I AM a Spike fan and I don't want him less of a man (I don't see him as less of a man for that matter....he is formadible even with the chip and I wouldn't have him any other way). He has the chip because it allows access to Buffy and her world....when she reaches the point of accepting the changes are NOT the chip but Spike, he would chance removing it. He is love's bitch and will make sacrifices to stay close. As I said, he is not less of a man in any way. He is still a powerful fighter and if Giles or Xander hit him he'd accept the pain to retaliate.

Besides.....there are plenty of ways he would have KILLED the lot of them without the chip firing at all if he wanted to. Spike is not stupid and knew that. Besides hiring a group along the lines of the Order of Taraka he could have simply set fire to Giles' apartment or Buffy's home or something along those lines to name just two.

The chip does not make him less of a force to be reckoned with it merely lets them permit him close without grabbing a stake.

Kathleen

05/16/2006 07:17 am
Chapter 9         
good way to get rid of angel...lol...but i have a feeling that spike's gonna end up regretting hiding things from her when giles manages to dig up the truth :(

04/26/2006 01:58 pm
Chapter 9         
Dusty Angel?
Ah the stuff of dreams but no, I rarely kill off anyone major from the shows. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:41 am
Chapter 9         
{chuckles} Interesting how she found out about Angel. I wanted to kick Angel in the dangly bits when she says I have a boyfriend and he still tries to put the moves on her.
I always thought it showed how little control Angel had on the demon that all it took was kissing Buffy to go all game faced!

I think Angel WOULD have still kissed her if she had said she had a guy! He felt she was his reward and destiny.

K

02/12/2006 07:41 am
Chapter 9         
And Angel's secret is out of the bag. Love how this new story line is weaving in with cannon so well. Very well done.
Thank you, I love weaving with canon as much as possible. K

01/15/2006 03:35 pm
Chapter 9         
Sitting on the edge of my seat biting my nails! I know that they will find out Spike is a vamp and darn am I all nervous for him. LOL MORE MORE! Ok I will be good and sit quietly in my corner while I wait like a good girl for the next update. I swear! Fantabulous update and thanks for sending me your email addy so I can do that nomming thing.
Thanks (and wow! Thanks on the nomination...::::squealing like a girl::::...) SHould have an update later today. K

SpaceLord
01/15/2006 07:19 am
Chapter 9         
Good story just wish more chapters were coming soon cause I can't stand the wait :)
Probably later today...my wonderful Beta has another almost ready and I should get another to her today as well. Thanks k

kat
01/15/2006 05:57 am
Chapter 9         
I am so wondering what is going to happen when they figure spike out. And angel what an idiot. he is such a moron and you hit the mark dead on with him
Thank you! You know Angel just can't see the writing on the wall (talk about denial!). k

01/15/2006 05:52 am
Chapter 9         
interesting twist. and what a wanker. I can't believe (no wait, actually i CAN believe) that buffy TOLD him she had a boyfriend and she didn't cheat and he still kissed her. she said NO. god i hate him, i hope he dies soon.
Let me guess, you aren't a Bangel shipper *G*. Angel will be out of the picture by the end but is not even in the picture for this Buffy at all.

01/15/2006 05:22 am
Chapter 9         
oh very awesome!! I love this fic, although I think I've said that already. Hopefully we've got somemore coming today.... Cos well, I think you promised, did you? :P
Bad girl Kathleen got sidetracked reading Hell Is In The Details by Spikes_heart and didn't get that other one to my Beta quick enough but it should be up later today. I am trying to get at least one a day until done.....definitely will be done by this week. Thanks. K

alým
03/07/2008 04:36 pm
Chapter 8         
She is in your heart,you dope!;)
I wonder how she'll figure out the secret that the Gem is covering,or if Spike'll tell...or will it be the Watcher-or the Whelp...God,you metaphorically attached me to the story.Way to go!
Tee hee...glad you are involved...that's what I like!  Yup the truth wil come out. k

12/15/2007 01:18 am
Chapter 8         
Oh I would say she is,
Thanks for the comment! k

05/16/2006 12:51 am
Chapter 8         
awwww....spike's totally head over heels...i think he should tell on xander, myself.... :)

05/16/2006 12:51 am
Chapter 8         
awwww....spike's totally head over heels...i think he should tell on xander, myself.... :)

