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The Writing on the Wall by Holly Sita 05/25/2013 10:22 am Chapter Thirty-six Couldn't. Stop. Reading. Read this whole story in three days. Whenever I need comfort I randomly go back to reading Buffy fanfiction (and watching Buffy) after months or years, and this story definitely did the trick. This is one of the best stories I've read in a long while. I can't wait to read the epilogue tomorrow. :) bec 03/10/2012 08:21 pm Chapter Thirty-six That was sooooooo DARK! but really good, one of the best spuffy fanfics out there! :D <3 I finally finished this. It was like a drug I couldn't have enough of. I wanted it to continue, but it was finished and that was actually all right because you really completed it. You are an amazing writer, and I'm not surprised that you're now a published author. Congratulations! I wish you many more successes. I really do appreciate how you pulled the nuances out in Spike without turning him into either the uber insecure sap or the perfect fantasy boyfriend. I really felt him very powerfully. Your Buffy characterization wasn't quite as strong, but I felt as if the story was about Spike's transformation more than anything, especially earlier on, so that's not a big criticism. This is one of the best stories I've read in quite a long time. Thank you for sharing your talent with us, Blue http://www.tthfanfic.org/authors.php?no=12717&list=profile Meri 03/20/2011 10:22 pm Chapter Thirty-six This is an amazing story! You captured the characters perfectly! Thanks for posting... I'm not sure if I left a review for this final chap somewhere else previously, but given that I've been doing a lot of reading lately while giving my grandaughter her bottle, I probably meant to but never got back to it. So having just reread the fic, I want to take this opportunity to thank you for a wonderful ride. This story is amazing: the plot is unique, the writing is wonderful, the characterisations are spot on, the ending is perfect--tastefully fullfilling every Spuffy lover's wish for Buffy to grow a spine, her friends to grow up and stop being so controlling, and for Spike to be loved and appreciated for his amazing journey. In short, it is riveting from word one right up until 'The End'. Thank you! marcy 08/08/2010 04:26 pm Chapter Thirty-six AWESOME STORY!! It took me 2 solid days to read it all and WOW!! Thank You so much for staying on it. Great characters and so much like they were on the show! I still wish season 8 would follow the spike- buffy love affair. They are both light and dark and just perfect for each other.Thanks for taking the time to share. Deb 07/08/2010 07:28 pm Chapter Thirty-six Just catching up on this fic and see that you finished. Very inventive story and thought you did a great job of taking from the Buffy verse and creating a unique fic. Thanks for the story. I really enjoyed. to-the-angel-mobile 06/09/2010 06:32 pm Chapter Thirty-six A great ending to one of the most creative and well written fanfics I have ever read Liza 06/08/2010 10:14 pm Chapter Thirty-six Triumphant ! Thanks for the ride. xx Sam 06/08/2010 02:27 pm Chapter Thirty-six Thank you so much for finishing this story, I had been waiting, not so patiently! This is one of the best fanfics I have ever read. Your story was so different, the characters so believable, and the ending was worth the wait! Please keep on writing, you have a real gift. 06/07/2010 04:51 pm Chapter Thirty-six i had given up on this! so glad to drop in and find it completed. thanks for battling through your writer's block and not leaving buffy in hell. the ending was so nice and rewarding. spike earned redemption, and buffy earned a backbone. : ) kim 06/07/2010 10:46 am Chapter Thirty-six Great ending! This is just such a grand Buffy and Spike and The Underworld journey - Splendid work. This is a fine work to add to all your other outstanding works based on the Buffyverse. It has been a great pleasure to read your exploration of all these characters, but particularly the journeys you took these two great characters through. Thank you so very much for this great new addition to the Spuffy and Buffyverse fiction - I appreciate your not taking the easier road of leaving off the work - best of everything with your continued writing. Pin 06/07/2010 07:42 am Chapter Thirty-six A really lovely ending. Thank you so much for returning to this story to give us this ending. Now I can read it all the way through! Wonderful wonderful story. Thanks so much. Every word, every plot point, every character voice note perfect! This was your best yet. This is rich and rewarding on all levels. I'm glad Buffy did tell all that they had been through, it needed to be told to put the changes into perspective. They handled it as they should have given they DO really love her. I love Angel's part here (and the bit about not recognizing Cordy funny and also appropriate given how her own character had grown when she left Sunnydale). He behaved just as he should and not a knew-jerk reaction. Excellent, just excellent. This is one to be read and savored then re-read again and again. Love, Mum Kathleen eyghon 06/07/2010 12:26 am Chapter Thirty-six I just can't stop grinning. It was beautiful. After 36 chapters of pure amazingness, all I can say is WOW....that was the perfect ending to one of the best stories I have ever read. Infinite thumbs up :) laura 06/06/2010 10:31 pm Chapter Thirty-six Good ending nojiri23 06/06/2010 08:54 pm Chapter Thirty-six what a lovely ending! I'm so sad it's over, but love the way you finished things! Thanks! Nikki 05/29/2010 06:43 am Chapter Thirty-five Loved it! I cannot wait to read the final chapter... This is such a wonderful story! Nice wind down. This was such a wonderful chapter - it made me feel both so happy and sad for them simultaneously. Also, keeping things set in good realistic treatment - there is simply no way that both of them have not been changed by all that time and hardship and utterly different life. I want to thank you so very much for not giving up on this story - with all the work that you have had to do, I know the time allowed for writing Buffyverse fiction has had to have been curtailed. So Thank You for keeping all your hard work going on this work. I don't know if you plan to write Buffyverse anymore - it looks like you have much work and happiness and very heavy schedule in your life right now. Congratulations on all that you have accomplished and I am so pleased to hear that you are in a great relationship. I know none of that success came easy and that you have had to work very hard and never give up on your dreams. All my best wishes to you - and thank you so much for all the great Spuffy Fiction you have given the fans - I have been one of them all the way. I particularly like this line - it seems to fit spike perfectly. "Every time he’d been with her, he swore he’d nearly burned alive, but it had never been a purer sentiment than right now." nojiri23 05/27/2010 07:56 pm Chapter Thirty-five wow! i'm so sad it'll be finished soon, but how wonderful this story is! thank you! kim 05/27/2010 12:23 pm Chapter Thirty-five Totally hot and totally sweet. Soo happy for the update. I'm sad this story is almost over, but it has been completely fantastic :) Can't wait! Loved it. Looking forward to the last chapter. haza 05/25/2010 02:13 am Chapter Thirty-four Man, I love the writing of this story. So beautiful! Particularly this chapter. Dang. Can't wait for the final chapters! It's so great to have them out of their Underworld Hell - what a miraculous journey back into their Life World. What a great way that you use the most vital elements of life back here to bring in their Hell world and this one, like eating pizza but Buffy not remembering what it is and Spike's non-reflective status. Spike's metaphor of no longer being able to see himself but also having his food there and having Buffy call him to her bed and life here; his spiritual and emotional bloodline back in this life and timeline in place. Three days, nice resurrection out of the tomb - Congratulations on creating an outstanding Spuffy story - Deb 05/22/2010 10:17 am Chapter Thirty-four Lovely chapter. A little hard earned rest for the weary. nojiri23 05/22/2010 03:53 am Chapter Thirty-four this story just continues to be brilliant. it is easily my favorite story! 05/21/2010 09:18 pm Chapter Thirty-four They're home! Yay! Great job, looking forward to more, as always. to-the-angel-mobile 05/21/2010 03:21 pm Chapter Thirty-four I really love this chapter moments in it remind me of that beautiful scene in touched, i cant wait to see what happens next and im quite sad this story is so close to ending How wonderful to see another update! That was so satisfying, the way they calmly went home, showered and went to bed. Now then... who's going to find them? I can't wait! kim 05/21/2010 12:02 pm Chapter Thirty-four Clean, in a comfy bed, in each other's arms....perfect. That's the best sleep there is. I'm glad Buffy had a chance not to be overwhelmed, like she was in when she was resurrected. I think it'll help the Scoobies to know things aren't exactly the same that both she and Spike don't *look* the same. Buffy's a thin and wiry brunette, and he has curls and roots showing. That little note of Dawn's is sad - "it's too quiet here". Poor kid. She probably had a lot of those moments in the summer after season 5. laura 05/21/2010 09:10 am Chapter Thirty-four I wonder who is going to wake them up? Nice return to the world. Yay they made it back. I'm glad they get to spend one night alone together adjusting ya_lublyu_tebya 05/18/2010 08:44 pm Chapter Thirty-three Can't wait to see what happens when they get topside! to-the-angel-mobile 05/17/2010 03:57 pm Chapter Thirty-three Just want to say how much I have enjoyed reading your great story, my only worry is that it might be ending soon. Looking forward to the next chapter. I’ll even help you dump the body. LOL - that's great Spike. I like the idea of Spike's sacrifice being somewhat of a scary burden for Buffy. Wonderful. This story is so well