Chapter 3

Buffy crashed into the wall and Spike had an apologetic look on his face.

“Sorry, did I hurt you?” he asked and helped her up.

“Nothing I can’t handle,” she said and rubbed her back. “That was good. I did tell you not to hold back.”

He gave her a smile and she then wondered about something.

“Wait, your chip didn’t work. I can’t believe I forgot about that. Did you feel any pain when you hit me?”

Spike shook his head. “No, was I supposed to?”

Buffy nodded. “You’re supposed to feel pain whenever you hurt someone. We talked about this.”

Spike nodded as well when he realized what she was referring to. “Right, the chip the government shoved in my brain. I guess it stopped working.”

Buffy ran her fingers through her hair. “Okay, this is fine. It’s not a problem. That demon must have done something to it when he sucked the memories out of your head,” she explained.

Spike gave her a nervous look. “Does this mean you won’t trust me now?”

Buffy could see the fear on his face and wanted to make him feel better. “Of course not. The chip isn’t what made me trust you, Spike. I know you won’t hurt anyone,” she told him.

He gave her another smile.

“I think that’s enough training for right now. You wanna go patrolling with me tonight? I may need your help to find the demon.”

Spike nodded again. “I would like that. I just wish I could remember more about the demon. I might be able to help you better if I could.”

Buffy placed her hand on his arm. “It’ll be fine, I’m sure something will come back to you. I just want to help get your memories back. I actually miss my cocky Spike. Not that you’re my Spike or anything, but you get it.”

Spike felt flattered by that. “I wouldn’t mind being called yours. I have a feeling I belong to you anyway.”

Buffy blushed a little at his comment. “We should probably head back upstairs now,” she said.

Spike agreed and followed her out of the basement.


* * * * *


Buffy was sitting in her mother’s room and thinking about things, when there was a knock on the door.

“Come in,” she answered.

Spike opened the door and walked into the room. He looked a little uncomfortable and she gave him a smile.

“You can come in further.”

He smiled at her also and walked over to the bed. “I just wanted to apologize. I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable back there. I guess I have a habit of saying what I feel,” he explained to her.

Buffy patted the spot next to her on the bed. “Sit down, Spike. We need to talk.”

Spike nodded and sat down next to her.

“You didn’t make me uncomfortable. You’re allowed to express what you feel. I’m the one that usually has a hard time with it.” She took a deep breath before she spoke again. “Before you lost your memory, I was actually planning on telling you that I have feelings for you. I don’t think it’s love yet, but I know it could be. I just figured that since you lost your memory, it wouldn’t be a good idea to tell you that. I figured that you might not love me anymore since you don’t even know me, but it’s obvious that you still do. So, I thought it couldn’t hurt to tell you.” Buffy looked up at him when she finished and was surprised by the look she saw on his face.

He moved closer and pressed his lips to hers in a soft kiss.

She hesitated a little before she started to kiss him back.

Spike brought his hand up to caress her cheek and continued the kiss. He pulled away after a few more seconds and rested his head against hers. “I love you. I knew that the first time I saw you. Well, I guess it was the second time,” he said with a smile.

Buffy smiled back at him. “For once, I really don’t mind hearing that. It’s kinda nice actually,” she replied.

Spike kissed her again.


* * * * *


Buffy and Spike walked downstairs together and found Dawn in the kitchen.

She looked up at them and noticed that they were holding hands. She then had a huge smile on her face. “Are you guys together now?” she asked them.

“Yeah, we decided to give it a try.” Buffy told her.

Dawn squealed and hugged her sister and then Spike. “This is so cool! I always knew you guys should get together. I can’t believe it took amnesia for you to see that.”

Spike smiled at the excited girl. “You know how stubborn your sister can be, nibblet.”

They were both shocked by Spike’s use of Dawn’s nickname, including Spike.

“You remember that?” Buffy asked him.

Spike turned his gaze on her. “I don’t know. It just came to me.”

Buffy had a smile on her face now. “This is good, maybe your memories will just keep coming back on their own.”

Dawn nodded and then smiled again when she saw how close her sister was to Spike. “I’m so happy for you guys. Spike would be a lot better for you than Angel,” she said and knew she probably shouldn’t have brought up Buffy’s ex in front of Spike.

“Who’s Angel?” he wondered.

“He’s no one.” Buffy stated as she gave Dawn a look.

Dawn only shrugged and went upstairs. It wasn’t like he remembered him anyway.

Buffy shook her head when her sister was gone and turned back to Spike. “So, do you remember anything else?”

Spike thought about it and then grabbed her hand. “I know that your favorite fragrance is vanilla.”

“You can smell vanilla on me.”

Spike shrugged. “Well, it’s something anyway.”

Buffy kissed him on the lips. She pulled away after a little while. “Let’s go to my room and see if you remember anything else.”

Spike nodded and let Buffy pull him up the stairs and into her room. He had a feeling they were just going to talk because it was too soon for anything else, but he still felt like a nervous schoolboy. Spike realized that he really liked that feeling.