04/26/2006 01:46 pm
Chapter 8         
Spike's falling!
Already fell, just noticing (he's not as slow as Buffy but it does take a while). K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:35 am
Chapter 8         
I'm glad that Spike overheard the chat between Giles and Xander. It always bothered me that Giles hid Xander's actions, yet they all jumped on Spike. It was jsut wrong.
That whole end of the episode bothered me. The shared smirky smiles on Giles and Xanders faces ticked me off royally! K

02/12/2006 07:29 am
Chapter 8         
Love Spike's little realization and the way he's working his way into the past.
Hard thing for him to do to realize Dru's accusations were true but he gets there. Thanks K

01/14/2006 08:29 am
Chapter 8         
very nicely written. I really love this story. I also love that she's building something with spike before she finds out what he is...much like what happened with angel. I hope the unmasking of his true nature is just as dramatic. :)
Thank you. I want nice foundations for them this time around. K

Anonymous
01/13/2006 01:02 pm
Chapter 8         
I really like Spike with younger less jaded versions of Buffy. And let me just say THANK YOU for how you're not just dropping the issue of Xander attacking Buffy like they did on the show - that REALLY bugged me when I saw the end of that episode. Then, at the end of S6 when Spike attacked Buffy, they never mentioned Xander's VERY similiar attack on her. Hell, Xander was the one who was oh so glad to tell everyone about it, conviently leaving out that he imself had tried to rape Buffy before, except he didn't stop on his own - Buffy had to force him to stop by knocking him out. What's wrong with this picture? - Holy and self-righteous human Xander WITH A SOUL is immediately forgiven and all forgotten even though the possession merely magnified what was ALREADY there! Meanwhile, Spike, WITHOUT A SOUL, stopped when he realised what was happening. The person who stopped was condemned while the one who blatently refused to stop was immediately forgiven and all forgotten!? NEWSFLASH: Rapists don't stop when the victim fights back, those sick bastards get off on it. If the victim kicks them off, then they just try harder and don't stop unless they are forced to stop. Nobody seemed to mind or care that Xander would have raped Buffy had she not been able to stop him. That's it for my ranting - I just REALLY HATE it when crimes as serious as rape are trivalized or just dropped like they did on the show.
Yeah...it's a hot button issue with me to and I couldn't have put it better than you did! Another thing was Spike's ability to control his demon as opposed to ....say ... Angel. In "Angel" all it took was one kiss and he vamped out! When Buffy wanted Angel to feed from her to savehis life she wacked him 3 times and boom he nearly drained her! Spike was rarely in game face (and certainly not with a kiss!) and she nearly beat him to death in that alley and he never raised a fist let alone took a nip! Lots of double standards drove me crazy (and don't even get me started on Anya and her complete lack of remorse and even bragging about the vengeance spells in her demon past and all Xander did was get grossed out on the details!). We think alike methinks! Thanks! K

01/13/2006 12:22 pm
Chapter 8         
Great chp!
Thank you. K

01/13/2006 11:16 am
Chapter 8         
God I love this fic!!! I love the way Spike is getting all protective now. Sooo cannot wait to read more!
Thank you! Spike is much faster adapting to the truth than older Buffy. Lucky for him THIS Buffy isn't guarding her heart like a fortress. K

01/13/2006 10:37 am
Chapter 8         
LOL, yeah but now Spike knows that Xander remembers and that Giles knows :P Damn good chappie.
Yeah, that always bothered me on the show...bloody hypocrites! THanks K

06/29/2008 06:23 pm
Chapter 7         
Why was Spike able to take down Xander so easily with the chip intact? Was it because of the demon infestation? Really enjoying this tale!
So glad you are enjoying the story.  Hope the reason is clear in time but that is an interesting idea....I'd bet the demon in Xander WOULD have made him fair game for chipped Spike.

Kathleen

alým
03/07/2008 01:06 am
Chapter 7         
Hyena Xander-not much with the goodness.But I loved the rescue.And the undusty end,of course;)
That always bothered me...how no one ever brought that up again even when they were all angry with Spike later!  Xander could blame a demon...so could Spike!  I liked dealing with that episode a lot.

k

12/15/2007 01:00 am
Chapter 7         
Oh I wonder what exactly Spike is planing.
Spike is fine with plans....just has no patience usually. k

05/16/2006 12:49 am
Chapter 7         
so when is giles gonna crack a book and recognize who "spike" is after all...??? that could be bad...on to the next chapter :)

04/26/2006 01:37 pm
Chapter 7         
yikes! suspicious Giles never good news for Spike. Hope Spike does get the tutor job might be fun.
True! This Giles isn't a complete git though. Yes, I'd study long hours with a tutor like Spike. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:30 am
Chapter 7         
Hmmm ... I wonder when Giles will figure it out.
Soon to find out....Spike isn't a good liar. K