written it has me completely captivated. I am excited to see how things turn out once they get topside. silver81 05/12/2010 04:56 am Chapter Thirty-three So good! Funny, the bit about Harris, and heartwarming. Your writing is like a renissance painting, rich and filled with color, detail, emotion. I am enjoing every chapter on its own,each one is a gem. kim 05/12/2010 04:18 am Chapter Thirty-three Yay! Typical Buffy, worrying about the what ifs, but Spike's right.....especially with her not having to do it alone, she - they - will figure it out. She already has full sentences and the names right. Once she has the visuals and scents and sounds in front of her, the rust will fall away soon enough. Typical Buffy to also compare what Spike did to her own capabilities. She's competitive, especially with action. Ah, but always ready to look for the flaw or short-coming in herself, in this case that she doesn't act in love like he does, or doesn't think she would/could. It probably made it easier to jump for Dawn that she expected death at the other end. And now she wonders if she could still do it if she'd known she'd go to her personal Hell.......she hasn't said it out loud, yet, but it's Buffy......it's part of it. I hope the Scoobies show some gratitude to Spike for getting her out. Though I'll love seeing them shut down if they try to shove him out the door now. I'm so glad that you took up your wonderful Underworld work again - I had always wanted one of the fine Buffyverse writers to create a rescue journey for Spike and Buffy. I love the one you have created for us. You have created such brave and heroic and characters of such great determination and will to live and love. Thank You - I have always enjoyed reading your work and I hope that you can find your love and passion for your characters and writing - it's such a gift to be able to create your own worlds and make them live on the page. Hope you will bring us another chapter soon. Fantastic! And now for the climb :) I can't wait for the next chapter! nojiri23 05/11/2010 09:20 pm Chapter Thirty-three another fantastic chapter! looking forward to more! Feel better! Eyghon 05/11/2010 07:15 pm Chapter Thirty-three OMG, this is it! This is the return, at last, I hope. I'm looking forward to seeing how the Scooby will react to the time difference and the closeness between B and S. Great job! Nae 05/01/2010 06:09 am Chapter Thirty-two Yay! I usually check every month for an update on this specific story because truly it is a work of art. I simply love it. I'm here to the end so keep up the very good work. Can't wait to see what happens when they get back. :D liza 04/29/2010 12:06 am Chapter Thirty-two triumphant ! It's so good to see you back with your handle on characterisation and plot ternsion as great as ever. Yes, Hope is far more powerful than all the demons of hell! So glad you got the muse back a bit and hope it stays. You have asked too much of yourself, methinks! Just take deep breaths and get back the JOY of it and all will be well. I am glad that Buffy knows now. It will be interesting to see what takes place once they are home. This is a very different Buffy (and Spike for that matter). They have matured and learned much patience and that will be a shock to those they left behind. This is still a stunning piece of work, hon. I am thrilled you are updating (heck, I'm just glad you are around!). Love, Mum Kathleen Great chapter! Just found this story a few days ago, and have read all 32 chapters straight through. I have to admit I am loving every bit, and I think you have captured the essence of Spike's character. I will eagerly watch for further additions. Silver81 04/25/2010 03:33 am Chapter Thirty-two Holly, very happy to see some of your writing again. I haven't forgotten the story, just waiting patiently for your to return to it. I appreciate so much your words, and I have utmost confidence in your ability to story craft, because I have seen it time and again. This is a wonderful fiction and I am thrilled to see it again. I wont be a nudge and keep asking you for more... I know it will come eventually and it will be great. Thank you so much for sticking with it and not giving up! kim 04/25/2010 02:17 am Chapter Thirty-two Buh-bye, Larry! Really missed this story. PS 04/25/2010 12:52 am Chapter Thirty-two Beautifully written as usual. We all, including Buffy, have our demons to fight and IMHO you have bid yours adue..Enjoy your week off and feel confident that you have done an excellent job in writing this chapter.. block or not. Waiting to see what happens with Spike and Buffy when they return home. He doesn't want her gratitude or pity to be the reason for thinking that she loves him.. He wants her to love him for the man he is.. Wish you well with your publications. Enjoyed. 04/24/2010 06:30 pm Chapter Thirty-two So glad this fic was updated! I hope you can make it to the finish! nojiri23 04/24/2010 03:09 pm Chapter Thirty-two whoa. welcome back! love this story!! laura 04/24/2010 09:05 am Chapter Thirty-two Glad your writing again. Eyghon 04/24/2010 08:54 am Chapter Thirty-two I'm still around, and they're getting closer, yay! glad B found out about what Spike went through for her. Looking forward to more. Ah. Larry, you really should have taken Spike's advice and shut up! lol Go Buffy! Fabulous chap, as always...I just love this fic! Words can't describe how happy I was this was updated! Fantastic job once again, your writing is amazing :) Varin 04/24/2010 03:00 am Chapter Thirty-two I am glad you have not given up on this story. I knew we were near the end and I really wanted to see them get out. (If you let them out, and I hope you do.) Yay! OMG I think I love you. And Buffy saves herself. And Spike. This is why we love them together. I hope the muse hangs around long enough to finish it. Very exciting chapter H - Nice to see Larry's still in fine form. nojiri23 02/26/2010 06:17 am Chapter Thirty-one fantastic! please continue! I finally finished the 31 chapters and can't wait to see what happens next! Its a beautiful masterpiece of fanfic you've created here, Im on the edge of my seat :) ya_lublya_tebya 12/18/2009 09:28 pm Chapter Thirty-one Wow, can't wait for more. Glad to see inspiration has returned (I'm having a similar drought myself) Nae 12/15/2009 08:19 pm Chapter Thirty-one I'll be reading til the end. Keep up the wonderful work. Nae. Excellent evil writer. eyghon 12/12/2009 03:25 pm Chapter Thirty-one oh! [clapping] that's just getting better and better, and a chapter before christmas? That'd be lovely. Goldm00n 12/12/2009 02:30 am Chapter Thirty-one of course it cant' be that easy!!! but its a great story i can't wait for your next chapter! kim 12/12/2009 12:40 am Chapter Thirty-one Gang up on Larry, yeah! Hope, yeah.....the antithesis of Hell. nojiri23 12/10/2009 08:19 am Chapter Thirty Absolutely love this story! Keep it up! Liza 12/03/2009 02:54 pm Chapter Thirty Brilliant. x Richard 12/01/2009 12:44 pm Chapter Thirty Congrats on getting published! Eyghon 12/01/2009 11:04 am Chapter Thirty oh please please please let this be their big "exit" door from this hell and right into the Summers' living room (that would be fun, and ackward, and yet, so cool for so many reasons). kim 12/01/2009 07:55 am Chapter Thirty eeep! you leave us there? Evil cliffie! Beautiful love making. So glad you came back, even for this chapter. ElyseNotElsie 12/01/2009 06:11 am Chapter Thirty I couldn't care less how long the stretches are between updates just so long as they keep coming. I love this story and every chapter is totally worth any wait. dustyelle 12/01/2009 04:09 am Chapter Thirty I did not read yet, but I'm sure the chapter is grand. It's so good to see an update! Mazol tov on your new novel..I always thought someone of your talent should be published. I must be one of the two people. A big woo hoo to Holly! I was almost worried there for a minute that you were going to let things go well for our favorite couple. Should have known better. :) I am waiting for more and cannot decide if I wish they would stay in Buffy's "hell" or go back to Sunnyhell with the interfering Scoobies and their "interventions. enjoy seeing them grow closer. just waiting for who going to mess it up (larry, the scoobies--- somebody always screws with them.) very good read, thank you. I think I'm probably the only person who isn't in a hurry for them to get out! If you ask me, Hell has turned into their own private Heaven. If they go back, they have to deal with the Scoobies, Buffy's 'job' and responsibilities, not to mention the ever-present death sentence that comes with being a slayer...here they can essentially be together forever...so a couple of hundred years wouldn't hurt, would it? lol I think they've both earned it. SlayrGrl 09/10/2009 05:29 am Chapter Twenty-nine I cant wait to see how they get out, I've been wondering how thats going to go and how the scoobies will react when they get back. Please update soon! kim 09/10/2009 04:03 am Chapter Twenty-nine AWWWWWWWWWW, this chapter was so sweet!! Immortal Beloved 09/10/2009 04:01 am Chapter Twenty-nine Squee! It's my birthday today. Great birthday present for me. ;-) Very sweet having Buffy ask Spike if he wants to have sex. :) 09/10/2009 03:21 am Chapter Twenty-nine I loved this chapter. It was very well-written. The emotions and realizations were so tangible and important, but natural in the flow, that I barely noticed no real action took place. I can't wait to see how their relationship continues, or what will give them back the exit from Hell. Great Chapter! I can't wait for more!!!!!!! I can't wait till they get back!!!! very good read, thank you. love the last line. Twilightchild 08/19/2009 03:48 am Chapter Twenty-eight Congradulations on getting published! That's wonderful! ^_^ Very glad to see an update on this story, too. I look for it each time I get a chance. You're a wonderful writer, and you really keep your audience interested. Congratulations! Very nice chap. I love that they are actually talking--about real feelings and fears. It's hesitant and uncertain and even a