AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm glad they destroyed the eggs. But, oh God, Dawn.

Thrilled with the new plot dvelopment.  Had been worried about the direction of this for a wee while;  was afraid that the fire had gone out and  it was going to limp along until you put it out of it's misery (see 'Distance' by Herself).   Keep up the pace and conclude.  Well done!  

Things are really getting hairy now! I hope things turn out well for all in spite of how bleak it looks now.  Excellent on the edge of my chair writing!

You love to leave me screaming at the computer, don't you!  Thanks for the update.

I've got my hands over my eyes and am peeking through to read. Sheilding myself from the horror of envisioning this terrible event.  He's slipping so fast and now Dawn's truly hurt.  I truly ache for their current situation. 

Such an excellent story.  I've loved every bitter sweet and sometimes difficult moment.

Woah. Like, woah. Everyone was already so hurt and broken. Hope it all get's fixed in the end, but I leave that in your ever capable hands.

another fine mess you've gotten us into, fix this. please. very good read, thank you.

 What an intense chapter! You are so good at capturing (dark) lovesick Spike, and your use of Dawn here is really excellent. I'm afraid to imagine what Chap 62 will hold, so I'll just wait for you to reassure me...or not.

Oh SHIT!  Well this will certainly get his attention (and, sadly, his employers as well!).  Buffy is going to be furious and Giles will crow (the bastard). 

My heart wept for his disbelief that he is loved even though you can  see it through his eyes and understand his reasoning.  I think she does but as Dawn says has no concept of how to show it, prove it and he NEEDS it proven.  He also needs to at least TRY to care about her friends because you can NEVER force someone to choose between you and the others they love....you will always lose  in some way.  He needs to learn this without it being the hard way.

Excellent chapter....heart wrenching in so many ways.

He's not wrong in what he said to Tara and Willow but it was not his place to say it either.  He's learning but will it be fast enough?  I am counting on you to make it so.

Excellent emotional chapter.  So in character for Spike.  He tries so hard but just doesn't "get it", not without the soul.  That's why he went to get it in canon, because he couldn't be a vampire any longer but didn't have the tools to be a man.  He could try and come close without it but there was still a big hole in his reasoning.  That doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to be loved only that he will keep messing up until he has the tools in some way.  Either a saintly patient Buffy teaching him and forgiving or internal help.

Buffy is in character too.  Lashing out at him and withholding the assurance he needs but not meaning any harm with either.  Very self involved and insecure herself.


Kathleen

  Oh no!  Dawn!  She's been so supporting, and such a good friend to Spike, and now both he and Buffy could lose her...

  Even though it's agony, I like the fact that you keep Spike's struggle to do well very realistically.  Her friend's concerns have merit, because Spike doesn't know how to be good yet.  He is a vampire.

  In other stories, writers have him doing well just by trying, or suddenly being the perfect boyfriend.  I like that you keep him true to his character and his trauma.  Spike didn't just turn good for his love for Buffy, he had to actually change.

Whaaaaaaatttt!?!?!?!!? Wow. I was not expecting this at all! Which I suppose, is a good thing. I have no idea whats coming next, but I can't wait....this was one of those chapeters where you kind of want to squeeze your eyes shut to miss all the really tense stuff.....but you can't because its not a movie and you have to read it. Excellent!

Uh-oh. This is not going to go well. Waiting on tenterhooks for the next update. 

OMG! Gripping - suspensful! Looking forward to more!

What a mess - I can't see how Spike's going to get past this.  Dawn's been amazing with him but how can Buffy forgive him putting Dawn in such danger?  Angst at its most gruelling.  More asap please!!!!

all I can say is OMG - how could things be any worse - talk about a complete screw up on the part of Spike.  Buffy could not have said any more perfect line to finish his path to self-destruction and the worst of it all is that he has taken the one person who had only his best interest and love in her heart for him.   Dawn being the ultimate victim of his stubbornness and insecurity and obsessive behavior will be something almost impossible to live with -

Great chapter - Spike in total melt-down and the tragic consequences that will most certainly follow - it breaks my heart. 

Wonderful heroic Dawn, crazy vindictive Spike, and Buffy maybe showing her true feelings; at least unresolved feelings of anger for Spike not being William - all great elements to this latest update. 

Great story - please don't make us wait too long to see what comes next -

I really hope Dawn doesn't get offed in this--I really like her here.  However, I do smell a "god, you're an evil, disgusting thing!" line coming on...Here's hoping I'm dead wrong.

The only reasonable, sane person in Spike and Buffy's world right now and Spike's going to take every iota of the blame and twice the remorse for anything and everything that happened to her; no matter that he couldn't stop her from following and his first thoughts when he discovered something went wrong were to get her to safety.

oh. my. god. I knew it would be bad, but I didn't know how bad.

This is so scary, it's magnificent. Poor Dawn, poor Spike, oh, this is such a mess.

You really need to go pro. But not until you finish this story.

OMG! Don't tell me Dawn's gonna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh dear.  This isn't oging to go over well.

Then again, the demonettes (demonlings?) are destroyed, and the breeder can't make any more if she hasn't fed enough. 

I hope the boss person dosen't come after Spike at this point, though...

well there you go,off course it would be Dawn. man ::sighs::

Ooo eee - Spike has really done it now.  Great chapter, as usual

I don't know what to say.  Just that I hope your muse keeps you inspired so the next update isn't far away.  Spike's last line pretty much says it all.

Oh my God!!!! That's hospital time, there, and no right way to explain that off to Buffy.......the best they could say is that they got attacked in the cemetery......Oh holy crap.

Oh, noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have to update soon, please!!!  Please, please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

oh god!   NO NO NO NO FIX IT!!!!!!  Come on PLEASE!!!!!!!!  oh god FIX IT FIX IT!!!!  Please update soon.... sorry i got carried away... it was just so good.............