02/12/2006 07:21 am
Chapter 7         
Glad Spike was there. Like how helpful he's being, not to mention how protective. Great chapter.
Can't see him acting any different. Thanks. K

01/11/2006 06:18 am
Chapter 7         
lmao, Godd moves Spike :P Damn good fic
Thank you! It will be completed by next week BTW...K

01/11/2006 05:23 am
Chapter 7         
More More!
More in the works. I'll have this one complete and posted by next week at the latest. Thanks K

idk5743228
01/11/2006 04:35 am
Chapter 7         
This story is really great. I read all of the chapters at once. I can't wait for more. I love the younger version of Buffy. Of course, Spike is always of the good. Can't wait for the next chapter
Thank you! There are 7 chapters down and it will be completed (no longer a WIP) by next week. Yes, Buffy before all that trauma! A Buffy who would have not hesitated to love Spike. Sigh.....K

alým
03/07/2008 12:50 am
Chapter 6         
I knew she wanted to dance!
This was marvellous:D
Oh yes, she wants to dance very badly.  I would too!  k

12/15/2007 12:42 am
Chapter 6         
OH that was good, wonder where Angel is why he hasn't noticed Spike yet.
Just give him time. K

05/16/2006 12:45 am
Chapter 6         
very nice update...very romantic and sexy...and he just had the chance to bite her and so didn't...he's too smitten, poor boy :) on to the next chapter now :)

04/26/2006 01:26 pm
Chapter 6         
whoa... what's wrong with Xand-man?
Has a bit of the hyena in him *G*....I know most people think it's a jackass but it isn't in that episode. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:26 am
Chapter 6         
Good update. Glad this one is finished. Can't wait to see how it continues and finishes.
Thank you! K

02/12/2006 07:12 am
Chapter 6         
Nice little history fact there. Loved the chapter and the smooth way Spike has been inserting himself into their little group, and how right he feels with Buffy. Fabulous.
Thanks. I think if they hadn't experienced the horror that was Angelus they would have found Spike easy to assimilate in the Scoobies. K

01/11/2006 04:06 am
Chapter 6         
Another fab chapter. Off to read more!
Thank you! K

alým
03/07/2008 12:27 am
Chapter 5         
Teenage Spuffy flirtages=:D:D:D
I love this story:)
Thank you!  They were all fun before they got cynical.  k

12/15/2007 12:24 am
Chapter 5         
OH I bet she does.
Thanks. k

nmcil
12/08/2007 07:48 pm
Chapter 5         
I usually found the age difference between Angel and Buffy very difficult to accept - but having this Spike from the future, with a potential relationship between the two at this stage of her life easier to accept - Not that you are going that way with your story but it is an interesting concept to follow - see what the moral implications of age difference are dealth with -

Enjoying this story very much so far - like your treatment of the characters.
Thank you! Yes, I was hesitant to go with a physical relationship. Buffy was quite young at this point and like you I had trouble dealing with Angel getting physical with her when it aired. I tried to be delicate but in character with the pair. k

05/15/2006 02:43 pm
Chapter 5         
xander's a jerk!! and spike's not far behind him at the moment...he's gonna get this whole act worked up and then he's gonna be in trouble when he doesn't know how to get out of it when he wants to...typical spike plan *sigh* wonderful story though :)

04/25/2006 02:11 pm
Chapter 5         
ooo Spike's evil!*sniggers*
Vampire, remember *G*. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:20 am
Chapter 5         
Leave it to Xander to be an ass yet again. Cute to see the Buffy and Spike interaction when she doesn't know who he is. Oh how things would hvae been different if they had met under different circumstances than the show. I love it.
If they had met before Buffy hardened her heart (and the scoobies were devastated by Angelus) they might have had aan easy time IMHO. Thanks. K

02/12/2006 07:02 am
Chapter 5         
That was brilliant. Buffy actually being all young and coy and Spike playing off that as well as being utterly charmed by it at the same time. A marvelous chapter.
Thank you. Young Buffy had all the traits Spike always loved without all the heart armour. Thanks. K

01/11/2006 06:08 am
Chapter 5         
Is Xander a complete arse or what :P
Yes isn't he usually! The boy has issues. K