little awkward at times (which I think is far more realistic than if it wasn't), but at least they're trying. kim 08/17/2009 09:40 am Chapter Twenty-eight Which fic was Because? Sorry, I've read so many, I don't remember them all just by titles. :) Awwwwww, yay for hoping. Uber congrats on getting published! I really liked the way Spike compares growing slow with Drusilla to what he experiences with Buffy as being the real thing. All caught up--again! lol I'm going to try to stay that way now that the wedding is out of the way. I love this story; the world you've created for them, their reactions to their circumstances, the delicious angst and the sweet Spuffiness--it's all just so good! Looking forward to more. Very hot - but doesn't Buffy love Spike back? have to repeat the comment from the last chapter. beautiful read, thank you. kim 07/24/2009 01:53 pm Chapter Twenty-seven Hot and Beautiful. Thanks. so i sent you a comment concerning chapter 27 of the writing on the wall via email c/o what i believe is your website. i don't think that i was aware that this story is also here in the bloodshedverse. anyway, not to sound repetitive, but i really, really love this story! it is just a great, great read. i want to thank you for sharing it and i can not wait for the next chapter! this: Buffy arched, the sounds clawing at her throat wrapping around his heart. “You feel,” she whispered. “Oh, God, Spike, tell me this is mine.” “It’s yours.” is my favorite! ya_lublyu_tebya 07/13/2009 09:02 pm Chapter Twenty-six Nooooooooooooo! Please update soon. I'm on tenterhooks. Lovely chapter. aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh sexual frustration!!!! beautiful read, thank you. kim 07/10/2009 03:46 am Chapter Twenty-six wow....very touching chapter. And I love that song. 07/10/2009 02:27 am Chapter Twenty-six This chapter was very well done, and beautiful without losing the roughness of Spike's character. I'd forgotten about those papers, and Buffy writing such a letter after she'd been imprisoned and lived out years of 'life' to gain experience as seh reflected on the past was so real and perfect for the moment. You bring the two people together wonderfully, and the dance to Cheek to Cheek was just the cherry on top. I find myself wondering what Buffy's friends will do when they get to know this much older, more experienced Buffy at Spike's side. I really enjoy this story, and I hope it doesn't end with escaping Hell, but shows us a little of readjusting to the outside world. the centuries have helped buffy . very good read, thank you. SlayrGrl 06/29/2009 09:15 pm Chapter Twenty-five You've got me hooked. Since I started reading this I haven't been able to stop, please update soon I can't wait to read what happens next. It's been a long time since I've read something that's pulled me in like this and I'm excited for more. Shanna 06/26/2009 02:35 pm Chapter Twenty-five One word....'Wonderful' Whew - I was starting to worry about Spike there for a minute. He's just being too damn noble. Well, he's also had a lot of time to think. Three hundred years, as he said, can put a lot into perspective, especially when he's been chatting with himself through most of it. But he's still Spike, and that part can't go away. I just don't think it's fair to think he can't mature, especially when the end of Season 5 was the real kick-off of his character growth. It makes sense to me that, given everything he's gone through up until now, he'd have a better understanding of himself and his relationship with Buffy. I think it's a whole baked loaf but they both do need to know for certain that it is born of more than just gratitude. They both deserve it to be more. This time there is a multi-strand bond that they are forging and it will stand up to anything thrown at them. (They need to heed the warning about no promises though!). I'd love for Buffy and all her crew to find out what he went through in time, but NOT from him. I don't think it will matter to Buffy because she is already imagining a close approximation but I do think it should be known in time. Love the foundation they are laying. They have had centuries to mature so their behavior SHOULD be mature. You are just excelling with this story hon. Congratulations on the noms and awards cause ALL your stories are head and shoulders above most but THIS, this is the best so far. *hugs* Mum Kathleen Awwwww (Sorry, couldn't resist. :)) Nicely done. Covers much of what needed to be covered and a good job of letting Spike soften his guard as Buffy's words begin to get through to him. Not too abrupt, not dragged out too long. :) Pin 06/20/2009 07:45 pm Chapter Twenty-five Lovely! I'm so glad that they can finally talk and I find it very interesting that their reality bends to her desire. I wonder if that will mean something for their escape. You always do such a wonderful job in creating these pockets of quiet, where they can explore their feelings. Another really wonderful story. Thanks! I love what you've done with Buffy, she's so open minded and accepting. A crumb for Spike indeed. Fabulous chapter. kim 06/20/2009 02:17 pm Chapter Twenty-five Favorite chapter so far! well done. very good rear, thank you. 06/09/2009 09:58 pm Chapter Twenty-four So bittersweet. They have each other but she is going to have to deal with all those memories as they come at her. At least she won't return to the emptiness of the past. He really does get it though and that will help. I had a feeling the writing were their names, perhaps other memories she was trying to keep when the mind refused to house them any longer. Spike will be moved to know his name was among them. Loved her POV, we needed to have a glimpse of her time there and that served well. LOVE this story. Mum Kathleen I really enjoyed your foray into the Buffy POV. Some hurts go too deep for words or coherent thought, and the jumble of her memories speaks so well of her pain and loss. And the switch back to Spike's POV was easy and painless. Thanks for writing this, it's great. kim 06/08/2009 04:55 am Chapter Twenty-four Excellent. I'm glad we got to see her slip away from her POV. Bridget 06/08/2009 04:47 am Chapter Twenty-four Beautifully written chapter. I am glad that you used Buffy's POV in this chapter. I think we needed to see it from her perspective. I can't imagine how they will get out of there but I hope they do. I also hope they grow closer and that Buffy remembers how thankful she was that Spike came for her. I love, love, love this story. I don't know about the internal Buffy section. It's good, but maybe a big flashback would be better so you get the immediacy of her suffering? Wonderful writing anyway. Thanks for a great story. Ah, nice interlude and I liked the look into Buffy's mind. Such a mix of angsty and hope in this fic. :) My word! So happy to see another chapter was posted. I just can't get enough of this one. I'm fighting the urge to start re-reading just so I can still be reading it. I'm so... so... content. So happy I want to cry. Yet there's so much more to be done. Buffy still has to learn what happened to her, what the writing on the wall really means, how to get out of there. And then when they go back, what then? It's interesting that Spike's gameface that last time was the straw that broke her open. I loved the shaking feelings and closeness and intimacy in this chapter. You write so brilliantly, the scenes just play out in my head and I ache for them. They both have so much pain to go through before this is done, I'm sure. How anyone could just get over something like this... it can't be done. I'm looking forward to learning more about Buffy's long solitude and about her thoughts and feelings and memories. ya_lublyu_tebya 05/19/2009 07:40 pm Chapter Twenty-three Well I for one am glad you went ahead and posted this chapter. It was beautiful and yet heartbreaking... Buffy's got a lot more to re-learn. I loved that she thanked Spike though. Look forward to more. me 05/19/2009 06:16 pm Chapter Twenty-three Wonderful! I was worried you gave up on it. Loving this story. Eyghon 05/19/2009 08:30 am Chapter Twenty-three yay! It was great, I feel sad and happy at the same time. I like that Buffy's okay with Spike, and that she's so sure she didn't hate him. I finally feel like they have a chance to get out. But please please please, don't mkae us wait so long next time, I tend to "forget" stuff after a while and the story's not as good when you can't remember all the plots and twists and stuff. awesome chapter!!! so glad you didn't forget about this story! Can't wait for more!!!!! kim 05/19/2009 06:26 am Chapter Twenty-three Just beautiful. I'm SO glad she sees he's only tried to help. Nice sweet chapter. Now they just have to claw their way out, right? Bridget 05/19/2009 01:34 am Chapter Twenty-three This was a lovely chapter. Just perfect. I can't wait for the next update. I am glad that Buffy and Spike actually had a conversation that was not full of snark. I think she now understands the depth of his love for her. 05/19/2009 01:25 am Chapter Twenty-three You have me in tears, hon. This was the chapter I've been waiting to read, and you didn't disappoint. Excellent emoting from both Spike and Buffy. Heart-wringing. Brava! **hold out bowl** More, please? 