Hide and Seek by dreamweaver

06/07/2014 03:44 am
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In the light.  I like the sound of that.  I started to see hints of how they might both be the same person...  but I wasn't sure until right near the end.

Nice.

Blue
http://<a href="http://www.tthfanfic.org/authors.php?no=12717&amp;list=profile">DeepBlueJoy's tales</a>

08/18/2013 04:18 am
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Totally fantastic!   All of it!
I'm so glad you liked it!  Thank you!

Kimberly L
04/23/2011 10:56 am
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Awesome, brilliant, loved it !!!   

Sara
03/30/2010 09:14 pm
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This was a beautiful story; a true bit of the human condition and redemption in the dark. It wasn't faux angsty or a mood piece, it resonated with the lessons that they both learned and a believable happily ever after. Loved it!
Oh, thank you!  I'm so glad you liked the story!  I'm very pleased with the way it turned out.

Buffy
02/23/2010 07:31 am
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Wow! Amazing!
Thank you!  It was so much fun to write!  I'm so glad you enjoyed it!

Julie
02/22/2010 12:43 pm
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 This fic was awesome, BUT; you`re repeating your self. When I read one of your fics, I have pretty much read them all. I love you to pieces but you have to try a more original plot. Dont be scared, you`ll do great ;)
What interests me is the emotional dynamic between Buffy and Spike, which is the reason I write Spuffy.  Any romance has really only one basic plot with variations depending on the characters of the hero and heroine - they meet, are attracted, something gets in the way, all ends happily.  The only way a romance can be radically different is to vary the heroes, not the plot.  One can play with the events and various aspects depending on the time period in which the story is set, but without Buffy and Spike there is no story and, because the emotional complexities are what interest me, only so much one can do since the dynamic cannot be changed without radically altering Buffy and Spike.

I'm not interested in straight adventure or mystery for BtVS stories.  If you like those, there are several other authors who write them.  You might find some slightly different plotting in my other dimension tales like 'A Different Light' or 'Running Wild', but the focus is still the Spuffy romance, so the heart of it is still the same.  I’m glad you like my writing and if you have any suggestion as to how to vary the plot without losing the romance or the characters, I'd appreciate hearing them.

My non-BtVS stories, mostly non-romance SF, do have radically different and complicated plots, but then they deal with characters radically different from Buffy and Spike, and they don’t have the same heroes for every story.  I’ve been lucky to find as many variables as I have for Spuffy so far and that people like them enough that they keep being nominated and winning awards.

02/22/2010 02:31 am
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I sat down today and read this story from beginning to end and ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT.  There are just no words and I am glad that Willow as getting all of the nuances that Buffy was throwing out there before they got to see William/Spike in action.  Angel GOT what he deserved. happy days...
Thank you!  I'm so glad you liked it!  I thought Tara's death would have made Willow much more sensitive and sympathetic than before.  And I never can resist rubbing Angel's nose in it!  *g*

02/11/2010 12:08 am
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Another excellent story, good writing and accurate characterisations.
I really enjoyed it, thanks!
Thank you for enjoying it!

Kicki
02/09/2010 11:46 am
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Loved this story (knew you wouldn´t disappoint me this time either *s*) as a whole and all the bits ( Buffys smile, Willow understanding, Angels reaction, DemonSpike still beeing Spike, Buffy finally doing some thinking and so on- the list is long...) inside.
You don´t happen to have any ideas for Buffy to think and act upon being jealous of Faith in s 7, do you? Would love a long story involving that... Anyway- Thank you, it´s making my week every time you have a new update:))
I'm so glad you liked it!  Thank you!  I haven't had any ideas about Buffy being jealous of Faith, but I'll certainly think about that.  I've presently been bitten by a bug about another Post-Chosen story set in Rome with Rome's Master causing trouble and am deeply involved with that.  Hopefully I'll have it up soon.

