For Buffy it's like two steps forward one step back. She comes to a new realization, a break through with her thoughts or feeling, she actually apologized to him, but then she hides from herself again denying what she feels. You have done a great job of showing her journey towards knowing herself.

so close and now so far away... When will Buffy learn to give her heart?

*grabs Buffy and slaps her around a bit*

though, for a moment, she was going to come to her senses. very good read, thank you

Keep it up - this is brill

god can it get any more intense why can't buffy just admit it she loves the bloody stupid vamp and yeah she must of been have sex lessons from anya great chapie more please

Wow. After all the heartfelt admissions and realizations, how can she come back to deny it all! Argh!! Stupid buffy.

closer...closer...

Ooo! I like Lou's idea of Spike saying no thanks. I'd like him to actually not give in to her sexual manipulations until she 'fesses up. He's better than a sex slave, damnit.

Excellent chapter and very hot too. Can't wait for more.

I thought Buffy would at least acknowledge her feelings for Spike but as usual she only thinks about herself.

Gahh! She is the most stubborn, insecure, urgh... words fail.You've done an excellent job of portraying Buffy's cowardice (there's really no other word for it) throughout her affair with Spike. She's had a fairly significant emotional breakthrough here, and yet she's still withdrawing from him. I keep expecting her to do a physical runner too. Because if I noticed one constant during the entire series, it is that Buffy runs away. Excellent update. Can't wait for the next chapter.

I hope he says no thanks. You've done a great job making a loathsome Buffy!