05/19/2009 12:21 am Chapter Twenty-three A beautiful scene without lingering too long on how these two characters suffered. Buffy is so in character, but in a way the Buffy on the show never had to be with nowhere near a similar experience. The only problem i had with the chapter was with the fact that it ended; You've finally updated, but now I want more! Great installment, please update soon. Holy Fudge and Caramel Sundae. I'm speechless. I lack words. I'm so freakin shocked. I mean, just when you have us convinced that this sucks but Spike has a long road and it'll be a long time until we see Buffy, just we think we're getting somewhere but the road will be long, just when we're comfortable with that supposed fact...... you pitch that. HOLY CRUD! I can't believe it. I'm in denial!! I so have to continue reading!!!! I read the first eight chapters of this sitting at my desk after work one night and realized I couldn't wait to keep reading it - so, I printed it out and took it home with me anticipating spending the weekend with it. I was so enscorcelled that I finished it that night! This has been a pure pleasure to read and I can't wait for the next installment. Liza 04/30/2009 12:36 pm Chapter Twenty-two Bloody hell I've missed this! Had almost given up, had almost turned into a pale gaunt phantom pitifully ghosting round other sites, when suddenly, beyond all hope of restoration or redemption, there you are! You're my Spike in the abyss. It' s so good to be able to read this fic again! Mamaly1975 04/28/2009 02:35 pm Chapter Twenty-two Brilliant!! Bloody Brilliant!! I am so excited and eagerly awaiting more!! OH boy, Buffy is starting to come back and a good thing before Spike bugs out himself. Excellent chapter, per usual. better and better, thank you. Holy cow, you know how to pack the endings. I loved the bit about Spike saying how he preferred this Hell to Earth since Buffy was there. Very Spike and rather sweet in a depressing sort of way. Then, BAM the awesome ending, with the subconscious part of Buffy's mind knowing Spike's name. Wonder how Spike'll react and how much longer it'll take her subconscious to push back memories into her conscious. Fabulous chapter, as always. very good read, thank you. hope the positive chapter ending keeps spike sane a little longer. I have a lot to catch up on. Anyhow, back to this chapter. To put things plainly, it was freaking magnificent. The ending gave me chills. And the part before when Buffy almost remembered and then had that strange fit, that was very well-done and made me feel so sorry for stuggling Buffy and Spike. He must feel so worthless, so powerless, seeing her in pain. Well, loved the chapter. Like always, it was freakin awesome. All4Spike 03/02/2009 06:43 pm Chapter Twenty She's remembering... the familiar fighting... the backchat... it's all helping and how wonderful that Buffy wrote his name on her wall. :' ) *sniffle* elysenotelsie 03/02/2009 03:18 am Chapter Twenty Yay update! I'm so excited to read the next chapter :-) Hmmm creepy and mysterious. Love it kim 03/02/2009 12:07 am Chapter Twenty Well, that's a hell of a thing..... Eyghon 03/01/2009 11:56 pm Chapter Twenty wow! Loved it! Liza 03/08/2009 08:25 pm Chapter Nineteen Can't access this ! Still ! Aargh! Will I ever be able to? Any backroads or short cuts that will help? Fantastic chapter. I adored the part when Buffy recognized Spike's vamp face and connected the river of blood to vampires. Very interesting that she knows thing witout knowing them, an aspect which you described most beautifully, I must say. Though I think my favorite portion was the fight and the feelings it brought out in both of them. The road is long, but they are definately headed in the right direction! Once again, loved the chapter! sarai s. 02/19/2009 06:39 am Chapter Nineteen I am so glad to see an update. As usual, another wonderful chappy! fine chapter, thank you. the writing is way more than "good." Excellent new chapter - loved your section on her writings on the wall and how she can make some connection with Spike in vamp face - bringing some tiny bit of spark to her long ago memories. Difficult to explore the theme of self identity or how our life experience combines with the mind to create our individual realities - I will wait patiently for your next chapter - It Is Right that you should take your time with your work - ElyseNotElsie 02/13/2009 02:38 am Chapter Nineteen I love this story :-) All4Spike 02/13/2009 12:51 am Chapter Nineteen Bit by bit she's coming back to herself. Something tells me it's going to be a long and painful journey and when she finally arrives she might not be pleased to have been forced to remember. Bridget 02/12/2009 10:48 pm Chapter Nineteen Great chapter. I really like how you write Spike's thoughts. I thank you for the update and will patiently wait for the next one. This is a great story and I would imagine it would take a lot out of you to write a chapter. kim 02/12/2009 10:38 pm Chapter Nineteen Oooo, brilliant fun! Hell, yeah. But do we have the typical post-fight Slayer feeling? Hungry and horny? She has to be hungry, at least, skinny as she is here. ya_lublyu_tebya 02/12/2009 08:53 pm Chapter Nineteen Nice move by Spike there - appealing to the dormant Slayer part of her. If only something would trigger her memory now... although the journey is being so brilliantly written. Take all the time you need if it comes out this good every time ;-) I'm sure we'll all be waiting whenever you need a break (I know the feeling!). really hope spike's hope is realized: that she does recognize what has passed. very good read, thank you. What had happened in the shower could not happen again. - how did I know that wasn't going to work out. Lovely chapter. Wonderful chapter - hot and sweet and achingly sad for Spike. All4Spike 01/22/2009 01:32 am Chapter Eighteen Poor Spike. So desperate to do the right thing by Buffy and having so much trouble holding back. I hope Buffy appreciates his efforts when she comes back to herself. IT 01/21/2009 10:51 pm Chapter Eighteen Thanks for the update. Buffy still has a long way to go, but I think things are starting to look up. Poor Spike, though; his internal battle is really tough. Brilliant job on your part - thanks! Bridget 01/21/2009 06:33 pm Chapter Eighteen My heart really breaks for Spike in this story. He loves her so much and has to hold back. You write Spike's thoughts really well and I can't imagine what action will bring Buffy back to herself. I wonder it it has to do with blood exchange? Can't wait to read the next chapter. No one could have done better for Buffy than Spike has, I don't care who it is. He's fighting tooth and nail to keep things right between them, to not take advantage of her. I can only hope his restraint will be appreciated. kim 01/21/2009 03:42 am Chapter Eighteen Yep, no turning back from that door he introduced her to. Ah, if only the real Buffy could know the internal struggles this soulless vampire is going through.... beautiful read, thank you. God that was just beautiful, not smut.. not smut at all :') Angie 01/07/2009 01:46 pm Chapter Seventeen What a great chapter! Well worth the wait! eyghon 01/07/2009 11:31 am Chapter Seventeen I hope they get out soon! Great chapter, love Spike's "way". Shiko 01/06/2009 08:14 pm Chapter Seventeen ..God, that was hot. Ahem. And I nearly cried as Buffy was saying her name over and over like that. That was all hot and sad at the same time.... huh. All4Spike 01/04/2009 04:00 pm Chapter Seventeen I totally love Spike's inner monologue as he desperately tries to do the right thing. I suspect that the utter tenderness of physical contact with a loving Spike probably is the right thing at this point. Can't wait to see how he manages to get them home, 'cos Spike's nothing if not persistent. I swear Holly, you write the most beautiful scenes ever! Like that, see that? That was amazing. The emotions were simply beautiful. I love your Spike, but I;m falling for your Buffy too. I almost started crying when Spike realized she was begging him. (But that might be because it's late at night and I'm tired and emotionally unstable =D) Great chapter! Can't wait to see what you have in store for us next! wow - that was awesome. Congrats on the much deserved awards. lilashannah 01/03/2009 08:15 pm Chapter Seventeen I have no idea of what to say...the only thing that comes to mind is WOW! I really can't wait for more. ya_lublyu_tebya 01/03/2009 06:41 pm Chapter Seventeen What an amazing chapter! So much tension and sweetness - oh my! As always, I look forward to more. Wonderful insight into Spike's thoughts, absolutely brilliant. kim 01/03/2009 11:24 am Chapter Seventeen Oh, wow......rarely does a sexual scene bring tears. Poor Buffy, and Spike's conflict and heart breaking all over again for her.....perhaps Buffy can learn things all over again with sweet memories. With her past heartaches forgotten, learning about relating with another person can be a second chance for her. A crazy kind of blessing in disguise. Liza 01/03/2009 10:56 am Chapter Seventeen This chapter was very tender. Dont think I've read such a sweet and loving sex scene. But what's Larry going to say? Do they kick you out of hell if you like it there? I've been playing catch-up with this fic and am all caught up (for now, at least lol). I'm really enjoying this intriguing tale. I can't wait to see how (or if) Buffy regains her memory, and how they find their way home. Looking forward to the next chap, and I'll try not to fall so far behind again. Congratulations on the awards! powerful update, thank you. Emmie 12/29/2008 07:28 pm Chapter Sixteen *salivating for more* I'm greatly enjoying this! Wow Great story! I hope they can get out of hell. lol The writing on the wall must be something important being conected to the title and all ya_lublyu_tebya 12/16/2008 09:23 am Chapter Sixteen Heartbreaking chapter. I really hope he hasn't messed up and they're stuck forever. Beautiful stuff, as always. This was so sad and heartbreaking - I felt so sorry for Spike but with the power of words in magic and communication maybe the use and choice of words will offer them some hope against his idea of the three rules. This was such a beautiful chapter - you are really communicating the powerful emotions and despair and anguish that Spike and Buffy experience in this underworld/hell. Splendid work on this chapter and the entire work - congratulations and my "thanks" for bringing us this new Buffyverse fiction. Like the new banner - I was going to work on another one that depicted this new place where Buffy lives - this one works great. Like the new banner - I was going to work on another one that depicted this new place where Buffy lives - this one works great. I would really love to see what you could come up with! If you have the time, of course... :) I'm just so touched people want to make me artwork for this story. A very affecting chapter, Buffy's