02/05/2010 05:06 am
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God, God, God.  I just love your stories.  You give Spike everything he should have gotten in the show, Buffy forever and the chance to thumb his nose good and proper at Angel.  Awesome job!
Oh, thank you!  I do want Spike to have all those things.  That's the way I wanted the show to go, so I keep writing it like that. :)  I'm so glad you liked it!

marstersrules
02/04/2010 03:16 pm
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im so sorry!the nameless review below is mine!i forget to write it!anyway great job again!
Thank you for telling me.  I love to know who likes my stuff. :)

02/04/2010 03:08 pm
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poetry once again!!!please write more post chosen-not fade away stories!i cant seem to get enough of them and you are really good at it!!plus all this reading improves my english!!!but as a personal favor make buffy suffer with her guilt and grief a little more!i think she always get away to easilly!  i cant wait for your next story!!!
Thank you!  I'm so glad you liked it!  My next story isn't post Chosen or NFA and it looks as if it's shaping up to be more fluff than angst.  But I will be writing more post Chosen.  I enjoy them too.

fyreburned (Kara)
02/04/2010 12:10 pm
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OMG, I LOVED this story! So Wonderful! Such a lovely claim!
I knew he was a "split" personality, for sure, when Angel was able to just stomp right IN his apartment. It was great seeing Angel showing off his whiney, poor-loser side!
Will there be any sequels to this one? Would love to see some follow-ups!  And will always look forward to more from you in the future.
Thanks for such an enjoyable story--- I've truly looked forward each night to your updates! I'm sorry to see it ended!
~~Kara
Oh, thank you so much!  There won't be any sequels to this one - I tend to be very nervous of sequels.  But there will be more stories set in Rome and Rome's Master will be turning up in person.  Thank you so much for enjoying it!

02/04/2010 04:36 am
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 Job well done! That was just plain breathtaking :)

Oh and....

“My cookies have finished baking, Angel,” said Buffy softly.

Spike didn’t say a word. But he smiled. One huge, triumphant, shit-eating grin.

This was possibly the funniest thing I have ever read. Again as usual amazing story. Thanks for it :D


Oh, I'm so glad you liked it!  Thank you!  It was a new thing for me, more plotty than usual. :)

02/04/2010 04:35 am
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Another great story- I'm sad to see it end.
I was beginningto suspect that it was a Jeckyl and Hyde thing, but you kept me guessing. I loved the ending, where he chooses to be Spike, the perfect combination of demon and William.
'Energy Balls Don't Die'- for some reason that line made me giggle.
Can;t wait to see what you'll bring us next!
I wasn't sure how long I could keep people from suspecting the Jekyll and Hyde thing, not being good at mysteries. :)  I'm so glad you enjoyed it!  Thank you!  And I hoped that line would come across funny, as I was trying to loosen up the tension a little.

laura
02/04/2010 03:12 am
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sorry to have it end so soon.
Thank you!  I'm so glad you liked it!

marstersrules
02/03/2010 05:15 pm
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i have read most of your stories and i love them but this one OH. MY .GOD!!!!!!!!!!ilove the way you write!it moves me and i feel like im actually there!its like i see the show continue just like always wanted!i must say that i come across buffy the vampire slayer and angel 1 year ago because in my country-im greek-officially in dvd they are the 3 first seasons.so i simply hated they way it ended!when i found this site with these stories i was consumed with joy!anyway i cant wait till your next update!!!!!!!
Oh, thank you!  I wanted the stories to seem like continuations of the show.  Like you, I came late to BtVS as well and hated how it ended.  So all my stories are to make it go the way I wanted.  I'm so glad you're enjoying them!

02/03/2010 08:02 am
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No don't eat William! Oh, and I read another review saying that they thought Willow and William would be good together- I completely agree. It's a step up from Kennedy by far.
Can't wait for the next chapter.
That reviewer was right.  They really would suit since they'd share so many interests.  (I don't like Kennedy either.)  Oh, and another reviewer reminded me that Angel couldn't remember his own name,  so of course he can't remember Spike's.  I'd forgotten that.  *g*

