I'm looking for a fic that has Buffy/Spike and the scoobies rescuing Angel from the ocean Spike seeing Buffy and Angel hugging he stakes himself thinking that if he's dead Buffy and Angel can be together but Buffy doesn't love Angel she loves Spike, angelTara tells Willow that Spike will come back, Spike is brought back and he bumps into Clem who takes him to Buffy's house and he doesn't remember them, He see's Buffy sister and calls her Dawn instead of Nibblet and she's upset, Buffy is in her room depressed about Spike and Willow tells her it going to be ok, Spike starts to remember them.He's still Spike not someone else.Also after Spike stakes himself Buffy is crying at the dock or pier when Angel confronts her about Spike.