01/11/2006 03:18 am
Chapter 5         
I LOVE Buffy's awkwardness in this chapter! It really went with how Buffy really was in chapter 1. and I love you for posting htis all at once!
Thanks! It is still a WIP but will be all donw by next week so I decided to put these 7 chapters out now. Buffy was so different before she kept getting left for her own good! K

alým
03/06/2008 11:57 pm
Chapter 4         
She liked him,I liked the chap:D
Without all the bad things that happened with Angel I think she WOULD have liked Spike right off (or at least when he wasn't trying to kill her *G*).  k

12/15/2007 12:06 am
Chapter 4         
oh she has the hots for Spike.
Naturally! She's a normal girl for all that she's a young Slayer *G*. k

DoWnEr
04/13/2007 02:59 am
Chapter 4         
"No reason to beg for my blood ever again with this lot. Enough here to hire a decent Doc to pull out the wiring later, if I still want to."

That part confuses... IF he wants the chip out? And if he's planning on killing the Slayer why isn't he getting the chip out first? If someone handcuffed you so you could never fight back if someone picked on you, and you came across alot of money you wouldn't want those handcuffs removed?

I don't understand your reasoning behind him waiting to get the chip out at all. Doens't make any sense.

ftfchris@hotmail.com
This was intentional as a freudian slip. Spike knows the only reason he's allowed close at all is the security the group feel because of the chip....he likes being close to Buffy and his "plans" are mostly all talk to himself (as on the show after he realized he cared for her).

Remember when he found out (in S6) that the chip still worked on humans except Buffy? His reaction, "Nothing wrong with me, must be her" implied that in his subconscious the chip functioning was "right" in some way. Naturally he doesn't want the pain or the lack of ability to fight a human but it has become his entre' to Buffy's world and that is important to him. He knows that without the chip the group, at least, would insist on his dusting (even with the soul Giles felt that way in S7 because the FE was making him kill and without a chip he was a danger).

Yes, he wants it gone but he also doesn't want to be driven from her company, not deep down.

None of this is conscious.

Kathleen

05/15/2006 02:38 pm
Chapter 4         
whoa, girl, have you *so* got the wrong idea..i love this story more each chapter, it's getting really good :)

04/25/2006 02:03 pm
Chapter 4         
Darla's dust. won't the master guy mind?
I think Darla would have minded about losing the Master more than he would losing one of his women. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:15 am
Chapter 4         
ROFl!! Oh boy. She thinks that Spike might be a Slayer. that's funny and cool at the same time.
Makes a bit of sense she never paid that much attention to the "history and lore" of slayers LOL. Thanks. K

02/12/2006 06:53 am
Chapter 4         
Darla is dust already... And Buffy is crushing on a blond stranger... No way he'll not fall in love with her instantly. Lovely chapter.
True since we all know he was already more than half in love with her since S2 according to Dru.

Thanks, K

01/11/2006 06:02 am
Chapter 4         
Oh shit he just destroyed Angel's ability to earn Buffy cred :P
Tee hee...he's not QUITE through messing with the "greatest love story never told" either. K

01/11/2006 03:10 am
Chapter 4         
hee! I can just picture Buffy drooling at Spike! I mean, who wouldn't? :P
See....if you taste steak first that hamburger just isn't the same....Angel who??? K

alým
03/06/2008 11:36 pm
Chapter 3         
I wonder if Buffy'll die a virgin. I think not.:P
Loved the chap.
Tee hee....not with Spike around!  k

12/14/2007 11:50 pm
Chapter 3         
Oh that was good.
Thank you k

05/15/2006 09:00 am
Chapter 3         
hmmm...are we about to have hyena-xander and spike in the same chapter?? interesting :)

04/25/2006 01:54 pm
Chapter 3         
comic! really loved it
Thanks! K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:11 am
Chapter 3         
Xander ... always the clown. He thinks Spipke is bad asking for crumbs? Xander went around the whole time reading what he wanted to out of what Buffy said in the hopes that she'd go out with him. Silly Xander.
He never seemed to get the "thanks but no thanks" speach did he? K

02/12/2006 06:44 am
Chapter 3         
Wow, they really are that young back then. Sometimes I forget... Great chapter.
Thankx

01/11/2006 02:58 am
Chapter 3         
Crypty guy and quipy girl... *snorts* Awesome!
Thanks....Buffy was a fun girl before Angel walked out on her and she had her bad tango with Angelus. K

alým
03/06/2008 11:20 pm
Chapter 2         

Liked it:)

Glad!  k

12/14/2007 11:39 pm
Chapter 2         
oh that was interesting.
THank you. k

05/15/2006 08:58 am
Chapter 2         
lol...hilarious ending to the chapter...can't wait to see what he does when he gets to sunnydale, chipped unfortunately

04/25/2006 01:46 pm
Chapter 2         
can't wait for some action.
I try to please. Thanks. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:07 am
Chapter 2         
Nice flashback sequence. I liked seeing the touch back to something we wouldn't have been privy to at the time. Nice work.
Thank you! I like to fill in blanks. K

02/12/2006 06:36 am
Chapter 2         
I would have loved to see Spike's reaction to still having the chip. I imagine he threw a few things. Lovely little look on how things may have played out before.
Thank you! Yup the chip had to have been a terrible surprise.