Belle
02/03/2010 05:46 am
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Darn! No waking up to William?? Sadness! Great chapter! Always love it when she tells them to but out. Something she should have done in the series a looooong time ago. I wouldn't really put William with Willow. I'm more of a Willow/Oz fan. Oz was my favorite partner for Willow, not that I had anything against Tara (and Kennedy was a brat, not to mention 15! What was she doing having sex at age 15?! Doesn't matter that it was oral or what not...needs to get priorities straight, you're only a kid for so long!)..sorry, a rant. I'm really, really feeling bad for William because Buffy feels nothing for him. I know she need a little monster in her man, but the goodness in Spike had to come from somewhere and it didn't come from the demon. Or at least that's my thought on it anyways. Anyways, like I said, great chapter! Looking forward to chapter seven but rather sad to know it'll be the last.
I had to choose between funny and serious for the morning after and decided to go for serious because the story had shaped itself that way from the beginning.
Shy, sweet, scholarly William would share a lot more things with Willow than with Buffy.  That's why there's no chemistry between Buffy and him.  They're very different people and he doesn't have the demon's charisma.  Buffy might lust for the demon, but the person she loves is Spike, who combines both the demon's lethal charm and William's goodness and lovingness.  But don't worry, William/ Willow won't be happening here.  And I didn't like Kennedy either.  Either Oz or Tara would be so much better. :)

02/03/2010 03:22 am
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Oh, you're going to make us suffer right up until the end! Naughty!

Wonderful chapter, with a nice openness between them, and teasing and fun. I do wonder at Xander's butting in on Buffy's love life, since friends usually try to be supportive, even when they see disaster looming. But, he's right that Buffy and William don't make an ideal pair. It's almost worth it to see Angel twist, though. *iz evil*
What, give it all away with a chapter to go?  Nuh uh. *g*
And Xander's always butted in, hasn't he?  Though this time he is right - Buffy and William don't suit.  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!

02/03/2010 02:43 am
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 So i have to say I love Buffy with Without Memories Spike, everything about there little relationship was so cute and deep. Then there's the whole not a prophecy thing, and I find myself slightly confused and worried and curious for William's safety. But its ok I trust you to work everything out it a wonderful way! :)
Thank you!  I'm so glad you're liking it!  It will all work out - trust me.  :)

02/02/2010 06:54 pm
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 I am without breath! Beautiful chapter. I am on the edge of my seat :)
Thank you!  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!  This chapter was so much fun to write. :)

Belle
02/02/2010 03:34 pm
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Er...is she going to wake up to William? That would be extremely funny. Great story, as always! And just what is wrong with William?? He's sweet! Would probably dote on her. Bring her flowers and what not. Who doesn't like getting flowers? :( Makes me feel kinda bad for William. 
Ssh, I'm not telling. :)  There's nothing wrong with William, but Buffy needs some monster in her man.  William would actually make a better match for Willow.  Thank you so much for enjoying it!

02/02/2010 11:46 am
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Exellent chapter.
Thank you!  I'm so glad you like it!

02/02/2010 08:02 am
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I'm always happy when Buffy is resourceful, as when she arranges to have a drink spilled on herself, here. I was also happy that William got a few shots in at Angel. Very manly.

Well, now that they are (I assume) going to fall asleep, won't it be interesting to see who is there in the morning? Hee!
Sweet though William is, he couldn't help but be p.o'd at Angel at this point. :)  I'm so glad you're liking it!

fyreburned (Kara)
02/02/2010 05:16 am
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Oh, Gods, I think I'm gonna need a cold shower!!! Or three!!!
Of COURSE the disinvite barrier didn't hold!!! She'd let William in!
And something tells me in a few short hours (ie, daylight), she's gonna be having a seriously uncomfortable morning conversation with William! No wonder the poor fellow is falling asleep over his paperwork, *actually* burning the candle at both ends. But, it's nice to see Buffy jumping in with both feet, finally deciding what exactly it IS that she wants, and deciding not to hold back. Maybe it'll take those 3 magick words to make Spike whole again.  Thanks for the enjoyable chapter! Now, where're my towels, and some cigarettes.... after that chapter, I think I'll take those showers AND take up smoking!
~~Kara
[email]fyreburned@yahoo.com[/email]

Oh, thank you!  I spend the most time on those scenes because I want people to feel them.  I'm so glad to know that they're effective. :)

