Where before there was the darkness of night
Now there is a goddess bright.
The sun’s radiance in the sky
Burns me from within as I see her.

She fights evil and dark, but within her bright soul
There a demon lurks, angry and fearful.
It is only with me that she lets it out
Fists ripping and tearing as she yells at me.

She tells herself I cannot feel, that I cannot love
And so with her I prove her wrong.
But she’s built so many walls around her heart and
They’re too high for me to climb.

I try and try, again and again to show it to her –
With chains, with words, with body, with looks.
But she sneers at me and calls me weak
Calls me a lying evil undead freak.

I have lived the light and killed in the dark
But now I stand on a world betwixt the two
And watch as she strives to find herself
But keeps coming back to me.

She never stays long enough
Goes back to the light, the side of truth, justice and right.
Never stays long enough to see
That the bit of darkness in her?
It matches the light in me.

Shades of grey, of shadows on my face
I stalk through the dark seeking her out
Unerringly, so she finds me.

The dark in her hates the light in me
While the light knows she’s using me.
My dark and light have mingled
But with her, I cannot stay that way.

She drives me, finally, to empty night, a pitch black need…
And when I escape, it’s to see her glaring at me.
It’s what she’s wanted and feared and now that it’s here
I leave.

She has forced me into this, tried to make me fit
I understand; God, I do!
And so, for her, I do as I swore I’d never do.
I split myself, fragmenting, in the hopes that she will understand.

Deep within her, she acknowledges it
But I can barely see
Locked in my mad world of
Light punishing the darkness
The life I’ve been unloving through recent years.

When I break free she hates me
But it’s muted, as the dark can no longer justify the things
The light wishes had never come to be.
As a result I’m stuck with my half-life again.

Something in her is winning out
The part that always wanted to be
Right in the middle with me
But she denies it; blaming it on that which I did for her.

Tonight I burn here
I’m consumed by the light
As it infuses through me and I turn gray again.

It’s a lighter shade,
Growing brighter
And suddenly it begins to pull away from my dark
And burn me.

I laugh because I understand that it’s not going to merge
That once again I’m unique.
The tears that flow down are burnt away before they appear
But they can hear me laugh
And I laugh once again, since it’s my only way to cry.

And again, I die.
Unbalanced.