Kathleen

01/11/2006 02:54 am
Chapter 2         
Perfect twist to this story! And poor Spike. Still having the chip...
Thanks! I had to give poor Spike SOME incentive to not dine on the population....some would be too tempting! K

alým
03/06/2008 11:00 pm
Chapter 1         
Very,very interesting...:)
Hope you enjoy it.  I wanted to do that season with Spike there to see how it  could have gone.  k

12/14/2007 11:22 pm
Chapter 1         
Oh that was good.
Thank you! k

05/15/2006 08:56 am
Chapter 1         
oh wow...poor chipped spike back in seasons 1-3 is a sad thing to imagine...interesting thought though :) on to the next chapter :)

04/25/2006 01:43 pm
Chapter 1         
hmmm.... interesting start
Thank you. K

~*~Tasha~*~
03/23/2006 03:04 am
Chapter 1         
{chuckles} Hmm ... Hallie gets to explain her interest. Oh boy, this could get interesting. Poor Spike being sent back with the chip. That sucks for him.
I left that part to the reader to fill in BTW....just why was Hallie so interested??? THanks K

02/12/2006 06:28 am
Chapter 1         
Love how Halfrek is all about getting her hands dirtied in this situation. I wonder what is going to happen when our Spike meets the Buffy from the beginning. It's not as if he isn't in love with her, and chipped. Love it.
Spike will snap to his feelings fairly quickly even if he doesn't come out and admit it at first. Thanks. K

01/18/2006 10:35 am
Chapter 1         
Great story. I love to see Spike in season one. Can't wait for more!!!
Hoping to have it all posted by the end of this week. Thanks....K

01/16/2006 03:08 pm
Chapter 1         
love the story. question spike's trust in giles. thanks for the update.
Not sure how far he would trust Giles without the Gem but Spike also knows it was a matter of time before the Watcher put a few things together. This way he has a chance to spin it himself. Thanks K

katakata
01/14/2006 08:38 pm
Chapter 1         
Heh this is so cool. I love the way that Buffy's all into Spike and Spike's all into second guessing the fact that he's into her too. It's a total reversal on what we became accustomed to on BtVS. And even knowing this piece is located in seasons 4 & 1, looking at it with eyes informed by how the rest of the series panned out made Spike's reaction to Xander's attempted rape of Buffy seem a little...oh I don't know, ironic maybe. One could be tempted to say hypocritical but then realise that of course they can't say that because it's a season 4 fic. I so LOVE IT when a fic makes me debate what I can and cannot reasonably feel in response to it, LOL! More soon please 8-)
Thank you! You know, I think that in the first place until SR, Spike would NEVER have imagined himself doing what he did to Buffy (knowing he was in love with her at least) and I think Spike after SR would have thought many of those same things he does in this story only applied to himself. Again Thanks! K

01/13/2006 03:47 pm
Chapter 1         
Girl, for a first season story, this is an awesome one! Can't wait to see where you take it from here...I love this Spike, already half in love with the Slayer and entranced by younger Buffy...maybe they could make it together in the end, but I fear that Angel will make an appearance and put the putz to it...can't wait to read the next chappie, and keep these stories coming...*hugs* you for a fine beginning!
Thank you! Yes undamaged Buffy would have been head over heels for a guy like Spike. He was gorgeous, sexy, loved a good brawl and most of all he was a long haul guy who appreciated ALL of her. That's the Buffy Spike is meeting for the first time in this story. He was already smitten before he was sent back to S1 and can't stop the rest of the fall since she's not a hard hearted bitca towards him! I'm gonna deal with the gread brooder in the next chapter (hoping for today....maybe tomorrow depends on my Beta's work schedule). Thanks and *hugs* you right back. K

01/11/2006 02:51 am
Chapter 1         
Ha! I love this!! It hilarious! *rushes off to read more*
Thank you! Makes a nice change having Spike in the Egyptian river while Buffy is primed and ready for intelligent dating! K