02/01/2010 01:00 pm
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Great story, i wouldn't worry about the last name bit.  Angel also doesn't remember his own.
And Pratt didn't come from Joss, it came from a terrible Spike comic writer named Peter David that used it to humilate Spike in his comic.  And Brian Lynch went with that and used it.  For me it's non-canon, Joss never said that that was his name.
I never knew that!  I thought Joss had named him Pratt.  I never thought it suited, especially with the background he was given on the show in 1880.  When you say it was Peter David, it makes sense.  He wrote one halfway decent Star Trek novel, then a whole slew of bad ones.  If it was him, that's non-canon for me.  And I'd forgotten that Angel doesn't remember his own.  Now I know what to say if anyone asks me about it. *g*  I'm so glad you're liking the story!  Thank you!

02/01/2010 06:55 am
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Another great chapter!
Oh Xander, why did you have to call Angel? I mean, Xander hates Angel, so why oh why? Then again, maybe he wanted to rub Spike shashued in his face. Okay, that makes much more sense than Xander actually concerned. lol
I've decided I'm in love with William. He's a sweetie, plain and simple. I'm in love with the demon too, but for the same reasons Buffy wants him. lol
I'm assuming the change in last name is significant somehow, even if I can't figure it out. And okay, how do you forget the last name pratt? A hundred years or not, pratt is a British insult right? You'd think Angel would remember every little thing he could insult Spike with.
So the demon part has a soul? Interesting.
I love where you're going with this! It has me guessing! Can't wait for more!
Xander wanted to rub it in.  *g*  He'll be mentioning that in Chapter 6.
William's a sweetie all right, but Buffy needs some monster in her man, right?
In Britain, prat means one's ass.  Joss probably picked that out to explain why Spike's so cagey about revealing it.  I thought the PTB would indulge his reluctance to have it known, which was my reason too.  He was Dru's knight, so why not that?  Angel's forgetting his name was to demonstrate how little he thought of Spike back when he was Angelus - he couldn't bother to remember.  Anyway, that was my reasoning. :)
I'm glad you're enjoying it!  Thank you!

02/01/2010 06:05 am
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Hee! I suspected a Jekyll/Hyde arrangement. Verrry interesting.

That recklessness, that wicked, volatile mockery that had called to mind the lethal, dangerous Spike who had first come to Sunnydale was still there—the demon. But something else was there within the velvety black smoulder of his pupils, a softness that reminded her of the Spike he had turned into towards the end.

Had it been there all along and she hadn’t seen it?


Yep. But I have a feeling all is not lost. ;-)

So much for me being Agatha Christie, huh?  *g*  I'm so glad you're liking it!

02/01/2010 04:22 am
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 I am completely and totally in love with this story. I can't put my finger on it, but I'm so very curious and interested in every single aspect and twist. I can't wait for more :)
Oh, thank you!  This one was tricky to write, but so much fun.  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!

verito
02/01/2010 04:17 am
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 As always a great story =D
Thank you!  I'm so glad you like it!

laura
02/01/2010 04:07 am
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I figured it out. The invite worked for both of them.
Yes, it did.  :)

02/01/2010 04:31 am
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Gah. Well, that was interesting.

It's nice that Buffy wants to go slow with William, and wise considering they don't really have anything in common. Including, it appears, chemistry. One of those mysteries of life...

Why Spike would get to her is no mystery at all, though. *g*

I do wonder why she doesn't tell him a bit of the backstory, though. Aside from the fact that he eventually decides it doesn't matter. (It does.)

Hmmm. Not killing? Is there something *cough*soul*cough* stopping him?

Excellent chapter. I am hooked.
Buffy always needs some monster in her man, right?  :D
She doesn't know what exactly he is, so is nervous of mentioning history that he doesn't remember and, being a demon, would completely disbelieve.  Not killing?  Next chapter, which is up now.
I'm so glad you're liking it!  Thank you!