bleak little home and Spike's despair. He'll better after a rest, can't expect to be on top form after all that he's endured. Then he can prepare to find the way out fsor them. Absolutely loving this. awwwwwwwwwwwwwww man!!!!! great chapter! kim 12/13/2008 02:15 am Chapter Sixteen Oh, boy........but they'll find some way. She's so sweet with him. :) This reminds me a bit of the film Threads (worth seeing)...it is a post nuclear world where language and society have collapsed for the survivors. Bleak and sad like this hell. Kathleen Damn! I worried about his promises, feared them. Somehow I don't think it is as hopeless as he does (perhaps that's the trick....if you believe hope is gone it is). The writing of the title is now all around them and she is learning how to read Spike...communication will follow in good time and they can sort it out. Excellent update hon....so touching how she trusts him. He has made it better just by relieving her loneliness for now. Buffy had been utterly abandoned but Spike came back into her life...that has to resonate on some level. Wow...your birthday and you give US the gift! Thank you sweetie, Mum Kathleen All4Spike 12/12/2008 09:35 pm Chapter Sixteen Oops, silly Spike. I wonder what language the markings are in... or has Buffy been there so long she has allowed English to adapt and change out of all recognition? After all I don't think she speaks any other language, does she? Great chapter, I didn't even think anything about that promise =/ are you going to upload on FF.Net? Liza 12/12/2008 08:11 pm Chapter Sixteen I didn't see that coming! Going to go back and see whether I should have done. Poor Spike - but at least there's tenderness. Fascinated by the language of Buffy's despair . Hope we find out what she's written. enjoy your day! IT 12/12/2008 07:36 pm Chapter Sixteen You said no evil cliffie, and you're right, but you left us with despair instead! Oh, you evil woman, you! Lovely, lovely update again. Congrats on graduating - enjoy the day! after all that has happen spike is still shocked. fine read, thank you. buffy saying her name was just heartbreaking. nikki 12/08/2008 03:57 am Chapter Fifteen Yet again, another fabulous chapter ending with a major cliffy. I can't wait to find out what is on those walls! 12/07/2008 11:02 am Chapter Fifteen That's a damnable cliff hanger. Have a little mercy. 12/06/2008 02:42 am Chapter Fifteen Ok, so I'm guessing paintings of some sort but of what?! First time in a long time I've gotten worked up wondering what comes next in a story, excellent job. BT_ 12/05/2008 08:12 pm Chapter Fifteen Well, I'm assuming that your title is about to come into play... But you're sure an evil writer to leave a cliffhanger like THAT!!! Bridget 12/05/2008 06:04 pm Chapter Fifteen The reunion was written very well and I like how you write Spike's thoughts. I can't imagine what horror Spike is seeing. I patiently will await your update. Great chapter. Kathy (spikespet2002@yahoo.com) 12/05/2008 04:12 pm Chapter Fifteen Okay, that's just a mean cliff hanger with the news that the updates are only going to be weekly. If I didn't know better, I'd swear you were Joss writing under a pseudonym. Sorry I don't review often, but you just lead me flabergasted and speechless when I read your work. Thanks. Belle 12/05/2008 03:16 pm Chapter Fifteen Ah! The suspense!! Update soon please! great chapter!!!!! Can't wait for MORE!!! Slayer graffiti? Can't wait to see what has unsettled him so. Great job on this fic - keeping Spike sane, understanding what will have happened to Buffy's mind through the centuries, depicting a hell that has hopelessness at its core. So much going on. A thousand years is unimagineable, and it's no wonder Buffy remembers nothing of her life, how could she ever? She's starting anew, and thankfully she has Spike to help her. It will be interesting to see how he copes with the challenge. Wonderful chapter. All4Spike 12/05/2008 12:24 pm Chapter Fifteen She's done a Fred, hasn't she? She's been writing... or possibly drawing... on the walls to try to remember everyone else... she's just forgotten herself. How unbearably sad, and how typical. Of course I could be wrong... ya_lublyu_tebya 12/05/2008 09:23 am Chapter Fifteen What, what, what? Can't wait for more. Great update!! all I can say is WOW - What is it? What is it? What is the writing on the wall?!?!?! well, that's the question there, innit? GREAT chapter. I love Spike's thoughts and the way Hell exists for Buffy. The fact that the way he thought would bring them home is gone, how he (being our beloved Spike) is taking that, everything. Great ending to the chappie, even if I desperately want to know exactly what she wrote on the walls. Memories that haunt her and are the only remains of her previous life perhaps? Or even a marking of the days she spent in Hell maybe? I don't know, but I can't wait to find out!!! kim 12/05/2008 06:12 am Chapter Fifteen What?! Drawings? Stuff she tried to remind herself with? Nightmares? So cute how child-like Buffy has him wrapped around her finger. Pam S 12/05/2008 05:32 am Chapter Fifteen Horrible to Spike must be bad... but for namesake.. Writing on the Wall.. Her life in hell spelled out maybe? Despair.. loss of self? Waiting for the next update.. enjoying.. beautifully written chapter. thank you. That was wonderful. Tearing up here. Belle 11/29/2008 09:52 pm Chapter Fourteen Excellent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Updated soon please!! They've finally interacted! Woooooooooooo! WOW Great chapter! I am so excited for more! But from the looks of it even if it only takes them a few days to get out of there she has a long way to go to get back to even a shell of the person she was. Can't wait to see where you take the story next! Great Chapter! oh me gosh! that was so beautiful! i loved it! ya_lublyu_tebya 11/26/2008 09:17 am Chapter Fourteen That was a beautiful chapter. Loved Spike's desperate rambling. Loved the vivd picture of a lost Buffy. Loved it all. Can't wait for the next update. Really incredibly touching....Buffy is heartbreaking. She likely didn't even know if Spike was just something her mind came up with to further her torment.....kindness, gentleness is foreign to her at this point. His love so beautifully described as he moves against his will toward her driven to comfort, to help, to heal. This rings so very true in every respect. This is so powerful and beautifully done. It is also a metaphor for their relationship in canon....she was lost and fearful and he just kept moving toward her offering solace and love....it really fits. Excellent, just note perfect. Mum Kathleen nxm 11/25/2008 11:43 pm Chapter Fourteen YAY!!!! woz 11/25/2008 11:14 pm Chapter Fourteen Damn! I'm going on vacation for a week and a half with no computer access, how the hell am I going to wait that long to read another update? This story is fantastic!! All4Spike 11/25/2008 11:12 pm Chapter Fourteen A truly heartbreaking chapter. Beautiful and poignant. Your 'Spike voice' is 100% kim 11/25/2008 11:04 pm Chapter Fourteen Awwwwwww!!! Spike couldn't relate this any more vividly if he was trying to write it down. His happiness and grief at seeing her, the magnet pull.... IT 11/25/2008 10:52 pm Chapter Fourteen Hooray! Finally. Wow. That was really intense. Thanks for updating. seems buffy has found him. fine chapter, thank you. What a creepy place. Nice to see Buffy hasn't completely lost her touch. Belle 11/24/2008 03:36 pm Chapter Thirteen You like these cliffhangers don't you? :P Update soon please! Pin 11/24/2008 03:07 pm Chapter Thirteen This is a really amazing creation! I was wondering how you were going to express Buffy's hell, and this is just great . Wonderful attention (as always) to characterization and atmosphere. I really can picture this reality. I like the details such as Spike's reflection and those picky logistics problems of clothing and physical condition. I really love this story and your path for these characters. I am, however, going to miss Spike's 'companion Buffy', she was really quite nice and I liked her a lot. Thanks again! Liza 11/24/2008 10:01 am Chapter Thirteen I knew it would be being alone. You are so completely right that this is a terror buried in all of us - cackling and dancing on the surface of the skin in some of us, in fact. I've been following this avidly. Can't wait for the next bit. Is she still sane? ya_lublyu_tebya 11/24/2008 09:16 am Chapter Thirteen He found her!! Yay! But I get the feeling she's not exactly going to be herself... Can't wait for more, Holly. I absolutely love this story and you deserve every nomination you get. nikki 11/24/2008 08:10 am Chapter Thirteen Oh, wow! They found each other finally. I can't wait to see how these years in hell have changed Buffy. Looking forward to readng your characterization. Ah! He's found her. The Buffy who's been on her own for a thousand years...and she's found him. Well done, hon. All4Spike 11/23/2008 01:25 pm Chapter Thirteen I can see that a deserted city surrounded by blood would be a very realistic Hell for Buffy. Now then, he's found her but does she remember who he is? Does she remember who she is? It looks as if she may have gone FeralSlayer... WOW...yes Buffy's hell WOULD be one of abandonment and the idea of a river of blood (likely people she couldn't save) makes even more sense. She may be close to insane at this point so Spike needs to be very very careful. As she sees him, even if she recognizes him. not put him in the "friend" category. You really are outdoing yourself on this on hon. The imagery is fantastic and yet you vary it so you paint a whole landscape not just a small picture. The ache in him that won't heal is powerful and now we get a look at Buffy's! When two hells collide who knows what to expect. Excellent and congratulations on the nomination...Very deserved! Mum Kathleen oh me gosh! have i mentioned how much i absolutely adore this fic lately?? loved this chapter. can't wait to meet buffy again. see how hell has changed her... but spike will fix everything. i wonder if she'll recognize