The old adage really fits here: 'You don't know what you've got till it's gone.'

That long walk gave Buffy plenty of time to be honest with herself without any distractions. 

I want more! Especially if Dawn & Buffy get to give Xander hell for staking Spike.

Xander is in really deep denial about Spike's attributes isn't he? I mean he said it himself, Spike is compact and well muscled! I can understand him being upset but he has no place to say anything or to dust Spike. He dumped Anya in the most public, painful, humilating way. His reasons don't matter. For him to get on his high horse is a bit hypocritical too. Anya slaughters more people than Spike could have ever hoped to when he was evil. But that didn't matter because Xander was sleeping with her. But the same rules don't apply to Buffy.

Glad to see she is missing him and realizing why she misses him. Buffy isn't known for her introspection so it's good to see her doing it now.

The hell thing is the one thing I never understood on the show though. If vamps don't have souls how can they go to hell? There isn't a soul to send. They just cease to exist.

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  Whew, angst.  You've captured the Scooby dynamic really well here.  I am watching Buffy and Angel with my niece and We're currently about midway through season 6 and this feels like that time period.
  As to the Scooby dynamic, they never really got into any kind of lasting fights.  They always forgave each other without ever actaully getting over the reasons they were upset.  I'm getting that here as well.  They never placed enough blame.

  In my rewatch I founnd out that I sometimes like Xander a great deal,  ut then he goes on rants and gets really really full of himself and holier than everybody and I hqve to hate him for a while.  That's the Xander your currently writing and you are doing a fantastic job,  I hate the hell outta him,lol.

  Cool story so far, I really can't wait to see where your headed here.

Yeah.  You've got Buffy down pat.  She is definitely not good with the self analysis.  Update, please? 

This gave Buffy some time to think, but also gave her some more "normal" troubles.

Please let her punch Xander, or stab him. Please?

I like the way you've made Buffy think over her feelings. Xander really needs to be punched ( and I don't usually advocate violence), he was so wrong about this, especially after leaving Anya at the altar. Just one little thing, I think you mean Principal Snyder not Skinner (unless Buffy turned up in the Simpsons!). Looking forward to the next chapter.

So glad to see Buffy having a rare session of introspection and being honest with herself.

Xander by contrast is being characteristically stubbornly self-righteous and refusing to see what's under his nose. I never did understand the sudden claim in S7 that he was the one who sees - because until that little scene with Dawn in 'Potential' he had had his eyes well and truly closed when he wasn't diving deeply into that river in Egypt.