01/31/2010 09:31 am
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I got home a day early, so I can review now! THe first tthing I did when I got home was to read these updates. lol.
Still ubberly confused about the two Spike (oh God, that's a delicious thought), and if it's the PTB, wtf is going through their minds?
Angel isn;t goiung to be happy, I just sense it.
And um, duh Buffy- of coruse it's the demon that gets you hot. You do remember that it was the rough sex that you were having in season six right? William was the side that she was gettiing along with, but it was the the demon that you hot. And since she completely ingored/rejected the William side (which I personally think she should have taken advantage of when she had him- sweet is great too), why does this suprise her???

Again, my Buffy issues are poking through. lol. Oh, and I like your Xander here- he's not a complete douche. That's always nice to see, but I can see that changing easily enough. I hope it doesn't, but I wouln't be suprised. 

 Can't wait for more!

We all know that it's the demon side that gets her hot, but Buffy never admits it, does she?  She's hung up on 'normal'.  I wanted her to finally face up to it.  And, yup, Angel's not going to be too happy. :D  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!  Thank you!

Sharon
01/31/2010 06:21 am
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I almost fee sorry for Buffy...almost!  Ephiphanies like that can hurt.

This is so cool, Spike has been Tothed! Now Buffy and Willow just need to figure out how to get him back together so he can be whole.  Although I have to say, it would be interesting to have Buffy with Spike and Willow with William. Strange, but interesting.

Looking forward to more, you always provide such a good read.

Thank you!
She had to face what we all knew already - that the demon side is what gets her hot.  :)  Willow with William - now there's an interesting idea.  Not in this story, because it's already done, but in another.  Thank you for enjoying this!

02/01/2010 02:56 am
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Hoo Boy! William is not what anybody expected! What a hoot!

You. You’re the one. The real challenge. The one the Master promised. You’re the one I’ve been looking for.

Well, of course! I do wonder who this Master might be. Not that it matters as much as Spike+Buffy=4evah!

I do wonder why both Spike and William are missing their memories, though. Or, why William has fake ones and Spike has none. Hmmmm.
I kept wondering what William would be like if he were born in this day and age.  Not quite as geeky - he has to survive in a tougher environment.  :)
Humans need memories - demons, living in the present, wouldn't really care.  The next chapter explores that a little.  Thank you for enjoying it!

fyreburned (Kara)
01/30/2010 11:01 pm
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Easy! Willow put the two Xanders back together! Easy-peasy, as Willow would say! But, the question is, which one would/does/will Buffy really want, or perhaps rather, choose? Can she be happy with a solely human and scholarly William? Just 'cos she sees a little  bit of Spike in him? Or would she end up bored out of her mind? Will she tame the demon-Spike even a little bit? Right now, anyway, she feels she can't kill the demon-Spike... yet, he doesn't remember her,  and he obviously wants to kill her. Wow--- poor Buffy really doesn't know WHAT (or WHO) she wants (other than maybe her cake and eating it too? If you look at it from a standpoint of Spike being from a time and place now gone (meaning Sunnydale), and of Buffy's mindset remaining static, she's really not in good mental shape! The world is moving on around her, as are the people around her, changing, growing, maturing, learning, evolving... and she isn't. She, except for her physical environment, is still stuck (or wanting to be stuck) for all intents & purposes, still back in Sunnydale: the person she was, wanting the Spike that WAS.  This might literally foce Miss Summers to make an actual choice here.
And I can't wait until Spike sees William. Surely he'll want to eat him?
Why William "Knight" instead of William "Pratt"? Just curious.
And why the sudden appearance of William AND Spike, both in Rome, both at the same time as Buffy's appearance? And WHY does demon-Spike even WANT to remain in Rome so badly? I mean, initially? Why did he come there (besides HOW!)? Why ROME? Anything to do with Rome's branch of WR&H?  (Has Angel teamed up with the LA branch of WR&H yet here in your story? Will he?) Demon-Spike seems as if he might be somebody's pawn--- especially as he seems NOT to know who he is. Can't wait to see who and moreso WHY!
Sorry for so many questions and guesses! Am enjoying it tons so far! Hurry & post more, please!!!
~~Kara
[email]fyreburned@yahoo.com[/email]

Yup, Buffy's going to be forced to face up to what she actually wants. *g*
The danger does exist that demon-Spike might eat William as he might not like having a double around and Spike always tends to take direct action.
'Knight' instead of 'Pratt' is explained when Angel turns up in Ch. 4.  Spike hated people knowing his real name and I didn't want to spoil that for him here. (And, yes, Angel is CEO of W&H now as in canon.)
And all those questions?  They're exactly what I wanted people to ask.  *evil grin*
I'm so glad you're enjoying it!  Thank you!

