Chapter 18

Buffy changed their positions, slamming him against the wall and moving to unzip his pants. She freed his cock and stroked him up and down.

Spike let out a surprised gasp, but stared into her eyes before he asked. “Buffy, is this really what you want?”

She didn’t answer, instead giving him a sultry look, kneeling down before him and taking his penis in her mouth.

“Oh, fuck!” Spike yelled out, not expecting her to do that. He held her head down, running his fingers through her soft tresses while she reduced him to a quivering mess.

Sensing he was close, Buffy sucked him harder, fondling his balls in the process, being rewarded for his efforts when he spurted his dead seed down her throat. She swallowed every drop and licked her lips, standing up to meet his awed gaze.

No words were needed as Spike yanked her towards him, smashing his lips to hers in a hard kiss. He was suddenly very glad that she was wearing a skirt, making it easier for him to lift it up to bunch around her hips and thrust his cock into her wet pussy.

Buffy threw her head back, moaning and gazing up at the night sky as she hung on to him.

Spike turned them back around, pounding her into the wall. “That’s it, baby. Fuck, I’ll never get enough.”

Buffy moved to his ear, taking the lobe into her mouth and sucking on it. She spread kisses up and down his throat, knowing that was a sensitive spot for him.

She was driving him absolutely crazy, but it was all over when her cute little teeth bit into his neck.

Spike roared out his release as he drove into her, feeling pleased by the mewling noises she was making and the way her fluttering walls contracted around his shaft.

Buffy came down from her high, her eyes widening as she seemed to just notice what happened and where they were. She glanced away from him, pulling her skirt down and fixing her hair as best she could. “I…I have to get home.”

Spike grabbed her arm. “Buffy…” he started, but stopped at the sight of the tears now glistening in her eyes.

“Please, just let me go.”

He did as she said, watching with a heavy heart as she walked away from him.


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“You expect for me to let you talk to her after she came home in hysterics the other night?”

Spike took in a deep, unneeded breath. “We just had a misunderstanding. I tried to do what I thought was right for her, but I was a bloody idiot. She may not be a Slayer, but her life will never be normal. I wanted to give that to her, but I’m selfish. Being away from her these last couple of days has nearly killed me. I just need to see her.”

Giles thought it over. “You love her.” It wasn’t a question.

“I never thought I could love anyone this much. I thought I had that with Elizabeth, but it never felt like this. What I feel for Buffy, it’s like nothing I’ve ever known before.”

Giles took his glasses off to clean them, placing them back on his face a few seconds later. “And does she know of your feelings?”

Spike shook his head. “I’ve been a bloody coward, but I’m not ready to give her up. Not for anything and if she’ll give me another chance, I’ll never let her go again.”

Giles didn’t know why, but he believed the vampire. “Well, you might just get your chance.”

Spike noticed that Giles was looking to the stairs, turning to see that Buffy was standing there. He silently cursed himself for not noticing her heartbeat again. Spike was so busy staring at the vision before him that he didn’t even realize Giles left. “How much did you hear?”

Buffy took a few steps towards him. “Pretty much all of it, you know how nosy I can be.”

He smiled. “I do at that. Buffy, I’m sorry for everything. What happened outside the Bronze, I never wanted things to go that far. I mean, I did, but it shouldn’t have happened there. You deserve better than to be taken in an alley.”

Buffy blushed when she thought back to their last encounter. “I didn’t mind it so much.”

“You looked pretty upset to me.”

She nodded. “Not because of what we did, I was just confused. You tell me that you want me to have a normal life and when I go out and do that, you don’t approve. You act like some jealous ex-boyfriend when you’re the one that broke up with me in the first place. And then when we got outside, what you said just really confused me. I wasn’t planning for that to happen, either, but I’m not disappointed that it did. I don’t care about a normal life. Like you said, I’ll never really be normal. I believe in living life to the fullest, enjoying whatever time you have in the world. I want that time, every day for as long as I live to be with you. I love you so much. I know I’m really young and some people might not think I even know what love is, but there is nothing that makes more sense to me. You’re the one, Spike. I know that more than anything.”

Spike didn’t even realize he was crying, until he felt the wetness on his cheeks. He was before her in an instant, cupping her chin and bringing his lips to hers in a soft caress. When breathing became an issue, Spike pulled away and rested his forehead against hers. “I love you, too.”

Buffy smiled against him. “That works out nicely, then.”

He wrapped his arms around her waist, gazing into her eyes. “What do you say about spending the night at my crypt?”

“I don’t know. It’s a school night. Giles might not go for that.”

Spike turned to the kitchen. “Watcher!” he bellowed.

Giles came out in a hurry. “Must you be so loud? I have neighbors.”

Spike rolled his eyes. “Buffy’s staying with me tonight, just thought you should know.”

His eyes widened. “It’s a school night, and I happen to know she wouldn’t be getting any sleep at your place.”

“She’ll be getting plenty, and I’ll make sure she gets off to school in the morning. We really need to be alone right now.” Spike caught the look on the other man’s face and tried to amend his comment. “To talk and stuff, yeah, have a lot to talk about.”

Buffy was trying not to laugh at his side, but it was a losing battle.

Giles waved his hand in the air. “Fine, but you better make sure she gets to school.”

Spike nodded. “You don’t have to worry about that. Come on, love.” He pulled her over to the front door, but was surprised when she stopped.

Buffy headed over to Giles and gave him a hug, showing without words how much she really appreciated all that he had done for her.

Giles was stunned when he watched them leave, a small smile forming on his face. For once, he wasn’t worried about Buffy. He knew that she would be well taken care of.