him? dunno, anyways, lovely update! Excellent - do you feel like this work is taking you to a new level? Your descriptive quality of space and emotional state is so effective - this chapter, particularly has such a strong sense of movement that reflects Spike's fears and his endless time. Your work has always been, IMO, some of the best fan fiction from The Buffyverse, but I think you are getting even better - the best way that I can describe it is a spatial quality that is connected to emotions. Does that make any sense? Buffy's created Hell seems like a perfect fit - and endless slave to her Slayer existence and how that duty took so much away from her life. To meet up with real prey - and to have Spike, the man that has given over so much to try and bring life back again - splendid and compelling. It felt like I could feel my heart beating faster and faster right along with Spike's. Thanks Ever for bring us another chapter - If you celebrate Thanksgiving, I wish you a wonderful day. Fabulous visuals - but what can be left of Buffy after a thousand years... OH MAN~~~~ Your killin me here! I was hoping to get some interaction but NO cliff hanger AGAIN~!!!! aaggggggggrrrrrrrr But it was awesome! kim 11/23/2008 12:06 am Chapter Thirteen So, do we have a Cave Buffy? Her hell is exactly what Buffy would be freaked out about......being alone, no one to save, to talk to, probably nothing tangible to hunt. As delicate as she was when she jumped, she probably started going insane here within weeks. fine read, thank you.now on to whateverelse he will have to do. Another brilliant chapter! I'm sorry phantom Buffy has gone, let's hope the real one will come to feel the same. But what will Buffy's hell be like? Yum. Heartbreaking and so full of love. He has suffered so much already for the love of Buffy...I hope she is not a total bitch to him (also wondering how much her personal hell might resemble S6 of canon!). Every word of this one is so well crafted for maximum emotional punch. You are really coming into your own with this one (okay...you have several standouts from a body of work anyone would be proud of). You make us feel his hope in the midst of his pain, his resignation to not being loved in the face of his heroic actions as well. I am so glad YOU are writing this story as you always treat BOTH these characters with such loving care, never casting either as unworthy or unlikeable. I know that no matter what is happening in Buffy's world you will cause us to feel for her. Clearly you love BOTH of them as do I. Wish Tara would whip up some spell that would make those idiots see what Spike has been through. Excellent chapter, exceptional story. *hugs* Mum Kathleen I just knew it wasn't going to be that easy i just knew it - I hope we get the real buffy next chapter! Great update!!! All4Spike 11/17/2008 06:33 pm Chapter Twelve Your imagery is very powerful and very beautiful. It emphasises the depth of strength in Spike, the supreme force of will that is derived from his love for Buffy. I do hope he can find her soon... and that she'll welcome him. AMI 11/17/2008 04:44 pm Chapter Twelve Amazing chapter , loved it .. liked the Buffy convo and goodbye ,that was sweet. Now onto Buffy's hell *shudders* More soon please and Happy Anniversary! :) nikki c. 11/17/2008 10:34 am Chapter Twelve Oh, what a cliffy! This is such a truly unique story. Thank you for sharing it and I eagerly await the next installment! kim 11/17/2008 09:02 am Chapter Twelve Ah, end of the section, and on to the new. And probably not to nice. ;) Nice touch, having her say goodbye in his head. ya_lublyu_tebya 11/17/2008 09:00 am Chapter Twelve Yay!! He made it! Hope the real Buffy hasn't completely lost it. Look forward to the next update. thanks for the update - working it into your busy schedule and special time. Wonderful description of his physical environment and his unending devotion to his cause - really like how you use Buffy as his anchor - the banner looks nice - very pleased that you were able to use it - Happy Anniversary - FoolForLove 11/17/2008 07:23 am Chapter Twelve Eeee! Beautiful update! (and happy anniversary) excellent read, thank you. really should let xander and the watcher follow spike and just leave them there. BT_ 11/12/2008 03:36 am Chapter Eleven Your writing is so...horrifyingly evocative. Well done. I cna't wait to see what happens next. All4Spike 11/12/2008 12:52 am Chapter Eleven Wow! Well done, Spike! Good for Giles for wanting to give him more time. Now then... is he going to heal up the way he did after the holy water? Liza 11/11/2008 06:55 pm Chapter Eleven Oh thank God. Feel really involved with this one. Please update soon! Bridget 11/11/2008 06:44 pm Chapter Eleven I always new Spike would make it. This is my first review of your story although I have been reading it since it first began. I did not know what to say. Your descriptions of Spike suffering and hope is very graphic and I ached for him. I am glad that he is out of this web. I hope that he won't have to endure much more suffering. You have done a great job writing this story. Endlessly gruelling, yet he had the spirit to withstand it! ! hope Spike gets some strength from somewhere - he's going to need it. And there is still some faith in him back at the ranch! Nice. ya_lublyu_tebya 11/11/2008 09:07 am Chapter Eleven Yay!! He's free. Not surprised by Xander's words - if that was really them and not another trick. Can't wait for another update - this story is just...magical. kim 11/11/2008 07:27 am Chapter Eleven crap, the last review was me. If Spike's body doesn't come back now that he's free, he better try to take some blood. He can't accept an offer, but he can *take*. 11/11/2008 07:25 am Chapter Eleven Yay! And, oh....that's gonna hurt. Frickin' Xander....always too impatient. But yeah, it doesn't matter. Yay...But, so close and yet...Can't wait to read the rest. YES!!!!!!!!! poor baby but YESSSSS!!!!!!!!! oh man! I can't wait for more! Leanne 11/11/2008 05:29 am Chapter Eleven It is a testimony to your writing that I've been able to stay with this story. I know you must be setting things us, and I'll find out why this was so important and loooooooooooongggggg - right? I definitely feel like I've been throuh the three hundred years of torture wading through these last few chapters. PLEASE get us out of this torture! WOW! Tight and well written. Perfect description of hell in so many ways...losing himself (or nearly) and his contact with his mental Buffy then having to face the great Scooby attitude. That makes the physical like nothing. I really do wish they had a TV screen to see what he's been up to. Maybe Willow and Tara can conjur up something and that might shut Xander up finally not to mention Giles. Yeah...send Xander down to get her that'll be fun! LOL Very intense and painful but he has paid for all his crimes IMHO. He doesn't even expect her to regard his efforts. Poor Spike. Mum Kathleen Totally wonderful and excellent - great finish for this part of his love driven trials and journey - Great Update - I love this story. AMI 11/11/2008 04:44 am Chapter Eleven Oh god it looks like Spike made it ...Hopefully he'll be able to reach Buffy soon *crosses fingers* Beautiful chapter , I loved it but so sad ;( Poor Spike , the Scoobies don't give him any credit at all ! AGH More soon please:) Ouch! Well done. very good chapter. loved the last line. AMI 11/09/2008 03:39 am Chapter Ten Hang in there Spike, God this is so sad ;-( Love his speech about loving Buffy ! He loves her so much and is determined to get her out , no matter what they put him thru . Beautiful story , can't wait for more! terrific new chapter - this is a splendid story - fine work. I LOVE your brave and courageous Spike. oh my goodness, i love your writing. its so brilliant. so filled with thoughts and emotions and wonderful descriptions. and have i mentioned lately how much i love your spike? he is so awesome. buffy is the luckiest girl in the world. love the update!!! I'd say Spike has paid in full for his sinful wicked past. This is grueling and that is as it should be in hell. I really can't help but hope that Buffy, Giles and all the Scoobies find out exactly what he went through and gladly. Wondering if he is connecting with the real Buffy...interesting how she doesn't always come when he wants/needs her...as if she had free will choice as opposed to a mental construct. Then again he HAS made her just like the real thing. Clever boy has figured out how to remember the important stuff and endure and as you would expect...it's all about Buffy. He really loves her beyond measure. This is just perfect...you make us feel a bit of his suffering so strongly it could make you cry. You really do have the depth of his love well defined. Excellent as always. You are so talented! Mum Kathleen Liza 11/07/2008 06:35 pm Chapter Ten This is powerful stuff. You write torment frighteningly well. Honestly, reading this makes me flood with adrenalin and claustrophobia - but that's a compliment to you. Just wrap it up next chapter? Great job of describing Spike's suffering, and even his doubts with his determination. His talk with the Buffy inside his head was done so well, his words heartfelt and unrefined and raw... I loved it. I don't know how far you're planning to take this story, but now that I've found it, I promise to be on the edge of my seat, with you all the way! Painfully real. Loved Spike's version of Buffy and why he sees her as she is. What a shame that the "real" Buffy can't be a party to those conversations. The things she'd learn about herself and him. What endurance! Spike deserves his heart's desire - and then some! Great chapter. ya_lublyu_tebya 11/07/2008 09:08 am Chapter Ten Such dedication through this torment - Spike really is a strong man. Hope he can get to the end almost sane! Great update, Holly. I look forward to more. kim 11/07/2008 08:53 am Chapter Ten Wow, his Buffy speech... Ah, my heart hurts for him........ Shiko 11/07/2008 07:50 am Chapter Ten Yeah, Spike will make another day.... but I won't!! God, it's so sad ;_; and he's trying so hard... oh man! What are you going to come up with for the 3rd day? I could go into all the this's and that's of what i liked about the chapters but honestly I am not a writer I'm a reader! I just know I really enjoyed it. Thank you! what a great read, thank you. Terrific chapter - Spike's endurance was enthralling. I fear he's going to need it. kim 11/03/2008 09:07 pm Chapter Nine Eeep. FetchingMadScientist 11/03/2008 05:42 pm Chapter Nine A hundred years for a day? That's a steal, I thought it would be something around ten times that! But then, you're not as mean as I seem to be if my mind went there...;) This is a great story. Pin 11/03/2008 03:05 pm Chapter Nine I love the way you turn all of the really bad things that happen into positives in spike's head. Excellent story! I'm wondering how really crazy he will be by the time this is over, let alone what shape he will be in! Angel 11/03/2008 02:15 pm Chapter Nine WOW! Great update WOW Great Chapter! I really hope he isn't too weak by the time he finally gets there to get her out. Now you got me all worried! Can't wait for the next update! Shiko 11/03/2008 10:31 am Chapter Nine oh that's really nasty. 300 years?? ya_lublyu_tebya 11/03/2008 09:14 am Chapter Nine Wow, evil (but well, duh). Great stuff, Holly. Look forward to the next update. 11/03/2008 08:33 am Chapter Nine your work just keeps getting better - excellent chapter - I love how you concentrate on spike's unfailing devotion and commitment to his task and his unfailing love for this woman - great job! SlayrGrl 07/10/2009 05:28 am Chapter Eight I can't wait for more. Everything is moving along just perfect and completely believeable... I love it. Three days without a big nasty spider I hope. excellent read, thank you. just wait for three days. spike be patient. right. 11/02/2008 06:19 am Chapter Eight Love your beautiful brave Spike - thank you so very much for bringing us this underworld journey tale - three days of suffering to help bring about a resurrection? ya_lublyu_tebya 10/29/2008 09:09 am Chapter Eight Another brilliant update! Poor Spike, being tormented and played with. Good job he really believes in himself. I look forward to the next update. Do I sense a difference between "hell time" and RW time? “That’s a spider-web,” he explained. “Or…the rough equivalent.” Yikes - that sounds ominous. Spike did wonderfully well in this chapter, he just has to keep strong! But what will he face next? A smashing read. I really can't wait for more - as soon as humanly possible pleeeeease!!!! kim 10/28/2008 06:25 am Chapter Eight Ah, but where there's a spider web, there's a *spider*. A spider that'll inject him with venom, or wrap him up and suck the juices out. For 3 days. Good luck, Spike. FoolForLove 10/28/2008 05:45 am Chapter Eight Uh oh. I wonder how long three days translates to in hell. ::pets Spike:: Great update. Thanks! awwwwwwwwwwwwww MAN~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really really REALLY hope your able to update soon! I am on the edge of my seat!!!!! Great chapter. They clearly do not understand Spike's love for Buffy. He loves the goodness in her not just her body. He wouldn't want to paint the town red in an evil copy of her...he is drawn to her light (effulgent was ever his desire). This next test is interesting. Is it a lie? Does he have to wait out 3 days or is that a trick? A web that big must have a spider to match...ooooohhhhh nasty! (My personal nemesis there....spiders, 3 scars to prove it). Wonderful view of a piece of hell. You have him down to a tee....stubborn and determined and very much in love. Glad Willow told him that the invitation wasn't spur of the moment, that will give him strength. Excellent. Mum Kathleen And I just had a thought...I wonder if the Buffy he's talking to is the First... hm, can't wait to see the trial you've dreamed up now. the Holy Water thing was gruesome and wonderfully done! very good read, thank you. must be second trial. couldn't be all he has to suffer. And I keep coming back to the whole, "Don't accept what's offered" thing. This is what he wants, and he could have it.... It's nice to see you back, Holly! *hugs* This story is great, and Spike is coming through so true, just like he did on screen. I missed your stuff. It's good to see you again. :) that was a horrendous intro to his trials - but a great chapter. "In seconds he would wish for dust while begging for the strength to push onward." I love this line - the essence of what it is going to take to get through this first phase - Wonderful to have a new story from you - I have always admired and enjoyed your work. - Good Luck with all your other work - is this a trial, or what?? oh, love it, love it! great story so far. all the time in the world would be worth the wait. spike is so awesome. if every person was that devoted to those they loved, there would be a lot less heartache in this world. Oh dear I'm with Spike....too easy (okay not easy by a long shot.....wow that was painful to read but oh so well written hon). I have a feeling it might not be Buffy at all. Maybe another dream even. Love how real Spike is...clear ideas and plans that his emotions bollocks up, in this case...anger. He had to go through that twice because he let his anger control him. That's our Spike. It makes sense that he can't die, not in hell...he may well hope he can though before it is all over. I really hope Buffy finds out ALL that he has endured, including his willing jump into and swim through holy water. She needs to know what he was willing to do for the love of her....they ALL need to know and in detail not just vague stuff. Wish Willow could open a magic window so they could all see because they would have to change their attitude if they could. Excellent. You are doing this story proud, hon. Love, Mum Kathleen oooh - can't be that easy. I sense something heartbreaking coming up... oh boy !!!! NEED MORE!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!! Great chapter! kim 10/23/2008 09:11 pm Chapter Seven Oh, yeah, using Buffy as a trial will cut way deeper than anything done to his flesh. ya_lublyu_tebya 10/23/2008 08:34 pm Chapter Seven It's got to be an illusion, right? Can't wait for the next chapter. Great descriptions in this chapter. Really liking this story. More please! So wonderful to see Spike hanging on to his cool (in his own special way -lol) and thinking things through. 10/20/2008 06:19 pm Chapter Six Well, you sure know how to keep your readers off balance! The confusing beginning, the ...cheese? I'm enjoying this story, and wondering what you've got planned for the rest of the trial. Looking forward to more! :) All4Spike 10/20/2008 04:31 pm Chapter Six Surely Spike can longjump 4 metres... with the hope that the wall is an illusion... or perhaps not... hmm... Ingenious test. If the nightmare opening is anything to go by, this is going to be grand guignol horror all the way. Perfect! I love a bit of horror. Spike knows about the trickery and misleads, let's hope he keeps his head! there has to be an escape for our vamp hero - seems like something being earth-bound should not necessarily have to work same in a different plane - Love your voice for Spike - your description of the imagined funeral was very effective - it felt like just what Spike would have felt had it been real. Not only Buffy's nightmares but like Spike's also - the worst that could have would be for him to fail. ya_lublyu_tebya 10/20/2008 09:04 am Chapter Six Had a feeling it might be holy water. Interesting trial. The way you weave this story is amazing, Holly. I look forward to the next update. kim 10/20/2008 04:33 am Chapter Six Ooooo, ouch.....talk about difficult! larry? very good read, thank you. 10/17/2008 02:39 pm Chapter Five I can't wait to see what happens next!!! A nice low-key intro to hell - Larry is pretty cool too. I'm looking forward to the horror, Spike will have to be stronger than he's ever been before. Can't wait for more kim 10/17/2008 02:54 am Chapter Five Larry's funny. And it works that he's not really malevolent, just doing a job...we know well that not all demons have the same temperment. Looking forward to the trials. Awesome update. Absolutely loved the Dante quote! It just had to be there. Can't wait for more. 10/16/2008 07:45 pm Chapter Five Ha, Larry is so great. An amusing but real start that doesn't take away from how serious and horrifying the future will become. A great story and I can't wait to see what you come up with for the trials. From chapter 4 on, the entire story is posted in bold. This makes if quite difficult to read. Not sure what happened, but maybe a broken html tag? Reading long passages in bold or italics is hard on the reader's eye. Hope you'll be able to fix it without too much trouble. Interesting story so far, even though I ended up cutting and pasting and unbolding it so I could read it painlessly. Don't worry, when I'm done, I will delete. Blue splendid perfomance at dinner by all except harris.) very good read, thank you. Hopefully Xander will at least listen to Anya for once! It's a fine thing Spike is doing and he deserves everyone's support. J 10/14/2008 12:26 am Chapter Four Wow, I am so loving this story, you really have the emotion and the buffyverse rythym down. I actually had thought out a story along these lines, what would have happened if she was in hell? I'm so glad to see someone writing that sort of thing and doing it so well. More Please!!! May 10/13/2008 09:13 pm Chapter Four This is just a beautiful story. You write their emotions so well. All the pain, all the anguish, the anxiety, the hope, the dread---you manage to capture it all in those few words and actually make the reader feel what the characters are feeling. Really, very great job. I can't wait to read more :) All4Spike 10/13/2008 09:07 pm Chapter Four They really should have learned by now that Dawn is always going to find out stuff that she wants to. And... Yay for Anya! More please. Um...next chapter? Loving this story so far, hun. Wonderful ensemble use of the Scoobies and their growing respect for Spike. ya_lublyu_tebya 10/13/2008 07:57 pm