01/30/2010 10:06 pm
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I love the idea of Spike and William having been separated, so Buffy can see what she loves about the vampire she knew. I loved how you showed both of them as complete characters but clearly different, and Buffy's reaction to both. I do wonder if they are two separate entities now, or if during the day he is William and somehow transforms into Spike at night... Very interesting how Spike doesn't seem to remember who he is, or even the name. I'm really curious about this Master and what part he might have played behind the scenes.

If the human William is part of the Shanshu, though, just imagine the boozing, whoring Liam turning up after Angel Shanshues--I wonder what Buffy would think of that! It's so like Buffy, but I was shaking my head when she thought she would be happy with Angel if only he turned human-- Grow up already, Buffy! You have nothing in common, you've grown apart, and you wouldn't be able to last, bored out of your mind with Angel and no crisis around to distract you from how much you don't fit together!

Great chapter!

I too think Angel would be Liam if he shanshued.  So not a good thing. *g*  But of course Buffy tends to take things at face value, so she'd think his turning human would solve all their problems.  But that's not what she needs.  I'm so glad you're enjoying this!  Thank you!

Liza
01/30/2010 04:38 pm
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Can't wait for more!  Ah, but should I treat myself daily or save up a bunch of chapters for a blowout?  Eternal dilemmas.....   Love the energy of the pure demon Spike. 
Enjoying this hugely, but white slacks?  Really?
Demon Spike is always so much fun!  The white slacks were to show that even in the modern age William would still pick out wrong clothes.  :D  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!  Thank you!

01/30/2010 12:01 pm
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 OMG two Spikes, My imagination is running wild
Seriously, The PTB separated spike and william? But why that 's a good question, althrough I think It may be to help Buffy learn love both of them...  

By the way, I can just see angel face when he learns Spike gfot Sanshued :) that would have been funny

So thanks again for this magnifiscient chapter, that i loved dearly, and i hope to be able to read the next soon
Good luck in your writting 

You're right, that's why.  And there's going to be a scene where Angel reacts to the news.  Thank you for enjoying it.  The next chapter should be up by midnight tonight.

01/30/2010 07:52 am
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Very exciting.  I enjoyed the first meeting with the vampire Spike, and I can feel the tension beginning to build all around. 

  I'm so happy that it was updated so quickly.  Thank you very much for writing!
Thank you for liking it!  I don't post till the story is complete, so there'll be an update every day. :)

02/23/2010 04:48 am
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Wow!!!! Amazing. I'm on tenterhooks to find out what happens next!
I'm so glad you like it!  Thank you!

02/01/2010 02:51 am
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I had to read this a couple of times to get the exact moment when it changed from Buffy's memories of what she had been feeling, and her feelings of the moment. It looks like it was when Faith said, "Five by five" and Buffy remembered talking about what that meant with Spike. Suddenly she knows she's not five by five, and that it the real beginning of the tale.

I actually think that Buffy's memories of events immediately post-Chosen are colored now by her extreme guilt. I have also tried to find my way around the gallows humor and relief of everybody after the battle, and put it down partially to shock and adrenaline let-down. I suspect that things got more serious within hours. We'll never know, though, dammit. Also: gallows humor is all part of the daily death-dealing. I can see the point.

Anyway, it makes sense that Buffy would refuse to forgive herself (for awhile, anyway) because Spike would forgive her. He could never forgive himself for his perceived crimes against her, even when she could forgive him herself. (Which totally happened, off screen.)

I am interested by Willow's parallel experience, and hope that having a confidant will help Buffy deal with what's to come.

"What’s he look like?”

“Some Billy Idol wannabe. What?” asked Philippa, surprised, when both Buffy and Willow jerked around to stare at her.

Hee! The chase is on! Its so nice to have another from you!

