The Dance

Chp 3

Betrayal

Disclaimer: The song is Godsmack's Straight out of Line, as usual I do not own it, or anything to do with it.

All other info is in the first chapter

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There's no reason
There's no compromise
Changin' seasons
Living the high life
I don't know you
So don't freak on me
I can't control you
You're not my destiny

Straight out of line
I can't find a reason
Why I should justify my ways
Straight out of line
I need a reason
You don't need to lie to me

I'll confess this
You're my tragedy
I plague you just to rest
As fast as you turned on me
Not forever
Banish the memories
This place of pleasure
I'm asked why you're into me

Straight out of line
I can't find a reason
Why I should justify my ways
Straight out of line
I don't need a reason
You don't need to lie to me
Lie to me

Straight out of line
I can't find a reason
Why I should justify my ways
Straight out of line
I don't need a reason
You don't need to lie to me
Lie to me
Lie to me
Lie to me

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Diary,

I can't believe that he would betray me. ERR!!! I mean he comes to my town playing all chummy, then he stabs me in the back.

Oh! You're probably wondering who I'm talking about, aren't you.

Billy! GRR!!! You remember Ford? The little idiot betrayed me in the worst way, just because he wanted to stay young, and pretty.

He lured me to this underground club. Which might I say was really creepy. Then he trapped me in there with all of these other insane kids, and himself. They kept talking about the lonely ones, and how they were going to become like them. Come to find out Ford had made some stupid deal with Spike, of all the vampires he could've chosen, he had to pick the bleached blonde, Billy Idol wannabe, pain in my ass.

So anyway, I'm stuck in there with all of these crazies that wouldn't listen to reason. The only way out being the door that I'd walked in, come to find out that the door only opened from the outside, and Spike was on his way. Have to hand it to Billy, he knew what he was doing when he lured me there.

Until the vampire showed his face, I was stuck there listening to those kids swearing that vampires were misunderstood, that becoming one meant that they would be saved. I finally got pissed and told them exactly what Spike would do when he showed up. Still they wouldn't take the truth as it was.

So me and Ford had us a little talk, seems he'd been suffering from some disfiguring brain disease. I felt bad for the guy, but the whole vampire thing just wasn't the answer, and I tried to tell him that, but he refused to see what I was telling him was true.

Seems Ford wasn't counting on Spike bringing along the only thing that he cared anything about, with him.

As Spike come in through the door, we fought, then I seen the skanky ho-bag, jumped up to the landing and grabbed her, threatening to stake her.

Spike totally freaked, telling his mass murdering crew to stop what they were doing. His eyes never leaving the girl I held in my arms, as he issued the order.

I should've staked her, but she'd been the only thing I could bargain with to get myself out of the club, so I held tightly to her, and made a deal with the evil undead.

Dru's unlife, for all the lives of the people in the club, and myself.

With a wave of his hand, he gave the signal, telling the others to leave the humans alone. I pushed the skank down the stairs into Spike's arms, and ushered all the stupid little kids out of the building.

Not that I regret it or anything, but Ford had been stuck inside as the door closed behind me. I guess I'll have to go back tomorrow, and do the clean up.

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She sat there, her hand on the corner of the book.

She and Xander had gone back the next day, found the body, and buried it.

She and Giles had waited by the grave that night, and waited for Ford to rise. She'd found out early on that if Spike made a promise, he'd go through with it. Ford had made a deal with the vampire, and Buffy'd had to stake one of her friends because of his own stupidity.

After having to do that, still to this day she couldn't get over it. She could certainly understand why Xander had held a grudge against all vampires. But she'd never really held a grudge against Spike for turning Ford, cause Ford had done it to himself.

In Xander's black and white world there hadn't been even a smidgen of gray.

But Buffy had learned that the world wasn't always a black and white place. Angel had become a shade of gray, and Spike had turned her world completely on it's axis. The shades of gray were now abounding all over.

Even Xander with his blinders on all of the time had finally started to see a few shades of gray, but it had taken Spike sacrificing himself to make him see them. Only thing was that it was a bit too little, and way too late.

Buffy had to shake her head, trying to come abruptly out of the depressing turn that her mind had taken. She didn't want to think about that at the moment. She wanted to relive some of her memories, and not think of the uber bad one that she'd thought of.

The memory of losing Spike had brought sad tears to her eyes, and were now dripping from her chin onto the slightly yellowed page of the diary, staining it, and making the felt marker ink run.

She reaches over to the box of tissues that set in the middle of the desk. She grabs a tissue and starts to blot her eyes, and then turns it on the page sopping up all the tears that she can from the page.

After blowing on the page to dry it as best she can, she flips past the next few pages, and smiles as she reaches the last entry in the book. It's a bittersweet smile as she starts to remember the scene in her mind.