Chapter Four Wow, great update. And go Anya!! Can't wait for more. 10/13/2008 06:39 pm Chapter Four OH WOW!!! Great chapter! Great Chapter! I can't wait for MORE!!!!! thanks so much for the new chapter - wonderful story! Forgot to mention...love the myth reference on the don't eat anything! Those three rules scare me a bit for certain.....for some reason the don't forget your name seems the most omen filled. Kathleen Love the dynamics here. Xander is the only one still swimming in the Nile...they ALL see it, that it really is love and the self-sacrificing type that Spike feels. They also don't seem to doubt that he WILL get Buffy out. Xander (the penis as Anya so perfectly called him) needs multiple head smaps. Love this...lots of THINKING with them all. Loved Spike spilling his guilt at the table (anyone who doubts his love or that he is far from Angelus who would NEVER feel guilt over anything without the soul is just deliberately blind) was crackling with emotion. You are doing a splendid job as always. Love the humor in face of horror. That is a real life touch just like laughter at wakes. Squirrels and green beans make for a funny hell and it hit them all that way...the combination of tragedy and fear with the humorous. Wonderful. Mum Kathleen Love the dynamics here. Xander is the only one still swimming in the Nile...they ALL see it, that it really is love and the self-sacrificing type that Spike feels. They also don't seem to doubt that he WILL get Buffy out. Xander (the penis as Anya so perfectly called him) needs multiple head smaps. Love this...lots of THINKING with them all. Loved Spike spilling his guilt at the table (anyone who doubts his love or that he is far from Angelus who would NEVER feel guilt over anything without the soul is just deliberately blind) was crackling with emotion. You are doing a splendid job as always. Love the humor in face of horror. That is a real life touch just like laughter at wakes. Squirrels and green beans make for a funny hell and it hit them all that way...the combination of tragedy and fear with the humorous. Wonderful. Mum Kathleen kim 10/13/2008 05:30 am Chapter Four Great dinner conversation. Yeah, Anya! And wow, time to go already.......Good luck, Spike. very good read, thank you. Darlin' you KNOW I am loving this and wanted to say how glad I am that you are putting it up here. I understand lots of reasons for decisions made but the readers here deserve a chance to get the best and that includes at the top of the list YOUR stories. So glad you are making it easier for access. WONDERFUL story. It is always so clear in reading your work that you truly love and "get" this pair and that makes it many cuts above. *hugs* Mum Kathleen Excellent Story, H - love the responsible Spike and the Demon King set up is great. Wow. I just read all three chapters in one go. This is amazing. You're weaving this story so brilliantly. More please! P.S. Glad to see you sharing your fic over here. 10/10/2008 04:03 pm Chapter Three This is an excellent premise. I'm really enjoying how you're writing it as well. Very Interesting turn of events - if both the ring and sword have been brought into this dimension where is the crown? What happened to Brychantus or The Demon King? Which one made it back if either? Great Update - can't wait to see what Willow's journey will be like - nice plot advance - kim 10/10/2008 03:57 am Chapter Three Ah....interesting new layer! And Dawn is much smarter than the rest give her credit for. I agree with Spike that she shouldn't be coddled as if she's a baby. If Tara's so worried, why doesn't she go with Willow? I really like the dynamic you have here, you paint a really believable picture of the gang having to rely on spike -- which is difficult to pull off. You really capture the Giles and Spike relationship well. This really reads like an episode, you have everyone's voices down so well. Which is really outstanding, because most writers struggle with characters who aren't their favorites. (I'm really intrigued to see if you do Tara and Dawn, and how you do Buffy.) spike seems to be in his own hell. very good read, thank you. IT 10/08/2008 06:28 pm Chapter Two Well done. I can feel Spike's impatience rolling off the page (screen?). Can't wait to read more. Excellent new chapter - I have been wanting to read a really good story of Spike traveling to an underworld to try and bring Buffy back - I am so glad that you are taking on this project. Really like how Giles, Willow and Spike are working out in this piece - I always enjoy having Spike being able to work with either of these two. kim 10/08/2008 01:15 am Chapter Two I'm thinking of a magnified version of Buffy's mind when she locked herself in after Dawn was taken, plus imagining her failure and Glory sucking the world into Hell, but...... Buffy has always been afraid of being alone, and she was scared to death of losing her sister. Perhaps her ultimate fear is wandering through life completely alone and unseen, ineffectual and abandoned. Perhaps playing out a Slayer's life over and over and always failing to save anyone. *sigh* ratcheting up the tension, here. :) Like seeing Giles be reasonable and respectful of Spike's feelings and value. Can't wait to see what Buffy's version of Hell looks like...although I think I can imagine what it might be. Powerful chapter. Giles is doing a great job planning for the unknown. Nice to see the support for Spike. missus_grace 10/07/2008 10:32 pm Chapter Two I like seeing Spike and Willow as friends. She is the villain in so many Season 6 stories so it's nice to see her as a sympathetic character here. oh man it just gets better and better! I can't wait for MORE MORE MORE!!!!!! great Chapter! Lea 10/07/2008 09:35 pm Chapter Two Welcome back! What a start, I'm breathlessly awaiting the next part! All the best /Lea Liza 10/07/2008 09:14 pm Chapter Two What a pleasure. I can see a beautiful tension between self-redemption and self-damnation spinning out here - and I'm very interested to see where you're going with the 'Buffy's deepest fears' thing. Perhaps bliss with the bloodsucker? Can't wait for more. This seems a lot more complex than some Spuffy, delicious though it always is. All4Spike 10/07/2008 09:00 pm Chapter Two I think I must have reviewed chapter 1 somewhere else... This is developing very nicely. Sweett Willow making sure Spike ate, typical Tara concentrating on Dawn. Also typical Xander wanting to ride to the rescue himself. Is Giles throwing Spike a bone to make him co-operate or has he really accepted that Spike loves Buffy? It'll be interesting to see how that develops. Congratulations! You've been rec'd! The Reader's Have Chosen is a new fanfiction recommendation community dedicated to finding the best of the best in fandoms across the boards, and sharing them with other authors and avid readers. Your story, "The Writing on the Wall", has been rec'd and is now being voted on in the Monthly Poll Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Fellow fandom-aficionados will vote for their favorites of all the recommendations, and the stories with the most votes will be posted on the front page. You can find our website at (without spaces): http : // thereadershavechosen . eternflame . com You can find the Buffy Weekly Poll at (without spaces): http:// thereadershavechosen. eternflame. com/ forum/ index. php? topic= 550.0 ~Cat fine start to the new tale. thank you. 10/14/2008 07:02 am Chapter One First thing I thought was: "Good summary." Then I saw the name of the author and thought, "Oh yeah, that makes sense." I've read you before. Good stuff. Keep it up. blarghums 10/08/2008 08:00 am Chapter One before i even start reading i'd like to say, thanks for writing, i've enjoyed some of your stories a great deal, and i'm sure the others were wonderful but the synopsis' didn't capture my fancy... anyway, if you write them, we will read them cheers AJ Hofacre 10/07/2008 05:42 pm Chapter One Hmmmm. I'm sensing.... yet another hit for the incomparable Holly :) I love it, ducks, this one's gonna be good!! Interesting twist on that event. Can't wait to watch Spike come riding to the rescue. I'm sure it won't be easy for them. Shiko 10/07/2008 12:17 am Chapter One Phew. That's a interesting question, what if Buffy actually went to Hell... I am not sure I understand that self-made-hell-theory, but I am going to keep on reading to find out, what it actually looks like. Great idea and a very good first chapter. kathyshop 10/06/2008 11:52 pm Chapter One Great start! It's going to be interesting to see what Buffy's self-made hell looks like. Also liked that Buffy was ready to ask Spike back into the house. Love your work and it's great to see you with a new one! Fantastic start! Love your writing and the premise is one of my absolute favourites, so a better combination I couldn't ask for. OH BOY!!!! Great start! I cant' wait to see what you do with this!!! Welcome back BTW!!!! Belle 10/06/2008 03:49 pm Chapter One oooo very good start! Self-made Hell huh? That's not necessarily fire and brimestone...could be anything. A person's past failures to be experienced repeatedly. Their own personal idea of what Hell would be like. It's a very interesting idea. Look forward to seeing more of the story! Update soon please! Tamara 10/06/2008 01:10 pm Chapter One It makes so much more sense for Buffy to be in hell if her body didn't die. Great start and I'm glad you're posting here again. Good to see you here. A spanking good start - as always - to an interesting take on S6. I relish every word of your work and can't wait for more. kim 10/06/2008 10:12 am Chapter One Wow.......that's heavy. Been a long time since I've seen an idea with that much gravity. duke6665 10/06/2008 10:00 am Chapter One WOW great start.really great...welcome back What a great start - I was at the edge of my seat through the whole read - This looks like it is going to be one of your very best ever. oh my goodness! this first chapter is so full of emotion, i can't fathom what you have in store! lovely, lovely piece. | |||
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