Listening to Spike as he confessed raw moment after moment of pure emotion, as he basked in the hollow comfort of a false love, made Buffy’s cheeks flush with something other than anger. It was horribly erotic. Buffy discovers the lover robot has recordings of its time with Spike. Now that she really knows how he feels... what exactly is she going to do about it? (Winner, Sunnydale Memorial Awards round 32, Best Angst Spuffy, Best Characterization Male: Spike.)

“I know I’m already destiny’s bitch. If destiny’s really destiny, it can work itself out, can’t it? Doesn’t need a slew of bells and whistles. But I guess Angel’s destiny is special, eh? Needs help and coaxing and lots of praise? Not like us poor ordinary sods.” Buffy is furious at Angel making everyone lie to her in Pangs. So she makes one small decision, which might just change the course of destiny…. Set after Thanksgiving dinner.

"Look, Buffy," Spike said. "I know it wasn’t the real reason you broke up with me, but honest, I wasn’t your dealer, your ‘Doctor’ or whatever. I was a bloody patsy is what I was." While Spike is suffering from a malfunctioning neuro-chip, Buffy finally lets him explain the events in As You Were.

Spike dismissed the memory. His thoughts were just some old remnant of his human life, a deja-vu that had nothing to do with the reality of the situation. They were vampire and slayer, not a lady and her escort. Spike considers the evening he spent with the slayer, the night of the truce. Set after Becoming.

“You want to feel everything I can do for you. You want all of me, to fill that hollow space inside you. You have my mind, you have my flesh, you’ve had my heart for years.” He whispered in her ear before he bit her, bruising her with his human teeth, but he let go long before he drew blood. “You can have my pain, love. You can have my pleasure. But I’m keeping this.”

Season II, Buffy sneaks into the mansion and finds something she hadn't expected. Just a short pre-Spuffy convo between them.

The Council gets news of the battle in LA too late to come to the rescue, but they need to send Buffy and a crew of Slayers to help clean up the leftovers. Could one of those leftovers be someone Buffy thought was long gone?

Set in Season IV during and just after Faith's body switching adventure. Some elements from the espisode, but definitely MY version of how it should have gone.

A sequel to, or the next in the series, "Loves Lost" my season II dark fic in which Buffy is brutalized by Angelus and Drusilla, comforted by Spike, and rescued by Giles. This follows immediately. Um, since angst isn't one of the warnings listed, I guess I'd better do it here. This is Spuffy, but they don't get to live happily-ever-after yet.

The next in the series that began with the grim Loves Lost and continued in the agnsty Love Awakened. This is Spike's next visit to Sunnydale for Buffy's eighteenth birthday...

In an effort to frighten the muse into finishing this story - I'm going to start posting it. This is the fourth and last in the series that began with Loves Lost, continued with Love Awakened and Love Continued.

Some not terribly original plot concepts, including some I’ve used before, but hopefully an original take on those ideas. Buffy has come to LA to find amnesiatic Spike who is apparently the only survivor of the battle with the Senior Partners’ demon army. Disclaimer: The characters belong to Joss Wheedon and probably some big, scary corporations. Alas, they aren’t mine. But I play with them, ‘cause the man said we could.

season II; written for the Good_Evil community, this fic doesn't really become Spuffy until the sequel. However, Spike and Buffy are definitely the main characters and the gang is all here at one time or another. As are Angelus and Dru. Not for the faint of heart, a darker fic than I normally write with bloodplay, rape and non-consensual sexual contact. The gorgeous banner is by the very generous and talented Spikes Slayer2

A little follow-up from Pillars of Strength when Buffy tells Spike she would like to try smoking sometime. So one lazy afternoon…

After Smashed, Spike tries to teach Buffy a lesson about who's reeaaallly in charge. But what chance does a poor vamp have against a stubborn Slayer?