Gallows humor, yes, but...Buffy's smile bothered me.  I know Joss wanted to end on an up note, but it left an awfully funny taste in my mouth.  Leaving aside the question of whether she loved him or not, the fact that Spike died for her should have had some impact and it didn't seem to.  Same with Xander's response to Anya's death.  Andrew of all people seemed way more cut up.
That's why I chose to go for the delayed reaction and then, yes, Buffy being unable to forgive herself after that.  You're right.  Faith's 'five by five' is when it hits Buffy.  And her guilt leaves her vulnerable to the subsequent events of the story.
I'm so glad you're enjoying it!  Thank you!

01/30/2010 03:14 pm
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 I am very intrigued! Can't wait for more :)
Thank you!  I'm so glad you like it!  More coming tonight.

01/30/2010 11:40 am
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 Whao, I must say, I'm totaly in love with this new story of yours.
I actually registered in bloodshedverse just to be able to ubmit a review cause obviously i love all your fanfic and this one isn't an exception.

I cried like a baby, what Buffy feels It's so sad ans you write it so that I almost can feel it, it's beautiful...

Well I'm sorry for the very short review but I have to read the next chatper :)
 And thanks for this fabulous story and the good reading time it gives me 
Oh, thank you!  I'm so glad you like my work!  I love writing Spuffy and it's wonderful to know you're enjoying it!

01/30/2010 12:37 am
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YAy! New story!

Thank you! Someone finally understands how God damn callous the lot of them were at the end of Chosen. That smile was the last straw to me- I have never really been able to like Buffy since. None of them seemed to care about who died, they were just so happy that no more hellmouth, except ANDREW of all people- he was the only one completey torn up. Argh! End the series on a high note my ass! It depressed me more than anything- apparenlty the sacrfices of SPike, Anya and the Potentials meant nothing profound for them!

*deep breath*...sorry, but I just rewatched season seven a little while ago, and it's got me rilled. And thank you for the Buffy introspection- it's about freaking time she took some blame! Okay...I feel the need to rant again. lol. I have so many Buffy issues...

Oh? What is Spike up to? I like michevious Spike- now I'm trying to find out if it's an evil(ish) Spike or not, since I can't see the Spike that just died teasing like that. Actually, I can't excatly see the old Spike doing it either...hmm...

Great chapter. I'm very sad since I won't be here the next few days to read yuor next ones. But I will get to them, I swear, the minute I get home!
Oh, my rants too!  That smile got me as well and Xander being 'Oh, well, she was an idiot' when Andrew of all people was upset over Anya's death.  None of them seemed to care that people had died so that they would live.  I wanted Buffy to finally wake up to that.
Aha!  Questions about Spike - exactly what I wanted!  *evil grin*  You'll probably find the whole thing up by the time you get back.  There's 7 chapters.  I'm so glad you're enjoying it!

Sharon
01/29/2010 09:21 pm
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Oh, very interesting beginning. I am so looking forward to where you're taking us!

I was very unhappy with the callousness shown the bye Scoobies on their way out of Sunnydale, and it was good to see a possible explanation for it.

I think that Buffy was way overdue for some introspection, and I enjoyed seeing as it should have been.

Looking forward to the next installment!
I was unhappy about that callousness too - all the smiles and jokes when people who loved them had just died for them.  Maybe Joss wanted to end on an up note, but I hated that.  I wanted Buffy to finally think.  I'm so glad you're liking it!  Thank you!

01/29/2010 05:58 pm
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great, spike's an ass again, i hope he didn't come back evil, but it seems like he might not even know who she is.  and what the hell is dawn's problem?  oh, yeah, she really proved she cared about spike in the end, right.  she only cares now because he's dead.
Was that a good 'great' or a bad 'great'?  *g*  And you know Dawn - she's feeling guilty so she takes it out on everyone else.

01/29/2010 01:50 pm
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OH HOLY SHIT.

So delighted to see a new story by you!  I love that Buffy finally realizes what she's done.  I can't wait to see how she reconnects with Spike!  Great start!
I'm so glad you're liking it!  Thank you!  I really wanted her to realize what she's thrown away.